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Holly: Oh my gosh, CONGRATULATIONS on your FREEDOM from the crabby boss lady!!! I am SOOO happy for you!!! And I am shocked that it was actually easy! What a relief! I can't believe she forgot or just didn't drink all of her "cleaner out" liquid for her colonoscopy, but yay... less wait time for you and your husband! You are so sweet to go over and above and research and write down those resources she can use after you are gone. I think she will really appreciate and miss you once you are gone... and maybe... just maybe... regret treating you so poorly.
Hi Kathleen and thanks in sharing my jubilation I enjoyed today SO MUCH!! It feels like a Saturday and I get to do the same tomorrow!!
by the way, every time i look at your signature I am just astounded at your current weight how have you dealt wth the mind/body thing, or are you adjusted to your smaller self
about the lady - she immediately wanted try to adjust things so that I'd stay ... "you don't have to come every day, I'm getting better so there is so much I can do for myself now" .... um, and you've been making me wash your hair, clip your toenails (UGH) take care of your garbage/recycling/bag of pee pads (sorry), feed the cats, get your pepsi and ice, fix you a sandwich/burger/snack/dinner, water the plants, file papers that you hand me, vacuum, fold laundry, go to bank, write checks, drive to town to get you Chinese take out, pack your house for the move, sweep snow from your walkway ...yes of course those are thing that you do when you are 'caretaking' for an injured person but apparently she's been going along for the ride!! LOL
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Holly,congratulations! I hope you and husband celebrated. Well done!
Hi Lisa and Kathleen and anyone else.
today I woke feeling more depressed than I can remember feeling in the past. I don’t know why other than having to cancel chiropractic and naturopathic appointments because I’m too nervous driving in snow. My little Toyota is terrible in the snow. And I have anxiety around it anyway. I find that I need more support because of the specific kind of leukemia that I have Also, the woman who gets food for me cannot do it this week because of her bad back. A woman will shop (at the very expensive health food store) for me toward the end of the week. I can’t afford too much from there. I’m grateful though for the groceries I can get from there
Oh Pat I'm so sorry to hear that, it is so difficult to be at the mercy of someone else's kindness, I do hope you can get what you need from the other lady. And oh gosh you definitely shouldn't drive in snow if your vehicle is terrible in snow but awful to miss your appointments! so sorry to hear these troubles to such a wonderful soul that you are
Pat: It is SO wonderful to hear from you!!! It made my day to see a post from you! I'm so sorry you felt the depression so hard today. I am also sorry that the medication that self- injects after chemo is painful and difficult for many days. From the tone of your first post, it sounds as though you are handling your leukemia diagnosis with so much strength and courage. It is truly admirable. I am a breast cancer survivor, so I can relate to having cancer, but I have never dealt with leukemia, so I can only imagine. If I recall correctly from awhile back, didn't you get another diagnosis as well? I might be remembering that wrong, but I thought you were dealing with something else, too. In addition, you are trying to cope with everything in the midst of the isolation due to COVID. I am so happy to know that you have two people who do grocery shopping for you. I would think that, all things considered, the one shopper who had to cancel this week would be enough to spike your depression. Having to cancel your appointments probably didn't help either. Sending you a big hug and lots of strength!
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Holly: I am taking your advice and using my laptop instead of my cell phone for entertainment tonight. While it is much less convenient and my laptop is slow, I think it will be much better for my fingers and hands since they can spread out while I type and press buttons. My left thumb, in particular, is able to fully extend, so that should be a big help for what I think is arthritis. Thank you so much for the terrific suggestion! Now I will have to see if I can get my favorite games, Wordscapes and Word Search, on my laptop!
Kathleen, congratulations on being a cancer survivor. Cancer long gone. You are right that there was a second diagnosis while I was in the hospital. They could not do the necessary diagnostic procedure on my heart because of my blood platelets. Then they just forgot about it I guess. Honestly I have enough to deal with. So I’m ignoring the heart situation as long as I can breathe, which I could not do well when I was admitted and treated. I hope your fingers and hand are a bit better now.
Holly are you still feeling the deep relief of not working for the woman who took advantage of and was abusive to you? I hope you are healing from that horrible experience. It’s too bad because you are so awesome. A kind and respectful person would be so fortunate to receive your awesome help.
hi Lisa. I hope you are doing well. Your sideways picture is very cute! Love the haircut.
well, a new senior volunteer is out right now doing my grocery shopping. I feel guilty having seniors shop for me. But I know how dangerous it is for me to risk shopping. I’m grateful for the volunteers. A friend is going to the health food store for me this afternoon. I need jicama for "food as medicine". But the quality isn’t good at one store. Trader Joe's won’t have it until maybe tomorrow. I’ll have to wait another week for a volunteer. Too bad easily obtainable food isn’t what my body needs as medicine. Has to be jicama, lol. And also yuca root. I’m finding it challenging to spend calories and carbs on a root I don’t really like. But it’s well worth it if the root helps as the herbalist said it will.
