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I bought a 1 dollar kind bar today. And bamba. I didn't need the kind bar of course. But it was cold and dark outside with snow spitting from the sky. So that was the least costly damage I could think of. Now of coirse I want more. But the budget is tight. And that saves me money.

Oct 25
coffee 200
vegan robs cheese puffs 420
L salad 250
D chicken with vegetables 320
total for day 1190

anxiety through the roof due to figuring out I need replace,ent of either glass of whole skylight. Seal on glass broken. But
wood doesn't look perfect. Getting 2 estimates next week. Will not know until then

I was not hungry for lunch today. I think the hiatal hernia is especially annoying. Probably due to stress. among other things, it makes me feel less hungry. So I expect total for the day to be closer to 1060

Today I lost it calorically lost it. The pain was so intense that I ate and ate
coffee 300
bamba 480
vegan cheese puffs 420
salted caramel balls 150
skittles 120
stir fry 420
salad 250
total 2140 ��

Originally Posted by flower123:

Be very kind to each other and yourselves. Know that you matter. No matter who you are or what challenges you experience. You matter. Treat yourself, if you can, like you would treat the most precious human being. We are one. Just as the drops in the ocean. Just as the leaves of the live oak tree. We are one.

This brought tears to my eyes, it is so beautiful. Thank you Pat, for this!! it is VERY helpful to me now :) :hug:

Originally Posted by flower123:

Friday would have been okay. Except at night I went to return carrot in very bad condition and bought a kind bar.

today the pain has been so intense that I ate chocolate. Really I feel like I need a Large tray of assorted cheeses and some crusty bread. Along with a bottle of Pinot noir. Too many people are turning to me with their problems. I am very good at assisting people. I listen, support and encourage people to Speak about whatever they need to. I did it full time many years ago until my health suffered so much that I was forced to officially stop.

Now I just do it for people in need, for as long as they need me.
But I get left with no one to ever return that favor. I think this morning was a last straw. A woman with deep extreme suffering gave me her problems for hours on video chat. I was glad to be of service. But after a few hours she mentioned she had heard previously pain in my voice. And it made her need to stay away from me for days. The next time we spoke was a marathon session where I was again helping her. she asked me about something with myself. I didn't get through one sentence before she changed the subject back to her. I helped her until 7:30 in the morning when mercifully my iPad ran out of battery. Then I finally was able to go to bed. She felt MUCH BETTER.

I was told yet again that my pain is irrelevant and I am only needed to assist others.

I was aghast to read how insensitive she was to you!! how selfish of her :( I am so sorry that you were treated so inconsiderately :( I can only guess that she is 'so far gone' into her own problems that she can't see out of her bubble.

and to read of the income problems because of medical bills, our system SUCKS :( that one has to cut expenses and the 'realistic' choice is FOOD?!? so wrong!! :(

Originally Posted by VermontMom:
This brought tears to my eyes, it is so beautiful. Thank you Pat, for this!! it is VERY helpful to me now :) :hug:

Holly I am gad this was helpful to you during this time. I know about one very painful heartache you are going through atm. I hope all of us can bring comfort to each other during times of need. :hug:

Originally Posted by VermontMom:
I was aghast to read how insensitive she was to you!! how selfish of her :( I am so sorry that you were treated so inconsiderately :( I can only guess that she is 'so far gone' into her own problems that she can't see out of her bubble.

and to read of the income problems because of medical bills, our system SUCKS :( that one has to cut expenses and the 'realistic' choice is FOOD?!? so wrong!! :(

thanks Holly for your kind words. I really appreciate it!!! And I agree that our system "SUCKS" thanks again

today:
coffee 200
S:A big roll and some butter 400
L:vegetables with chicken and curry paste 350?
D: Salad 200
S? Caramel apple lollipop (for halloween) 70
total for day 1220

Today I had
coffee 250
a 4 oz mini baguette and three "large" aka smallish eggs. 500
Salad 250
for dinner I will have chicken with vegetables. 300
Caramel apple pop 70
total 1370

Waited 3 hours for a guy from reputable glass place to tome to give me an estimate to replace glass in a window. The apt was for 2pm. I called the company twice during that time to try to find out What was going on. But they couldn't reach him. His phone was off or "out of range". He's the manager so he is reportedly reliable. Finally I knew at 5pm that he was a no show. So I went out. The office people never called me back. They have a good reputation. So maybe it's just this current manager who is irresponsible. I have a thing around respecting people's time. I find it challenging when businesses do not respect mine.

there are 2 other glass replacement places. So it's not a big deal. Just a waste of an afternoon. I might write a google review if I do not get a phone call tomorrow.

Wondering how I can get back on track with feeling satiated. Between the hours of 4 or 5?pm and 9pm it's downright dangerous. Tuesday night I made 3 runs to the grocery store for food. The first time was logical. Second run, while driving I talked myself into buying frozen strawberries. I had a 2 dollar coupon. Whew, calories avoided. Except 100 calories for the 10 bag of strawberries. Great! Except After eating those I still couldn't handle the driving need for carbs. So I went out a third time and bought around 3 oz of chocolate. Two of these trips were in the dark, lol. All within 3 1/2 hours. Food issues are in my face ATM.
Today
coffee 250
baguette roll with eggs and caramelized onion 500 I wanted more.
Chicken with vegetables and powdered bone broth 300
candy 300
feta cheese 80
total for day 1430
i am exhausted Trying to manage the cravings.

One of the foods I had to change or Elminate when cutting back to save money is Trader Joe's coconut creamer to use in my Decaf coffee. I substituted it for powdered hannaford brand version if creamora. Saving 30 dollars a month. Now I am wondering if the city syrup (first ingredient in the dried creamer) is exacerbating the out of control cravings. I know there are other factors as well. Today I bought half and half. I am dairy sensitive. It causes inflammation in my body. But there is no other creamer option. I cannot afford the coconut creamer. Using the half and half shoukd save me some money over the coconut creamer. Not nearly as much as the powdered stuff.

Originally Posted by ruwinjayanga17:
good plan

thanks! Welcome to 3fc. I hope you find the community here that feels just right for you. It's really a great community.

At this point i don't even know how to proceed with food. Too heartbroken for food to even help. I think I need magic mushrooms. Low in calories. High in healing. I wish my foraging skills were well honed, lol. Needing a good mahic mushroom guide. Either that or kambo frog. Say no to carbs. Yes to mushrooms and dr kambo frog!

On a low sodium low calorie no starch diet for 3 days
today samples from Costco (okay, I allowed myself that in advance)
coffee 300 calories throughout the day
peaches 180
B: chicken with garlic, Dijon mustard and a bit of cabbage 220
L spring mix with Drizzle of sesame oil and onion 110
D chicken with garlic and Dijon mustard. Green beans and cabbage. 200
total for day 1010 plus samples, unknown calories.