Hi everyone! I am Marie and this is my first time posting on this forum. I am hoping that by having others who are struggling with their weight, or those who have, can help me to stay inspired in my weight loss journey.
A little about me:
As a child I was tall and thin, and never had any weight issue. I have struggled in some form with my weight since I was about 11 or 12. At that age (around when I hit puberty), is when I first noticed there was a problem. I was not skinny like most of the other girls my age, but not was not overweight. I just was self-conscious because I was not "skinny" like my friends. I had always been very athletic and involved in sports, so I think that contributed to me staying fit. I never dieted or tried to be super health conscience, but stayed very active. This continued through my teens. My weight hovered between 140-150 lbs. and I am 5'6.
I had my first child at 19. When I was pregnant with her, I gained about 120 lbs.! I was completely floored at how much weight I was gaining during my pregnancy! In retrospect, I attribute it to the fact that I was not trying to be weight conscience. I ate whatever I wanted because I had always lived that way. As I put the weight on, I became less and less active. Vicious cycle. After my daughter was born, I really made it a point to lose the weight. I ate healthy and began working out at a gym. I lost almost 100 lbs. by the time she was a year old.
When my daughter was about 4, I had a major life change and attitude adjustment. I had become inspired by something that I had read and began to really take control of my body. I started the "Eat Right For Your Blood Type" diet and began really focusing on fitness. It really made me feel great. Lost the last 20 lbs. I had been carrying around and I was feeling very strong. I could run 6 miles in less than an hour, do pushups, etc. I kept this going strong for a long time. When my daughter started kindergarten, I started college. Over the course of that four year period, I gained about 50 lbs. This put my hovering around 200 lbs.
I got pregnant with my 2nd child when I was 28. So, I started my pregnancy at about 210. This time I ended up gaining about 85 lbs. She is now 11 months and I have not come too far.
I started my weight loss journey about a 3 weeks ago. I have been working out really hard at least 5 days out of the week. At this point I have only lost 8 lbs. I am so incredibly frustrated. Starting at 255 lbs. and am currently at 247 lbs. I am still wearing my maternity clothes. This is the largest I have ever been without being pregnant and I am so embarrassed about how I look and that makes it even harder at the gym. I feel like people are staring at me like "Who let the fat chick in the gym?" I want to shout back at them, "What?! You've never seen at fat girl do squats before?!" I am just so discouraged. Please tell me this is worth it! Thanks for reading.
Hello everyone!
VeggieHater- I can completely relate to how you feel. It really is much harder to work out when you are heavier than what your body is used to. I too guess that I feel ashamed and tend to avoid social situations. I actually have not realized that or verbalized it until reading your post, but I am so paranoid about people judging me. It really hurts when you can see a life that you want so badly, but it is such a long hard road to get there. Have to just persevere I guess.
