I'm so sorry for your recent losses
I'm sure there are so many people on 3FC who would love to lose 50 lbs ASAP... but most of us are going to tell you that we'd rather lose 50 lbs FOREVER rather than QUICKLY. And for many of us it means changing our eating habits slowly. Making them positive habits, instead of negative ones like they have been. It means small changes that add up over time. One or two pounds a week generally speaking. Sometimes less, sometimes more... but we're more concerned with the long term.
Yes, we all want the weight off NOW. But, not if it means we'd put it back on two months after we lost it.
Do you have an eating plan? Or an activity plan?
If not, take some time to look under Diet Central at some healthy ways of eating. And look under the Exercise area as well for tips on getting started, or finding some DVDs you might like to try using.
You can do this.