Kathleen, congratulations on being a cancer survivor. Cancer long gone. You are right that there was a second diagnosis while I was in the hospital. They could not do the necessary diagnostic procedure on my heart because of my blood platelets. Then they just forgot about it I guess. Honestly I have enough to deal with. So I’m ignoring the heart situation as long as I can breathe, which I could not do well when I was admitted and treated. I hope your fingers and hand are a bit better now.
Holly are you still feeling the deep relief of not working for the woman who took advantage of and was abusive to you? I hope you are healing from that horrible experience. It’s too bad because you are so awesome. A kind and respectful person would be so fortunate to receive your awesome help.
hi Lisa. I hope you are doing well. Your sideways picture is very cute! Love the haircut.
well, a new senior volunteer is out right now doing my grocery shopping. I feel guilty having seniors shop for me. But I know how dangerous it is for me to risk shopping. I’m grateful for the volunteers. A friend is going to the health food store for me this afternoon. I need jicama for "food as medicine". But the quality isn’t good at one store. Trader Joe's won’t have it until maybe tomorrow. I’ll have to wait another week for a volunteer. Too bad easily obtainable food isn’t what my body needs as medicine. Has to be jicama, lol. And also yuca root. I’m finding it challenging to spend calories and carbs on a root I don’t really like. But it’s well worth it if the root helps as the herbalist said it will.
hoping you all have a great Friday and weekend.
Pat , always a joy to see your name and contribution here! So *can* you breathe okay now? I sure as heck hope so, yes you already have so much on your plate to deal with, IF the heart condition could be "put off" for now, yes I would think that would be preferable.
I am so glad there are volunteers to shop for you!! and as you are a kind and caring person yourself, those people are doing it because they can and they want to, so please don't feel badly about accepting their help It is a shame that 'easily obtained' food isn't what your body needs now would make things much easier wouldn't it! but kudos to you for doing what will help your body And very glad a friend is helping you also.
YES I am enjoying EVERY SINGLE MINUTE of life now!! I even found myself singing in the car yesterday !! i haven't done that since, I don't know when! the joy is incredible. And what a shame that I went through so much time so miserable. Thinking that the money was worth it. Wow. Now I know! And that is nice to think of this as 'healing'. and it is good healing, I am not really feeling any anger or sadness, not even any pity, the relief is so huge. It will be interesting though, if I receive my last week of wages from her. I did include my mailing address on my last sheet of paper of my hours. She might plead that she has no way of getting to a mailbox...but that is because of how she is, none of her acquaintences or friends have visited her in 2 1/2 months (well there is the Covid also but she has passed 3 or 4 Covid tests so her friends would have been safe) Even is she doesn't pay me I will write it off as just a bad life experience!
Lisa - how are you?? tell us about a typical day of yours
Kathleen - Oh gosh I'm so glad i had something useful to say regarding trying your laptop. Hope it helps! and Hey I just started playing Wordscapes and I am hooked!! have been having to use clues and using up my points and having to watch all those videos to earn points LOL! Then I got smart and would switch to a different tab where I look at the site Word Maker and cheat
Ladies I have been using our 2-Stage 24" Cub Cadet snowthrower every day!! Widening the driveway and keeping up with the long path I made for ChloeDog and me. I feel so manly LOL!
Pat: I hope your breathing is okay now. Could the heart situation possibly be something that might resolve itself? Or is that just wishful thinking on my part? My fingers and hand are the same, but I see my doctor on Monday, so I hope to get some answers. I like the idea of "food as medicine." The research certainly supports it. I hope it is helping you. Has the depression from the other day subsided at all? Thinking of you!
Holly: It is wonderful to hear that you are enjoying every minute of your new found freedom from the crabby boss lady!!! I can just picture you singing in the car! That is awesome!
Isn't Wordscapes addictive? Oh, I also cheat when I am really stuck on a word! I just Google the level of Wordscapes that I'm on and it shows you the whole filled in puzzle. Those ads between puzzles drove me so crazy that I finally broke down and paid to get rid of the ads. It is heavenly to just move on to the next puzzle without all of those annoying ads! Even though it says (on a Google search) that you can get Wordscapes and Word Search on your laptop, I couldn't figure out how.
So glad you are using and enjoying your super deluxe snowthrower!
