Good Morning Buddies!
I am devastated this morning. I actuallgot on my WW scale to set up my signature bar and to fill out this questionaire and the scale slammed to 247! I've NEVER been as high as 247. I feel completly depressed. But I will try to be better today at least. I can only do one day at a time. I freak out otherwise. If there is anybody on here from Cape Cod or from southern mass that I can meet with, I'd sure appreciate a face to face buddie. Anyway:
Name: Janet (Radiodoll)
Location: Wareham, MA - at the edge of Cape Cod
Occupation: Radio DJ/ Executive Producer
Marital Status: Married Lesbian for 15 years
Kids: 3. Jami 26 year old Biologist, Rebecca, 23 year old waitress hopefully going back to school for marine biology and Jason, 21 year old roofer who is enjoying his 21 year identity crisis to the max (LOL)
Grandson: Devon, 4 and the apple of my eye.
Pets: Far too many - 5 indoor cats, three outdoor cats, and three dogs - 1 adopted greyhound, 1 Boston Terrier runt of the litter and 1 Silky Terrier on the big side (not fat).
Hobbies: Art, Reading Theater and Women's Basketball - have season tickets to the CT SUN.
Journey - My whole life. My mother alaways told me I was fat and it wasn;t until last year that I look at my childhood and high school pictures and realized that I was NEVER fat. I literally grew into the lie. The best effort I've had was the vodka and cocaine diet - I DO NOT recommen that direction. But I did have an initial weight loss of 25 pounds in a year at WW. I will be using that plan as I go on from now on.
Starting Weight: 257 pounds
Todays Weight: 247 pounds
Goal Weight: between 130 amd 120
Biggest Hurdle: my brain and spirit. I am a food addict. Once I start eating I break out in "more."
I am trying to work on being honest throughout my entire depth of character. It's rough. I am a recovering drug addict and alcoholic - coming up on 16 years in recovery. I just can seem to beat the food addiction. If I didn't have to eat, that would be one this, but I am continually triggered by foos and by stress. I have a lot od stree inj my life right now.
I really need your help. I mean it. I am going to the shrink next week 'cause I am at the point where I feel very dangerour to myself. I know that sounds ridiculous, and I agree but my mind is crazy.
Thanks for starting this group and I hope you won't kick me out for anything that I have said.
Janet