I haven't felt like "myself" for quite a while. I've been missing out on things I used to love, all because of my weight/poor self-esteem. That just seems so sad to me.... but I couldn't help it. Plus, depression and over-eating really go hand in hand, don't they? Now, with the weight coming off, I"m feeling like the old me.
I was skinny, really skinny, up until about age 35. I was even a bodybuilder in my early 20's. I am tired of being over weight. My BP had gone up and other small health things that can lead to bigger health issues. I hear several of my friends, and myself, saying " I need to lose weight" "I am tired" and the list goes on, but doing nothing about it. So for me it was time to do something about it!!
I have read on this forum several people say that they have been overweight some or most of their lives and how it is difficult for them to see themselves as thin. For me it was the opposite. I was skinny, really skinny, up until age about 35 I was even a bodybuilder in my early 20's. (hard to believe haha) For me I still saw myself as thin, until I went clothes shopping or saw myself in the mirror! yuck. I am so glad to be almost to goal and getting toned up. Feels great!
I've been smaller before, not thin but smaller and fit. Once I got married and had kids, I completelly lost control. I'd excercise & try to eat healthy but now I know sugar and breads are my arch nemesis. I had no clue what I was doing wrong. This diet is teaching me the proper way to eat.
I don't want to be fat so that my kids won't be laughed at.
I've avoided social events because I did not want to "look fat" like everyone didn't already know HAHA - I read this and I smile to myself, who was I kidding?
I have no clue what type of cloths I'm going to wear when I'm fit/thinner again. I've been buying cloth that fit, not that I like. I have no clue what I like.
I want people to say "wow you look great!!" I know it's vain but I want it.
I feel a lot better about myself now than I've had in over 10 years.
I've stopped calling myself names when I look at myself in the mirror (you know the ones I'm talking about - let's all stop doing that!).
Like many of the people here I have been over weight most of my life. But I never really thought of my self as being THAT over weight.. but after 65lbs gone with about 20 some to go I realize two things.. one is that I really was that over weight and was carrying all that baggage around.
The other thing is at this point, with about 20 more lbs to go, I am pretty much where most people are. I mean most people I know could stand to loose 20 -25 lbs. So while I know i have more to do and look forward to it, it is hard to see myself as "normal" I can only imaging the mental transition once I get to goal.. what ever that ends up being.
[QUOTE=nishakira;3708089]A couple of months ago, I was around 66kg. Now I'm weighing in at 61kg. Best part is, I have completely no idea how I lost that much weight because I don't remember working out all the time lol. It was definitely a pleasant surprise, especially when I started getting compliments from people. Afterall the last time I was 61kg was almost 6 years ago! And lucky for me, just recently I've found my greatest inspiration when it comes to fitness; Jillian Michaels.
I've always been interested in building muscle but so far all the pictures of muscular women I've seen were kinda... erm... either too over the top or otherwise. And that was when I came across one of Jillian's pictures.
And, you know that Jillian was once overweight! I love to watch her and Bob on the Biggest Loser.
Last edited by debonadiet; 02-14-2011 at 09:15 AM.
My mom and I have been basically the same size since I was a teenager. Well, she started to lose some weight all on her own, looks great at 57. I just continued to gain. I felt miserable, hated the way I looked in pictures.
I always thought of myself as "big" never quite comfortable in my body. But now after losing 20 ponds I am starting to feel great! Exercise isn't uncomfortable anymore, clothes are starting to fit again and I can't wait to wear a bikini this summer and feel good about myself!
I have always been an athlete. Lately, before IP, I increased my running and weight lifting to tone and shape up, and loose some weight. I could never figure it out. I worked so hard, and ate healthy, for the most part. However, no matter how hard I tried, I failed. IP has allowed me to educate myself on nutrition and permanent weight loss. I am almost at the end, and look great, better than I have in my life. Once I am phase 4, I am going to start running again, trying for a 1/2 marathon, or even a whole one! I always wanted a slim runner's body, and now I will have it.
*** i hate the fat me
*** i want to find love sometime in my life. i want to get married and have kids sometime. but with the slimmer me
*** my niece lives with me and i want to be healthier for her and be able to play with her outside like she wants (she's only 3)
*** i want to be that role model for my niece that she really deserves and being that fat aunt is not the answer
*** i hate having to by the fat cloths they are soooooooo much more expensive than the skinny cloths.
My reasons vary from day to day. But lately it is that I have a ball to attend this fall and I want to have people say "Wow!" (she looks good), not WOW (why would she attempt to wear a dress like that?)
I also miss feeling confident in myself and my abilities. My weight has turned into the reason I can't do something, and allows me not feel my feelings.
1. With my last pregnancy, I developed gestational diabeties - therefor putting me more at risk for developing Type II later in life - I DO NOT want to be diabetic.
2. I want my husband to look at me and say "wow honey you look fantastic" (yup! Its vain - but we all need that reassurance)
3. I want to be able to enjoy exercise like running and biking instead of dreading it.
4. I just built an INCREDIBLE walk in closet and I really want to fill it with trendy clothes instead of wearing the same 3 pants and 5 shirts over and over and over again.... (did I mention my closet is 90% black)
confessions...motivations...
I want...
to be hot in a bikini--flat stomach.
better sex life.
To be healthy for pregnancy next year.
Jogging with my dog longer than half a block.
and yes, I just want my husband to say "You look GREAT!"
I want to get back at my jerk of an ex. I told him years ago that I wanted to lose weight...he looked at me and said "good, then your body will be bangin' like it used to be..."
Unfortunately I stayed in the relationship after he said that.
I want to set a good example for my students...in most cases, I'm the only one they've got.
I'll more than likely be engaged within the next 18 months. I want to be a gorgeous bride.
I want to lose the weight now, while it's easier. I'm in my mid-20s...it's going to get harder to lose if I don't do it now.
I want to like myself hen I look at myself in the mirror.
instead of wearing the same 3 pants and 5 shirts over and over and over again.... (did I mention my closet is 90% black) 
