Depression and Weight IssuesHave you been diagnosed with depression, are possibly on depression medication, and find it affects your weight loss efforts? Post here for support!
Lisa, you are the champ for keeping the faith here. Fi also, so glad you were able to post from the upstairs! and I hope so much that you are able to be by yourself when Bob has to go out of state.
Lisa, boo to all that homework! but I hope you are keeping up with it. Glad you got to go to crocheting group but sorry you were in pain with your hand.
I spent the night at my work for 3 nights in a row last week, and boy oh boy, did I work my butt off!! but got lots of compliments on my desserts from the guests, which is nice. No comments from the management for my obvious hard work, which is sucky, but I got my paycheck today and YEAH for lots of hours! $$$ and I know I did my best and gave people great service with lots of smiles.
I rode my m'cycle to work today and FROZE for 25 miles, I just mis-judged on the temp and arrived stiff, lol, at least the kitchen warms up quickly and hot coffee helped.
I seem to be eating whatever i want, I wonder if I have just given up for life?? I will still work out for daily strength and endurance but seem to have accepted myself as i am. I can't wish my life away, wishing I looked like someone else. But unless I can talk to someone I will always be feeling down on myself. I just do NOT want to pay for counseling, I am so cheap, haha.
Holly, glad you got out on your bike but sorry you froze. brrrrrrrrr
Please don't wish that you look like someone else. You are beautiful just the way you are, you need to shine. Look at me, my weight is awful, yet I NEVER compare myself to anyone. It would just break my confidence totally to do that so I never ever do. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. I am. I have beautiful parts of my body that are improving all the time. I look nice in clothes. I have awesome hair and beautiful eyes. There is never any reason to judge yourself against anyone else. I see your beauty through your words. I'd die to be your weight, just remember that.
Now, I have a lot to get done before Sunday. A LOT!!!! It's all homework. sigh
I hope Kathleen is ok???????? And Fi, be ok, please. All my friends.....You are in my heart.
I've been procrastinating on my homework. NOT good. I need to buckle down and just work on it. I guess I'm scared I can't do it and that is why I procrastinate.
Lisa_C, good luck with your homework. School has always made me a psychotic monster, lol. I'm an overachiever when it comes to grades and school and when I do an assignment that I worked on for days, nights and really kicked butt on and don't receive the grade I think I deserved, it is very upsetting. I'm not afraid to talk to my professors about it either and sometimes they like that about me and sometimes they get defensive. It can be hit or miss, but it's not hard to tell who the really good professors are they love their job and their students. Sometimes I don't know why some people even got into that profession, but that's a topic for another day.
As for ups and downs, I have been extremely down lately. I could tell you my entire depressing life story, but that would take an hour and I just don't have the energy. That's my big problem lately, I have zero energy. Anyone have any tips for that? For the last 2 weeks I've been sleeping 12+ hours a day, so sleep is not my problem unless it's getting too much. I just can't keep my eyes open most days.. Today I don't even have the energy to shower and that really sucks.
to the board, tranquilize!!!!!! We are so glad to have you here. I am like you, I sleep a lot. I only let myself sleep so much though and not go overboard. Do you take any meds or are you doing this by yourself? That makes a big difference. I am on meds myself. Have you tried taking small walks? That is supposed to help your energy level.
I am tired right now. I may take a small nap before tackling my project. I am waiting to hear back from my instructor, he has a link I need before I can go any further.
tranquilize: to the group! So happy you posted! I have been absent from the group for way too long this month. I am recovering from breast cancer and two surgeries for it, so I have a good reason, but I need to get back on board! One reason I haven't posted in such a long time is that every time I start to write, which is usually very late at night, I either konk out while typing or I finally type a long post and it disappears into cyberspace before I post it. Anyway, it's late again now, but I wanted to send you a quick HELLO and WELCOME!
Lisa and Holly and Fi: HELLO ladies!!! I am so very sorry that I haven't posted in such a long time!!! Like I told tranquilize in the above post, I have attempted several posts very late at night and even some during the day, but I always literally fall asleep while typing or I end up losing a long post in cyberspace with the touch of the wrong button. This has been extremely frustrating, because I just want you to know that I am okay. I received some wonderful news this past week. I switched my medical care down to The James Cancer Hospital on The OSU campus, and I absolutely love my new medical oncologist there, Dr. Maryam Lustberg!!! About 3 weeks ago, she enrolled me in a study that gives me an Oncotype, which is a determination (from a more in-depth pathology performed on my tumor in California) of my chances for a recurrence of breast cancer. Well, I found out on Wednesday that my score was an 11 (on a scale of 1-50)....... which is a very low and very good score. Dr. Lustberg had explained at our first appointment that a score of 25 or lower would mean no chemo because research shows that chemo is no added benefit when used along with hormone therapy. So, when we met with her Friday late afternoon, she detailed the plan for hormone therapy that she would like to begin right away. I will start monthly injections of a medication to supress my ovaries and eventually shut them down. It will force me into menopause, along with all of the lovely side effects that come with it (i.e., hot flashes, mood swings, weight gain ~ ARGGH! ~ and irritability, to name just a few). If I tolerate the injections/shots well, they will also add in another medication that I will take at bedtime each night (for the same purpose of shutting down my ovaries). Then, once my ovaries are shut down, they can treat me with a whole other list of meds for women who have already gone through menopause. These meds have fewer serious side effects than Tamoxifen, which has traditionally been used when hormone therapy is needed. (This was the ONLY hormone therapy med I was offered at the previous place.) Anyway, that is a quick update on me. LIFE IS STILL GOOD, especially since I have been told that I DON'T NEED CHEMO!!!!!
