I will introduce myself, my name is Tandy and i use to weigh approx. 120-125 lbs after I delivered my 4th child. Unfortunately I had an eating disorder.Anorexia/Bulemia and I gained 60 lbs and almost died, I was vomiting blood etc..It took me 7 yrs to become stable. I now at least need to lose 125-150 lbs. I lost 45 lbs almost 2 yrs ago on weight watchers, but I have attempted to go back and have not done very well. I feel overwhelmed and am so disappointed with myself that I gained the weight back. I am wondering how to get back on "the horse" and how not to feel like I cant do this. I had planned on having the surgery but my insurance doesn't cover it, and I am scares of it
. I want to look and feel good about myself again. my support system is sketchy...my kids love me and tell me I can do it buts thats it.My husband is a huge sweets eater but never gains a lb and he feels like if he says anything it will be hurtful!I originally went on ww with 2 friends and both of them flaked out on me, but I kept going. i don't know what is different this time and why I cant seem to find the will power and or confidence to get this done...Any help greatly appreciated..