Hi everyone,
Lisa good luck with the mobile home.
Ver

I was home all day yesterday, relaxing and sorting through bedroom closet stuff. This project is taking quite some time. I didn’t watch the game at all and am thankful I didn’t have to be around party foods last night.
Vermont mom, how did the meals go?
My boyfriend isn’t interested in the game either but we had planned to see a movie and then Saturday he canceled as he forgot it was game night. He texted me last night and then switched to being mean and talking nonsense and then he dumped me, then he apologized and then dumped me again. He does this about once a month. He has issues. He says things like I’m better off without him. It gives me super anxiety but anyway I didn’t respond to the last messages. I am worried about him but especially about me. It’s complicated.
I need to block it out and focus on my workday etc. There’s nothing that I did wrong, I just don’t know how to help him.

Hi everyone
I haven’t been on for a long time. I start back on here with a weight of 238. I never did reach my goal of 225. I’m so close!!!i can’t seen to get there. No I have
started a medication to help with anxiety and Insomnia. I’m very worried about the weight gain side affect. I love that I can sleep again but fear weight gain. I need to try to turn my thoughts around so I can help control the hunger. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I am already overweight and do not want to gain

Thanks for listening.

Oh panda, I am so sorry you are on this terrible emotional roller coaster. Focus on you, panda. Don't forget how incredibly important you are. He's got his issues and I feel so bad for him but you have a very important life to live. As far as we know, we only get this one chance. I think we get more but that is for another time...

Someone told me a very long time ago, no 1 person is worth that much pain. I've never forgotten that.

Just think about what I've said and I apologize if I've stepped out of bounds. Vent and keep venting here. Let it all out, that's what we are here for.

Much love to you.

Welcome, Mary Mo. You’re so close, you can do it!
Thank you Lisa for your support and kind words.

I’m working at a client site this week. I can’t make it to the dinner, but a bit worried about lunches and whatever snacks may be offered. I’ve been very good about logging my nutrition each day and feel I won’t be able to judge accurately what I am consuming. I will do my best and also watch portion size. This week my work schedule will be a bit more than usual, so not looking forward to that, but will be a change of scene to be at a different location which is sometimes needed.

I made it to my language class, and have basically been keeping busy.
I went to the dentist hygienist today and she asked if i am vegetarian (I’m not) and advised I get teated for anemia. When I do my annual will ask for bloodwork, but over the years i have heard i had signs of it but the tests have been ok.. She also said my teeth have signs of grinding/jaw clenching and that itcould be stress related. It’s a lot to learn from a dental cleaning appt.

Have you asked your Doctor about side effects? It is critically important stay in close communication with your physician. Ask, ask and ask more questions.

Now this is just me, you can tell me to shut up but this is just how I feel on the topic. I asked my physician and despite being on 4 medications that can cause weight gain, she told me that those meds cannot keep me from losing weight. Mine are all mental health meds.
I think that being mentally stable comes first, then the weight loss is second.

Talk to your physician.

Welcome to the thread, we are so happy to have you.

I got my mobile home!!!!! I signed the rental papers today. I am sooooo happy. It's an older mobile but it's actually nice. I'll take pics, as I get moved in. Here is the outside.



This is my new home.

Can you see the image?

I can’t see the image, but a huge CONGRATULATIONS, Lisa!!

Lisa - I can't see the image either, nor do I see a link...but CONGRATS!!!!!! that is so awesome! and congrats to Jennifer for adopting Stella

AND I think you gave wonderful, sound, good advice to both PandaCupcake and marymo!!

PandaCupcake, oh gosh I am sorry for the 'emotional rollercoaster' with the boyfriend..sounds like you know it is his issue and not you..best to you And my cheat meal was delicious

marymo welcome to our group!

HI to everyone else

ttyl!!

Today is cleaning day, ladies. I'd like to leave my apartment in decent condition.

I've been throwing stuff out, big time. I'm so tired from simply walking to the garbage area. I'm still taking my iron supplements as ordered but my poor legs.
I called and made a physical therapy appt. It is on the 12th at 2:30 pm. This is for leg strength, gait and balance.

I've got a couple more bags of trash to take out and then I'm out for the day. I'll continue to work in the apartment. I might and probably will have the dining room and living room done today. (The carpet still needs cleaned tho)

Ps I'm so tired.