I hope all is well with you ladies!!! Fi, I hated to read about all of the pain you were experiencing recently. I sure hope that things have begun to look UP for you and that your pain has begun to subside!!! Lisa, best of luck with school!!! I have kept you in my prayers even in my absence here. And Holly, I was so ecstatic to read that you were able to get outdoors on that "kewl" motorcycle of yours!!! BIG HUGS to all of you!!!
Lisa_C, thank you. I look at it this way, if I'm sleeping then I'm not eating something bad for me, lol. I take Ativan for anxiety but nothing of the SSRI sort. I've tried Prozac, Cymbalta and Celexa in the past. All gave me awful side effects except for Cymbalta. I'm not a fan of anti-depressant meds at all, the just really mess my system up. The Celexa gave me the period from **** that never went away until I stopped the medication. Very odd. Besides, I have hypothyroidism and thyroditis that I have recently been put on Synthroid for, so I don't need any other medications that could potentially cause more weight gain or awful side effects. I take norethindrone which is like a progesterone or progestin, whichever one, so I don't get my monthly friend anymore and haven't for almost two years. I had horrible complications from it, got very, very sick, lost lots of bloods from the 4 months non-stop. Just a very awful, messy thing! That medication alone can cause weight gain and makes it difficult to lose weight, but it's impossible right now for me to stop taking that.
As for walks, I get very nervous because I have untreated colitis (my GIs are all morons, I've seen several and the last just retired) and suffer from daily diarrhea and it can happen at any time. My last walk, I made it home just in time.. very embarrassing and a nightmare to deal with. So any exercise I think I will be doing at home for a while.
IBelieveInMe2, thank you for welcoming me, and I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through that. I'm dealing with other health issues, so I do know what it's like to be sick and go through multiple procedures, it's exhausting and not fun at all. Congrats on not needing chemo, that is wonderful news!
I can't really type out personals right now, my hand is messed up. I have 1st and 2nd degree burns on it. i picked up a hot pan. I will come back when I can type more. I just got back from the ER earlier this evening.
Lisa, I hope you mend quickly. Did they give you something for your pain?
Kathleen, I went through menopause like nothing - a few hot flashes in the middle of the night, and that was it. I was relieved to have my period over with as I had painful cramps most months. I did not gain weight or have mood swings - nothing like the PMS I had when I was younger.
Fi, I hope your pain is lessening.
Holly, the mornings have still been quite cold here, but the days have been warming up - I am appreciating the grass, flowers, warm sun, etc. more than ever after the winter we survived.
My family problems are bad again; I wish I could help, but what can I do but listen? Meanwhile, I am still hovering at 150 - just cannot seem to get back on track - at least I have only gained three pounts. Of course, I want to lose ten, not gain.
Take care everyone.
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Just checkin' in to say I'm doing all right, but I did have a few more falls recently, and my legs have been very bruised & sore as a result. But I'm hangin' in here, working on making sure I will do OK on my own while Bob is in California for 10 days. My dear great niece Grace will be checking in on me in person and also on the phone, so don't worry about me, y'all. When you see me post a link to a new collage I have made, you'll know I'm truly back. =smile=
Jeez, Lisa, I'm so sorry about your poor burned hand. Just take your Percocet on schedule and don't feel bad about needing it. I wish I had some Percocet myself for my legs, but there's a possibility it would make them worse, so I just need to get through this time, recover the strengtn in my legs, and get back on the weight loss trail again.
My hand is doing fine. The blisters are healing, popping and drying up. My hand is almost to the point, where you can't tell that I badly burnt it. That cream they gave me, works magic. My index finger doesn't have much feeling in it though, I hope it comes back.
Fi, I am so sorry that you are still falling. You must feel so helpless. *hug* I am so glad you have Grace to check on you. Wow, Bob is gone a long time.
Kathleen, that is wonderful that you don't need chemo. yay!!!!!! Fantastic news!!!!!
Once again, I was thinking about dropping out of school. I have gotten behind and don't understand the work. I am going to take extra live videos to figure out this crap and my Dept Head knows of my situation so does my instructor. It is web coding for web pages using Dreamweaver.
So anyway, I will keep you updated on my attempt....NO, NO, NO I will get caught up and do my best.
but got lots of compliments on my desserts from the guests, which is nice. No comments from the management for my obvious hard work, which is sucky, but I got my paycheck today and YEAH for lots of hours! $$$ and I know I did my best and gave people great service with lots of smiles. 
to the board, tranquilize!!!!!! We are so glad to have you here. I am like you, I sleep a lot. I only let myself sleep so much though and not go overboard. Do you take any meds or are you doing this by yourself? That makes a big difference. I am on meds myself. Have you tried taking small walks? That is supposed to help your energy level.
Welcome!
to the group! So happy you posted! 
Anyway, it's late again now, but I wanted to send you a quick HELLO and WELCOME! 
Hello!!!
Like I told tranquilize in the above post, I have attempted several posts very late at night and even some during the day, but I always literally fall asleep while typing or I end up losing a long post in cyberspace with the touch of the wrong button. 
If I tolerate the injections/shots well, they will also add in another medication that I will take at bedtime each night (for the same purpose of shutting down my ovaries). Then, once my ovaries are shut down, they can treat me with a whole other list of meds for women who have already gone through menopause. These meds have fewer serious side effects than Tamoxifen, which has traditionally been used when hormone therapy is needed. (This was the ONLY hormone therapy med I was offered at the previous place.) Anyway, that is a quick update on me. LIFE IS STILL GOOD, especially since I have been told that I DON'T NEED CHEMO!!!!! 
