Donna,

I too love to have pizza... occasionally, I make it at home, and the calories and fat aren't really too bad, usually eat a light lunch or a late breakfast to allow myself a couple of pieces. My other big calorie, big fat downfalls are Italian foods like lazagna and manicotti, but I do manage to sqeeze those in about once a month, I figure if I take away all the stuff I like, I truly set myself up for failure.

I don't know if you like chocolate, another one of my downfalls, but the recipe they have here at this site for chocolate banana creme pie is to die for, and not to bad in the calories and fat, try it when you need a desert.

I am a little concerned about my sinus issue, I have been on medication for sinus infections since January. I am beginning to feel like a pill junky, and I hate taking medicine. The polyps are in my left maxillary sinus cavity, I heard it is painful having them removed and I have had so many sinus headaches the last 3 months, I am not sure I can handle much more there! I guess we shall see.

My parents will be home from Arizona in about 3 weeks, I can't wait, I need a vacation from kids, so there is something to look forward too. I am also applying for a job at the couseling center where I meet with my counselor. I haven't worked on 2 1/2 yrs, so please say a prayer for me, I need to get back on a good regular schedule, including work.

I hope you and family have a safe trip, and I look forward to hearing about it when you get back.

God Bless!
msmomm2

From another survivor of DV! Don't worry the kids will be fine in time. Just takes love and understanding.

Hang in there. I don't come here much but wanted to say you are not alone.

brewcitygirl,

Thank you for you comment, and well wishes. They are appreciated.

The kids and I are all doing much better than we were 2 years ago.

msmomm2

Hey Mom am back from my trip!

We had a great time. As to dgs, you cannot believe what he put me through and I enjoyed every moment. The hotel had two floors and he loved riding in the elevator. We road that thing 200 times if we rode it once. He would get on, push 2 and when it closed pushed one. We HAD to get out and let it close and go back to one and then he would push the outside button to get it to come back and get us! Up and down up and down etc. Then he wouldn't play with anyone in the pool but me and the #$%^ water was cold! We would go out into the hotel hallway and he would take off running saying "I run as fast as I can!" Needless to say, Nonny waddled as fast as she could. The next to the last night, his mom wanted to give him a bath. She chased him all over the hotel room trying to get his clothes off. She finally got him stripped naked and I was sitting on the other bed watching TV. He jumped up on the bed, cuddled up next to me and pulled my arm down around him so his mom could not "get" him. I knew I shouldn't laugh, but it cracked me up!

I love chocolate so will have to try the recipe. There is a chocolate pudding/cake recipe on the site that is pretty good too, but you have to like the taste of dark chocolate.

I developed hemmoroids right before leaving for the trip from I guess the strain of the resistance training. I was pretty miserable the whole trip and they are just now getting better so I am waiting a couple more days to get back to exercising. I did do some water aerobics in the hotel pool though. My dh also bought me my New Balance walking shoes so I was really jazzed and they are wonderful.

Well, I need to check on laundry. Hope to talk to you soon!

Donna

msmomm2...
I have also been a victim of DV. I left my abuser a little over 2 years ago as well. I comforted myself (or numbed is a better word) with food and alcohol. Just in the last month I decided to take back control of my life and boy is it a struggle!...one well worth it however. If you want to write me please feel free, I'll be sure to have a speedy response. Take care of yourself first and foremost and always remember that the universe will take care of you...if you let it.
blessings,
blackbird

Blackbird: I looked at your profile and discovered you are just a month older than my son. I am so sorry that someone so young has had to endure what you have. You hang in there and be tough and strong. You can lose the weight and push the bottle away as well! Congratulations for getting out of your situation!
Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you in any way.
You may e-mail me at any time at [email protected]

Donna

Blackbird,

Thank god you have decided to get your life back. Drugs and alcohol were a big issue for me prior to my pregnancy with my daughter ( who is now 4), due to the pregnancy, they were both easy for me to give up.

I know how hard it is to leave a DV situation also ( obviously) and more power to you. We all need a little support sometimes, in all aspects of our life, and I want you to know I am here, and so is Donna and hopefully vise versa.

Even after 2+ yrs, I still have my down times, I am still in counseling, and yes struggling with the weight, and if I didn't live 30 miles (one way) from the nearest bar, alcohol would probably be an issue again too. I try to look at everyday as a new day, and stay focused on myself, my children, and my NEW life.

I look forward to hearing from you.....lots!

msmomm2

Donna,

I am glad you had a nice trip. I bet you couldn't ride in another elevator too soon!! lol. That is so cute, both of my kids prefer the stairs and I guess that is better for mom too.

I found this great new web site called fitday.com that will keep track of your calories, fat, carbs, protien, fiber, along with activities, nutrition and all, check it out if you have a chance.

Things here have been ok. I had to go see a phsychologist today for the state, which really bothered me, why you may ask, because I really like the counselor I have now, and there are some personal things that I just don't feel are anyone's business unless I choose to share them. But it was either that, or they would cut off my money. Anyways, I got no sleep last night and now I am tired, angry and frustrated. I get almost as much grief from the State as I did my ex, that is sad huh? Well, I look forward to meeting with my counselor on Thurs, I really need to vent.

Yesterday was weigh day, once again I stayed the same 201, another subject that upsets me. I eat an average of 1500 cal per day and 30 grams fat, although I am losing inches (slowly) I have not lost a pound since Nov. I guess I should be happy that I am not gaining, but I am starving........boohoo!

