Bethany, CONGTATS on the weight loss
YES! I know how you feel, but please don't let those feelings sabotage your efforts, so many times I have lost weight and right dab smack in the middle I'll feel like you described and I'll start punishing myself again by stuffing my face.
Your not alone, I was told to focus on the positives in life, as soon as a bad thought enters your head to think about what good is going on, or how you felt when you were thin and how good that was. Its a hard thing to do but we gotta try.
Hugs to you !!!!!