Looking for support, a buddy, anything!
Hi there... I'm new to posting but not to the site. First I suppose I should give a little teeny bit (I'll try to keep it short!) of background info.
I'm 21 years old and I'm 5'7" and I weigh 320 lbs. I live with my lovely boyfriend who is between 380 and 415 lbs + (they can't weigh him at his doctor's clinic so we don't know for sure) and a diabetic plus our dog and cat. We just moved from an apartment into a nice three bedroom house we're renting. Wonderful, right? Except I had a gym in the apartment that I could use for free. I did it once or twice a week, nothing big, but it sure did help my arthritis and I sure FELT better. Well, anyway, I weighed myself at my mom's house for shits and giggles (can I swear? I'm sorry if I can't, it's just a phrase my family has been using for years). I had lost twelve lbs from the last time I weighed myself in like March! So, I guess it finally kicked in,"God, girl you're THREE HUNDRED POUNDS PLUS!" but then I thought, "Hey, maybe if I can lose twelve, I can lose twenty four... and then thirty six". But the thing is, I'm scared to death. This is probably the biggest thing (no pun intended) that I've ever done. Another bad thing is my boyfriend has no interest whatsoever in losing weight or even changing his lifestyle. He refuses to eat less meat, refined foods and god knows he refuses to exercise but I learned a long time ago that I can't worry about his weight if he won't do anything about it. Mostly I would just love to have someone to exercise with so I didn't feel so embarassed about walking or going to a real gym. Plus I'm currently unemployed so joining a gym might be a bit hard right now anyway but I would love to do that once I do have the money. I do have a "Walk Away The Pounds" video that I used once to drop thirty lbs but I stopped and gained it all back. I'd appreciate any tips or support, thanks in advance! I'm so sorry this was this long.
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