I was 129.8lbs this morning. Went to Olive Garden last night (got the apricot chicken and it was well within my calories...but who knows how much sodium) and it's the first day of my TOM. So, some of that's water weight.
I know that's technically still in my maintenance range, but it's close to the bad side of it. I'm much comfier at 125-127lbs. And I can easily maintain that...that's the weight my body settled at when I was trying to find my maintenance calories. I maintained it for months. Even with daily fluctuations throughout my cycle, I would hover at 125-127. It was easy and comfortable to maintain, I was satisfied with the food, exercised moderately, and even had planned treats. It's not like I was desperately trying to maintain as low as possible.
Welllll, life happened. Graduated college, got married, and moved to a new state within a month. My whole schedule and routine was thrown out of whack. In the process of trying to get back on track, I went through a yucky period of binges and restriction. I went up from 125-127 to 130-132. NOT a significant gain, I know, but a gain nonetheless.
Well I've snapped myself out of that nasty pattern, and I've been eating beautifully on plan. I've been eating on the low end of my calories because I want to lose those few pounds. Upped my exercise a bit. My weight is slooooowly drifting back down to where I want it to be. Between fluctuations, I'd say I've been averaging 128.5-ish. And then today was just annoying at 129.8...psh, what a slap in the face, lol.
I know it's a very insignificant amount, I get that. And I don't believe in defining myself by a number either. I'm the same Megan at 129.8lbs as I am at 125lbs. I think why I'm so impatient to get rid of those few pounds is because they represent the fact that I GAINED weight while I was binging. That's maddening. I don't want to be reminded every morning that I screwed up for a month.
Anyways, just had to vent
Hopefully I'll see a post-TOM whoosh in a few days.
These darn 3-5lbs.