I need to go get dinner going, my son is crabby needs dinner, a bath and bed. I will check in tomorrow...I am glad you are back!!!

msmomm2

msmomm....we seem to be running similar lives, maybe you are my other "twin" that we all have in this world? I just started counseling again, trying the EMDR thing out, and I have to go see a shrink for the insurance reason too. I have a daughter (Nola) who is 5 and 2 boys (Ethan,Kylan) who are 8&9. I'm glad you decided to post here, as I think we may have some more complex issues to work through regarding weight loss. We deserve a pat on the back for sure!
Donna, thanks for your message and I'm glad you got to take a trip (that was nice).
blessings,
blackbird

Just found this, I am also one. Was one for 20 years until I found the right opportunity to leave. I am taking classes to become a volunteer at the local shelter. My first class was last Saturday and I found it informive and have more classes to take. I hope it helps me deal with the past. My son grew up in it and I never thought it would affect him but sadly I think it made him grow up to treat women badly. I don't know how badly but a ex-girl friend of his told me it was not good. Kids tend to grow up to think that is the way it suppose to be. Some grow up knowing better but others continue the cycle.

blackbird,

Counseling is great, as long as you really feel comfortable with your counselor, I went through 2 before I got there. In my opinion Psycholists are a little wierd!!! I think that is the nicest way I can say it, anyways I personally do not have a very high opinion of them, at least not for my type of situation, although I am sure that they job in society, I do not think dealing DV victims is it!

As for the weight issue, yes, I think people like "us" tend to eat for emotional reasons. A good example for me was Valentine's day, I suddenly felt so depressed and so alone and I ate... bad things, a half a pan of brownies, chocolate, and you know what, I felt even more miserable when I was done, by the next day anger for my ex set in, in the worst way, I think if he would have been here I would have literally kicked the crap out of him. I was a wierd gammit of emotions, and they tend to crop up about once every couple months. But all I can do is keep trying, and know that I am doing this so I can be happy and healthy.

I think (hope) all the anger and frustration will eventually go away, they say it takes 2 yrs for each yr in a violent home to heal, so I guess I have about 6 more yrs to go....boy that sounds like a long time huh? Wonder if those statistics are true? hmmmm!

Let me know what you think about the Psych eval. when its done, and take care....my twin! : )

Essey, welcome! Bless you for finding the strength and opportunity to leave your situation. I am sorry about your son, I hope that through your eduacation you may be able to find a way to get him some help to break the cycle, prayers for you both in that area.

Me, I thank god my children are little, my daughter has some issues, but we are working on them everyday. My son was only 5 weeks old when I left, so fortunately he has not a clue, although I did have an extremely stressful pregnancy, and hopefully that will not effect him. He is now 2 and he is a very loving little baby.

God bless you for choosing to help others, I think that is great! It may also be very beneficial to you and your complete recovery. I hope that you will continue to join us.

Donna, hope all is going well in your neck of the woods!

take care all, till later....

msmomm2

Donna,

Haven't heard from you in a while, so I thought I would drop you a quick line and see how you are doing.

I took my daughter to the counseling center today for her intake interview, the child counselor finally has some open space to see her a couple of time a month so we can deal with her anger and frustration. I truly hope this will be a good thing for all of us.

I hope all is going well for you. By the way I lost a pound....finally, funny I never thought losing 1 pound would excite me so much. I have cut my calorie and fat intake hoping to kick start my metabolism, I guess I will see after this week.

Look forward to hearing from you soon.

God Bless,
msmomm2

Blackbird,

I hope all is going well in your world too! I know how stressfull it can all be. I have had a couple of down days, but my "snowbird" parents will be home in 5 or 6 days, and I am so excited about that. I think mom might take a 2 or 3 day vacation from the kids...much needed by the way.

As I told Donna above, I finally lost my first pound since November, it has been a ruff haul. I have been losing inches, but not weight, something I have found rather dicouraging, but I just keep plugging along.

Hope to hear from you soon..... god bless!

msmomm2

Hey mom! I keep an eye out and watch for any posts on the thread!

Congratulations on the weight loss. No matter how much, you should be thrilled.

I hope your counselor can help your dd. Poor little thing has all that anger stored up and no place to go with it. Sometimes it is tougher being young than old.

Well, I am over the one problem, over the food poisoning and now trying to get my food back in proper perspective. I am power walking in the mall everyday, but I think I am bored with my food choices and so I eat stuff that is not good for me. I guess I need to get into my WW cookbook and buy groceries for some of the recipes. It has become really nice here and we have the patio furniture and BBQ grill up so grilling season will be nice for me now.

My dh and I went to the casinos a week ago and the greatest thing happened. I always wear a fanny pack instead of taking a purse, but didn't put it on until I got there and got out of the car. I had not had it on since before Christmas and it was a good 5 inches too big! I was so excited. Then when I was on my last $20, won $140 and went to another machine and won another $107 so it turned out to be a pretty good day!

Hope all of you ladies are doing well on your individual programs and getting that exercise in. Take it from someone who knows, regular exercise does make a big difference! Anyone that says you have to do it an hour at a time if full of bologna though. It takes me about 20 minutes to walk the mall, but I do it as fast as my fat little legs can go. It had worked wonders for me in helping with my weight loss.

Take care all!

Donna

Glad everyone is doing so good! I'm doing pretty darn great as well...except...my aching back. I was doing really good with the exercise stuff, then my back went out and it took a week for it to calm down enough to do anything without pain. So, I've taken about 4 good walks and there goes the back again! It's frustrating to be in pain and not be able to do much about it.
I start back to school today, thank god!, I love my dd very much but after spending a week solid with her, I'm ready for adults again.
Hope you both are doing wonderfully.
blessings,
blackbird