Hello ladies
i am really sorry i should stay of the internet when i am feeling like that i am sorry i ranted i was feeling awful that day and as a result went and got drunk totally messing up my clean time well its back to basic's day 3 for me now.
Vermont - she had the baby on friday morning around 5am 2 weeks over due and a long labour but she is doing well and little baby Alex is very healthy and bonnie

i will have to wait to see her as she is up north but she is coming to stay for the weekend soon, it will be so lovely to have a baby in the house again.
Ems - your doing amazing!!
I lost 4lbs this week so i am happy with that i needed a kick start!
im still getting used to this new life i dont like it but i know its what i have to do to say alive i just hope the mental illness gets better as i get healthier
Hope everyone else is good xxx