TGIF!!!!!!!!!!! Hello Maintainers!
I cannot say HOW HAPPY I am that is Friday today........
. I should actually be at the start of my Christmas vacation, but I ended up having to do some scheduling shifting and have to see clients on Monday before we leave on our trip.
I have been missing everyone here! I did just get a quick read in, and I'm giving everybody a virtual hug as we traverse this tricky tlme of year. It's amazing how much food is an intergral (seemingly) part of the holidays!
With my sitter out sick, this week has been CRAZY! I worked the equivalent of 36 hours in 3 days this week and am exhausted today. On Tuesday and Wednesday, I was so tired when I got home from work that I skipped my planned dinner and just grabbed a protein bar. Tsk tsk. I ended up dropping a little unintended weight from several days of lower than normal calories...but I don't want to get into that all or nothing thinking we've been discussing: restricting if I feel out of control. That's DEFINITELY not the path to a healthy metabolism.
Yesterday, I had an unexpected lunch brought to me from Panera: I had half a turkey sandwich and also a cup of baked potato soup. Definitely not following the carb/fat separation rules!
So I made a new plan for dinner of P1 type meal with little fat and carbs only from veggies. I am up a pound from high sodium but I am not going to do a P1 day today as I have just been too low calorically lately and did not go over on my calories yesterday. Trying to not be too reactionary!
Even with P4 being a struggle....I am THRILLED for all of us who get to finish out this year in such a different place than were we started last year. For long-term maintainers, you have ANOTHER year under your belt of living this new life! For new maintainers, we are started out 2015 with a BRAND NEW spirit!!!!! We rock!
My weight and unhealthy eating was on my mind CONSTANTLY last year at this time. I had lost my ability to make smart choices, and my body self-esteem was in the gutter. How freeing it is to shed that burden!!!!!!
It is so worth it to me to keep up the "good fight" because the alternative is a dark place that I don't intend to visit again. If I can get through another few years of healthy maintaining, I would LOVE to use my job as a counselor to help others with successful weight loss. I hope this will be yet another incentive for me to keep on track.
In the long run, nothing I have EVER TASTED has made me feel the way I feel down over 45 pounds! It's not about "being thin" for me, it's about the food guilt that I bathed in daily when I was shoving my feelings down with food. I hope that everyone here can give themselves credit for their journeys and know that it is worth all the trials and frustrations.
Take care all!!!!!!