Well I'm back and pretty much the same weight I was when I was trying to lose 50 lbs a few years ago. Doing diet after diet and You get the picture.
I have literally spent this time loosing the same 5 to 10 lbs over and over. going as high as 183 down to 172. frustrating to say the least, When I was a size 6 feeling great then stress and menopause hit and it was game over, back came 50lbs.
Now I was never a true skinny person been chunky as a kid (diets started in the third grade, twiggy was in ,fat was out. Now in my teens I pretty much stayed at 165 but even in the early 70's it was imposable to get clothes I had to go to large women. (oh am 5'5 in height) so looking back I was overweight but not really as horrible as society made it out to be back then.
After having children, most of my adult life I would get to the top 190's then diet down. kinda like a built in trigger that said enough when I saw that 190 number. Got skinny a number of times thru the misery of dieting.
Now at 54 dieting is no longer an option don't want to do it count it spend every day wondering what to eat, when to eat, Is it in the house to eat.
Jumping on the scale. Done no more.
Saw my sister early this year haven't seen her in almost 8 years. Shes 2 1/2 years older then me and has always been shinny. Well I felt like a pig again around her and know i looked older and worn out then her. I physically felt it to.
Being home we had sit down dinners at the table. I notice right off looking at my sisters plate (as we sat next to each other) we ate the same food, But she put half the amount on her plate then I did, She ate till full and there was still a lot left on her plate. Heck I cleaned my plate and went for seconds. Well gosh no wonder I'm twice the size of her. She had her share of junk food but not in huge amounts, I on the other hand always had more.
Now after being on diets and always restricted food or denying food may be the reason I'm obsessed with food and need large amount to feel good. Don't know. I have tried to figure out the answer to the question Why me? Why am I the fat one? Don't know. Over eating? Probably.
So Saturday I started eating smaller portions. I slice of pizza instead of 4. Yes I was wanting more.
Sunday morning went ahead and got on the scale to see what it read 174.8 lbs.
So for the next 30 days I'm going to do child like portions at each meal. I'm not restricting any food. If I feel hungry after a few hours then I'll eat something. I think or hoping that I well learn to eat normally if I do this for the 30 days and that I well naturally loose the weight.
I'm sure a lot of you are thinking that of course you well lose weight your not eating as much. Yes your right But this is about doing it with out being on any diet that tells you how and what to eat. This is about eating normally and not eating twice or three times the amount of food that my body needs.
I well try to list the foods I eat daily and how much. There will be am sure a lot of crappy food. On my food budget we buy cheap food, I know the cost of eating or trying to eat all natural foods, and I cant afford it.
As i said this is a 30 day see how it works, see if I can learn to live on normal portions and if I lose any weight.
kk this is day 3 and I'm getting hungry so will go have lunch. Be back later or in the morning