I am feeling terrible chicks: No exercise last Friday and went out to diner and ate waaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy too much....
Didn’t stop there... Saturday had a party at a friends house and was soooo embarrassed,,,, I ate so much that I got sick... It was the first time in my life that something like that happened! I was out of control! My stomach seemed like was going to explode. I was visually bloated and in so much pain... I tried to throw up but could not do it (How people with bulimia do that?)
Anyway... Sunday wasn’t a good day either... I binged several times/day. I thought that after feeling painfully sick Saturday I would learn my lesson and would not binge again.... boy, I was so wrong... I am disgusted with myself...
and now my vacation is coming and I know I have no control once I have no routine to follow... Last year, I gained 20 (TWENTY) pounds in a bit more than 2 weeks! and took me so long to lose those pounds... This time I will be on vacation for over 3 weeks... I will explode!!! I am so concerned about it that sometimes I few like I wish I didn’t have this vacation....
Boy, don't I have a problem??!?! I wonder what is it that will take to beat this addiction to food...
Sorry to vent... but I have no one else to talk about it... I am so embarrassed!!!
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Before
Weights (upper body) - 0 min
Weights (lower body) - 0 min
BodyPump - 410 min
Stairclimber - 60 min
Spinning - 285 min
Recumbent Bike - 85 min
Walking - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 210 min
Total Body - 55 min
Video game (bike) - 75 min
Pilates - 60 min Total Everything: 1,300 min
Friday (December 10) NOTHING
Saturday (December 11)
BodyPump - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 60 min
Spinning - 45 min Total this session: 165 min
Sunday (December 12)
BodyPump - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 145 min Total this session: 205 min
Bel, feel free to vent and I totally know what you mean. It is awful battling a food addiction.
I get like that too and have been really bad the last couple weeks. Since I wasn't working out, I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted. Not good and it is such a hard habit to break.
Hugs, I don't have any answers for you but do have support for you.
Wow Bel...I'm really proud of you for being brave enough to come here to tell your story I know that most people (including myself in the past) when they think of "food addiction" picture someone of MASSIVE size and weight....not someone weighing in at 120, 130 or even 140 lbs!
The truth is...food addiction can happen to anyone, of any size, shape, color or nationality.
That said, most food addictions refer to a person's "relationship" with food. They see food as "comfort" and often use it to mask "pain".
What your reasons are only YOU know, but what I can tell you is that you may want to try to change the way you see food. One way may be to ALLOW yourself one FREE meal per week. This is ONE MEAL...not ONE DAY..LOL! Your meal will not weigh more than 17 ounces...but it can be any FOOD, not junk like 17 oz of snicker bars, that you desire (ie., pizza, mexican, taco salads, etc.). This may help to keep you from feeling deprived and thereby get overexcited when food opportunities come your way...cuz then you'll think, "eeehhhh...in a few more days I can eat whatever I want so it's no biggie to turn this down...."
Also, you exercise quite a bit. That's great that you CAN do so much...I admire your youth! lol.. But the bad side of doing so much is that your body gets used to it and doesn't give you the "full benefit" of your hard work. I think the key is learning "moderation" in your habits...that would encompass both food and exercise.
VACATION - Enjoy your vacation...otherwise I'll ask that you send ME your tickets! Just remember to ALLOW yourself anything you want for ONE MEAL per week...and I think that may help you take the anxiety out of the naughty foods that will be thrown at you.
Take care love...and I hope you feel better...tomorrow is another day and uhhhhh....you worked out for almost 3 HOURS on Saturday...that more than made up for Friday..tee hee...so don't beat yourself up...you exercise DIVA!
Before
Running - 315 min
Weights - 35 min
Recumbent Bike - 70 min
Eliptical - 40 min
Wii "Just Dance 2" - 60 min.
Total Everything: 520 min
Monday (December 13)
Running - 70 min (BROKE MY OWN RECORD...RAN 4 MILES TODAY!!!!)
Eliptical - 0 min.
Weights - 0 min.
Recumbent Bike - 0 min.
Wii "Just Dance 2" - 0 min.
Total this session: 70 min
Total Everything this month so far: 590 min
Last edited by joyfulloser; 12-13-2010 at 02:09 PM.
Thank you for your words... At this point I am listening to any advice, since I have no idea whatelse I can do to straight my eating habits...
