Hi all~I'm hoping this gets through to Juju or to anyone else who might have ANY advice.
I'm so frustrated!! I'm 36, have low cholesterol (it's whatever it's supposed to be--makes my dr. smile), nice low blood pressure (not dangerously low) and exercise A LOT. I mean, kind of a lot. You tell me: run, bike, elliptical for 1 hour a day around 180 heart rate, 5x per week. Yoga, 1 1/2 hr 1x week, weight train 45 min 3x per week. Kayak when I can, do the occasional Pilates dvd.
I admit that I eat more than I need to, but not significantly more. I mean, I don't believe so. I keep that wretched, boring food journal. But here I am, stuck, at 180. 180?!? What the heck kind of weight is that? Very distressing to me. I'm wearing size 14, which is a size higher than I'd be satisfied with; BUT! at nine months pregnant, I weighed 190. So I'm a little too close to that, if you know what I mean.
So I'm on these anti depressants. For years. I tried going off recently, to battle the weight, and because I figure, I exercise so much, and generally eat well, that that ought to be enough to stave off the depression's return. HA! Wrong. Going off my meds was a BIG mistake. So I'm on them, and exercising, and apparently permanently weighing A LOT.
What I'm looking for here is a way to accept this. It's very upsetting to me, but I know I have to just accept it. It is what it is. Any suggestions?
PS Juju, I'm biking 32 miles in a couple weeks to raise $ & awareness for Diabetes, which I know is near & dear to your heart. Yay, me!


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