Hi everyone, this is my first time visiting this site and I love it!

I've been wanting to find someone to buddy up with that can understand where im coming from. First, a little about me:
I've been heavy all of my life. Ive been on soooo many diets and failed miserably

I can't even remember the last time I exercised. Im 27, married with no children and I think the reason for that is my weight, Im hoping if I lose weight, maybe I can have a baby, Im so sick of watching everyone around me have babies
Im at the point now where I avoid all reflective surfaces so I dont see myself, I just get so down sometimes and I really dont have anyone to talk to that I can share/vent with. I'm the heaviest one on my family now so that doesnt help. Im getting ready to start a new lifestlye. Im going to start the DASH (Dietary approach to stopping hypertension) diet and Im trying to find a ggod exercise I can ease myself into. Ive been so sedentary, that I feel like I cant do anything anymore. I know I have 100 or more to lose, but I havent weighed myself in years, I know I need to change, I just need someone to share with and help me on this endeavor and hopefully I wont fail this time. I'd love to find someone who could chat to me through email, AIM or yahoo messenger, if anyone knows where Im coming from, drop me an email!
thanks for reading!
Heather_dw