The thing with me is that I am able to keep myself OP during the week days, when I am following a schedule. But whenever I get to the weekend (which I allow myself to be days of cheat) and put some “bad” foods on my mouth it starts my binge episodes... I have no control once I have the first bite... And the only way I can keep my eating clean during the week is promising myself I will be able to eat of plan on weekends.... I think my problems are anxiety and boredom! This combination is killing me....
I I already tried few types of anxiety pills and they done NOTHING to me...
The only thing I know is that I do have to do something SOON and I will, when I get back from my vacation...
While I am there I’ll try not really think about it and will just enjoy my time with my family. It is the only time a year I have to see them and I don;t want to ruin it with my food issues...
I do have a “plan” though, but it will only avoid a total disaster (if I am able to stick with it - which I WILL!!!!).
Well, I have only 3 more days of exercise before I leave.... Hope you guys keep this thread alive while I am gone... I’ll be starting a new one in January and I’ll have tons of exercise to do then....
belezura, can I ask what plan you follow in general?
This may not help you at all, but just like yourself I have been battling food addiction for longer than I would like to think about.
The "solution" (I say solution, but as I'm very much in the process of changing I can't say 100% that "this is it", but I FEEL it is) for me was actually pretty simple, and so far it has worked like a charm.
Just to give you a bit of background I used to be bulimic for many years, and I just couldn't get out of that need to eat absolutely anything that wasn't nailed down pretty much, including things I found disgusting. Yeah, not very attractive but hey.
I count calories for accountability, but that has nothing to do with controlling the binge urges. The only way I have found to keep to my eating plan is to:
*cut out all sweets, crisps, ice cream and cakes. Basically my old binge foods.
*never have a day off. If I allow myself a "day off" I NEVER stop there. NEVER. I always want more of the bad stuff and the big portions.
So to sum it up - don't even go there!
Well, that has worked for me so far anyway.
I'm also wondering if maybe with your very long workouts your body is starting to panic a bit? How much would you say you consume on a regular day? I think it's really important to be kind to your body and give back (proper nutrition) some if you work out really hard. Now I'm not an expert, but it seems to make sense to me? I think weightloss is more than a number game, although it would be nice if it was.
Finally, you had a set back. Dust yourself off and get back on track. Do it NOW and you are looking at a couple of bad days and no more. Take a step back and try to see what emotions caused you to over eat, and see this as a valuable lesson, not a failure.
Before
Weights (upper body) - 0 min
Weights (lower body) - 0 min
BodyPump - 530 min
Stairclimber - 60 min
Spinning - 330 min
Recumbent Bike - 85 min
Walking - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 415 min
Total Body - 55 min
Video game (bike) - 75 min
Pilates - 60 min Total Everything: 1,670 min
Monday (December 13)
Spinning - 25 min
BodyPump - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 20 min
Recumbent Bike - 15 min Total this session: 120 min
Tuesday (December 14)
BodyPump - 60 min
Stairclimber 2 - 55 min Total this session: 115 min
Tuesday (December 14) - GREAT JOB INTERVIEW...but NO EXERCISE
Before
Running - 385 min
Weights - 35 min
Recumbent Bike - 70 min
Eliptical - 40 min
Wii "Just Dance 2" - 60 min.
Total Everything: 590 min
Wed (December 15)
Running - 60 min (3.4 miles)
Eliptical - 0 min.
Weights - 0 min.
Recumbent Bike - 0 min.
Wii "Just Dance 2" - 0 min.
Total this session: 60 min
I'm really terrible at these accountability logs. I'm realizing that one of the reasons I'm struggling so much with my weight loss efforts is that I'm not disciplined enough! So, I'm trying to join in, here.
8 -- Spin class, 30 minutes. I was so sore I couldn't even walk properly for 4 days! But, I walked almost every day between the 9th and the 14th. 30 minutes or so a day, sometimes more, sometimes less.
15 -- One hour spin class! Made it through the whole 60 minutes!
16 -- 0 minutes today. I'm working myself up to 3 days a week of good exercise -- MWSa -- before adding days and minutes.
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Last edited by neon_zephyr; 12-17-2010 at 05:42 PM.
I know that most people (including myself in the past) when they think of "food addiction" picture someone of MASSIVE size and weight....not someone weighing in at 120, 130 or even 140 lbs!
Just remember to ALLOW yourself anything you want for ONE MEAL per week...and I think that may help you take the anxiety out of the naughty foods that will be thrown at you.
