Hi, everyone. I just joined here a few moments ago. Long story short, I used to think that I was "fat" in high school when I weighed 117 lbs. (I'm 5'4".) As I moved into my 20s, I was drinking and eating pizza delivery and drinking and chowing down on anything and everything. I don't ever remember being 130, 140, 150, 160, or even 170 ... I suddenly wound up at 180 lbs. And there I stayed until I had my first child in my early 30s. At that time, I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes and went on a low-carb, healthy eating plan. When my son was born, I was at 160 -- and so proud! But I gained the weight back. After two more kids, I was at around 190. Then I quit smoking, and within a year jolted up to 225 or so. I could not believe that number when I saw it on the scale. I was horrified.
That was ... omg ... has it been 7 years?!? Yep. Since then, I have lost 50 lbs, gained 50, lost 30, gained 30, lost 20, gained 20.... Now I am at around 220, and hating it.
I'm sure that many of you will know how I feel in that I am OBSESSED with my weight. I hate it. I hate looking in the mirror. I am ashamed of myself. Even my fat clothes are tight
I think about losing weight many, many times per day. It is on my mind all the time.
I recently started doing a little something about it, but it's not enough. I'm not disciplined to do all things right all the time. And I can always "see" cheats coming up, so I tend to give up easily.
But I see that so many of you have done it ... and I want to do it, too! My dream is to wear a sundress, and to look and feel pretty in it.
I know what I have to do to reach that goal.
--Work out at least 5x a week. I do treadmill right now, about 45-50 minutes, burning about 300 cals.
--Keep my cals to around 1,500 a day. (I think -- according to a recent BMR calculation, I can actually eat 1,800 -- but is that 1,800 really 2,100 MINUS the 300 for the workout?)
--Cut back on beer and wine. (Ladies, my husband is a home brewer. We're not alcoholics, but we do love to have our nightly beer and wine! It is going to be so hard to give this up....)
--What else?!?
Oh, I also have type 2 diabetes now; I take glipazide and metformin 2x a day.
I would like to find a buddy, too. If my story resonates with you at all, let me know. I looked for a "buddy" forum, but didn't see one!
I CAN DO THIS. Right?!?
If you've made it this far, I thank you a BUNCH for listening!