Yes it's a new pic and I'm still not correcting it being sideways. You can kind of see me. I'm not worried about it. I continue to use space heaters, just 2. In the kitchen and my bedroom. I adjust the heat in them, as needed. I haven't been able to fix my furnace but don't worry about me. I'm fine, the mobile is plenty warm.
Kathleen, carpal tunnel can be caused by many jobs, not simply computer work. I worked in the grocery business and had some trouble. I was constantly gripping products for 13 years. It is caused by repetitive motion. Arthritis does not bother my hands. I have it in all my joints and in my lower spine. Arthritis is what ruined both knees.
I hope you are feeling well. I don't blame you about surgeries. I had 2 heart procedures last year and then knee surgery. I am hospitaled out.
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I'll come back tomorrow and reply to everyone. It's late here and I'm getting woozy. I'll stop back by and hit up everyone with replies. I'm so tired.
I'll share this before I forget. I have a test on my heart next month. It's a non invasive procedure so don't worry. After the test, I see the heart Dr. I see him every 6 months. I have a small leak in one of my valves and he likes to check my blood pressure. It's nothing bad right now but as I get older, it could change. He's just really careful.
Lisa wishing you very best with the heart check-up.
Kathleen, I’m glad for you that you have the dr appointment on Monday. I think you will find relief from your greatest concerns. Hoping you will give us the reports on your hands. The heart thing might correct itself if there is a miracle. Maybe there will be a miracle. Because of the cancer I’m pretty sure the only procedure will be laparoscopic kind of thing. I don’t remember what it’s called. That will be for dx. But maybe it will correct the problem too. The oncologist that that might be a possibility.
Holly, I love that you have been singing! I do believe that you experienced deep healing from ending that situation. It seems to me like you set yourself free. You stopped the abuse. I think you did great on the deep soul level. So congratulations.
Flower - well we will just pray for a miracle for you my friend!! Are you set for groceries and such? thinking of you!
Lisa - I'm glad you told us of the heart appt , but you know now we will be asking you about it cuz we love you. and i love your pic!
Kathleen - you had your appt on Monday, we are hoping to hear good news??
Still enjoying my freedom so much. We are OK for money so it is ok that I am not working now...this is my first winter off since ...I was a teenager??? same as last summer, that was my first summer off in forever.
Holly so glad you are enjoying this t8me off. I remember how challenging the factory job was for you last winter. You made the best of it even though IMO you are not suited for factory work. I see you as a creative person has so much to offer with all your gifts. re your question about groceries, yes. I’m all set with that. Someone shops for me at Trader Joe’s. A friend shops for me at the local health food store. Eating organic is expensive. But now it’s the only appropriate option considering I don’t want pesticides in my food.
Kathleen I’m hoping you have good news re: the dr appointment.
Lisa I’m hoping your appointment with the cardiologist went well
Just a quick hello from a VERY cold spot, our high today will be 7 above, and if there is any wind of course the wind chill factor will be well into the negative values!
Hi Flower, Lisa, Kathleen! I hope you ladies are having a good Saturday and even if there is no sun, that you have this inside.
I realize I have been overeating since my liberation day...I know I have always tended to equate a celebration with food, and the fact that I am at home, near a food source, instead of being 'on the job'; but that is something that I should (hah) be able to control. All I need to do is step on the scale to see what is happening. But I am still so very happy at being free
I could do some snow removal maintaining outside (widening paths and driveway with the snowthrower; breaking down and pushing back snowbanks by shovel) but it is truly too cold and we don't have any measurable snow on the way so I don't really have to. I am just luxuriating in being at home all day!!!
I am SOOO happy for you!!! 
And I am shocked that it was actually easy! What a relief! I can't believe she forgot or just didn't drink all of her "cleaner out" liquid for her colonoscopy, but yay... less wait time for you and your husband! You are so sweet to go over and above and research and write down those resources she can use after you are gone. I think she will really appreciate and miss you once you are gone... and maybe... just maybe... regret treating you so poorly. 
how have you dealt wth the mind/body thing, or are you adjusted to your smaller self 
Also, the woman who gets food for me cannot do it this week because of her bad back. A woman will shop (at the very expensive health food store) for me toward the end of the week. I can’t afford too much from there. I’m grateful though for the groceries I can get from there
Now I will have to see if I can get my favorite games, Wordscapes and Word Search, on my laptop! 
regarding trying your laptop. Hope it helps! and Hey I just started playing Wordscapes and I am hooked!! have been having to use clues and using up my points and having to watch all those videos to earn points LOL! Then I got smart and would switch to a different tab where I look at the site Word Maker and cheat 
inside. 
to see what is happening. But I am still so very happy at being free 