Indiana,
This is a great site for finding support. Cruise the forums, find areas that fit with your eating plan, and exercise plan, etc, then introduce yourself there, or just jump into any thread that interests you. Folks here are really helpful and inspiring.
Don't worry about the losing/gaining thing. We've all had to make some "practice runs" before finding an eating and exercise plan we can live with. You'll find your way!
Cheryl