I understand where you are. My relationship with food has always been toxic and unhealthy. If I felt down, I ate. If I went out with friends, I ate. And it was always a lot. I had always been told I was a big girl and wasn't sure how to live any differently.
My whole life I've always been a little bit overweight and I've slowly started realizing, I'm afraid to lose weight because I've never seen myself skinny. I know that sounds odd but I'm a person who doesn't like change. I've also feared that maybe if I lose the weight, I'll change and become someone that no one likes.
It's almost like my mind just makes up excuses for me to eat and this time around dieting, I'm doing my best to not let my brain win. We can all do this but it sure isn't easy!
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