I'm still in the dining room. I'm a hot mess from scrubbing the floor by hand. I wish I had a swiffer. At least, it will be really clean when I'm done.

I'm done for the evening. I'll pick back up in the morning.

Sweet dreams.

Thanks for the kind words...I’m decided to not proceed with this medication. I will be continuing communication with my doctor. I just can’t gain more weight. I ultimately feel ok this came up very suddenly and next thing I know I’m on this med. I more so need something to assist with sleep sometimes I feel there must be a better alternative. I find myself waking up having difficulty falling back asleep. Which means lack of sleep = One sleepy mama which always makes things harder to deal with. Thanks again. I feel you all in this group offer is great support.

Marymo I sure hope you can find something that will help you sleep! without any side effects. Sleep is so important! best wishes to you on that

I am sorry that I don't have any suggestions about how to turn your thoughts around from hunger..it is a battle!! I know i have tried to fill a gnawing hunger with cups of hot tea, endless carrots...I don't know how some people don't seem to be hungry and I can experience it even after a snack.

Lisa - wow scrubbing the floor by hand!!! you are determined!! and I applaud your sense of doing the right thing, of leaving your apartment in a nice state

do you have a date of when you are out of the apartment and into your new home?

Oh and Lisa, I WISH i could send you some of our snow it is still coming down hard, at one point this afternoon it was an inch an hour We spent a couple hours clearing the driveway, then decided to come in for supper and leave the rest for tomorrow. We were slated to get 6" to 12".

Eddie the dog was so cute outside while we were shoveling, he would start digging wildly with his front paws and plunge his head into the snow, when he brought up his head, his face was covered with snow except for around his eyes, nose and mouth, so he had the mask effect going on so cute.

It is getting harder and harder to put up with the RB and the young irresponsible co-worker but I will bite my tongue , continue to think my evil thoughts about them but say nothing, lol.

Hi
I’ve been focused this week on work. I decided not to weigh in this morning due to the extra calories I’ve been consuming at the off site meetings. Cookies, bread, etc carbs.

Late last night while i was in bed, my bf(that broke up with me Sunday night?) texted me that he is in the hospital. I don’t know what to do or how to help. I offered to come to the hospital but he said his family is there. I want to see him; I want to go today or if he goes home today I want to go to his place to see him; but I don’t know what is going to happen. It sounds v bad.

Hi Marymo,

I am sorry you're experiencing anxiety and insomnia. That is so hard! I have gone through bouts of that in my own life and it is like a nightmare because you can't sleep and that makes the anxiety worse.

I'm glad to read that you decided not to go on the meds. I have found that there are a lot of good alternative things that can help anxiety and insomnia, which don't make you gain weight or get addicted to a med.

Here's what I've used in the past: magnesium citrate ("Natural Calm" is powdered form that you can mix in hot water and it tastes good, or you can take capsules), 5-HTP which is a kind of tryptophan that is a precursor to serotonin and melatonin both important in sleep, Omega-3 (fish oil, borage oil), micronutrients from vitamins and minerals (I have gotten them making green drinks and taking vitamins).

Exercise helps flush adrenaline and cortisol (stress hormone) out of your body so that's important. Adrenaline is produced when we're anxious and that signals our body not to go into a deep sleep in case we have to jump up and save ourselves. You have to rid your body of adrenaline if you are going to get good sleep. Adrenaline also eats up minerals like magnesium, which is why it's important to get a lot of micro minerals and nutrients.

I hope this might be helpful. A really good book I like about this kind of stuff is called " The Ultramind Solution: The Simple Way to Defeat Depression, Overcome Anxiety, and Sharpen Your Mind", by Dr. Mark Hyman, MD. He is a functional-medicine doctor who helps people with a lot of neurological disorders including mental health disorders.

Also, lately I have been experimenting with "powering down" 3-4 hours before I go to sleep. No screens, and I turn off the electric lights and just light a few candles for light. We evolved with only fire light and candle light, so too much light (esp the blue kind coming from TV or computers or phones) is very stimulating and can cause insomnia. When we power down and use candles, not only does it help me feel more relaxed and ready for sleep, but it makes our home feel more sane and balanced and slow.

Blessings to you!