oooowww Chinese food I want some too! maybe one at the weekend as its mothers day in here in the UK sunday I might have to treat myself

Iris, they are snotty what makes it worse is that I work and my DH stays at home and looks after the girls, so I dont go to the school very often and my girls have come home saying the other moms think i dont live with my kids as my husband takes them to school most of the time. some women will just gossip about anything.
Work was not to bad today as luckily everyone else was as drunk as me on friday, only a few little comments but nothing i wont live down

Aunty Jam, its hard with step kids, my step mom tries really hard she gets it wrong alot of the time but i like the fact she tries. Could you try and maybe take her out just the 2 of you maybe dinner or shopping, she might open up to you and get it of her chest, and like iris said sometimes just listening helps.
When I ask my dad for advice on marriage he's standard answer is "im not very good at this kinda think Marie" (in a nice way) then i just cry and he listens, could you try and find an answer that she will like and spur her on to let it all out? some times a girl just needs a chat and a cry.

Mom, I know what you mean about momma bear, my girls only have to say another kid has given them grief and I go wild, my eldest is a quite little thing and one girl was nasty to her at school, so i went for the mom. its great she gave you her password shows the trust the 2 of you have. hope you get it sorted soon and she gets happy again.

I am feeling ok today, DH is doing my head in with constant moaning, its pay day tomorrow and its comes in and it goes straight back out on the bills so this is always a stressful time of the month.
I still haven't resigned yet my boss was in a foul mood today so i stayed well clear of him, I even missed a client meeting as the sexiest pigs i work with just use me as a tea and coffee server in these meetings and totally degrades me, how is a client supposed to take me seriously talking about architecture when my boss has made me make the tea? so much for equality!

I hear what you guys are saying... I guess I should probably sympathize with her more but I hate it when young girls think their boyfriend is everything. It really really irks me! I did that when I was younger and I ended up not knowing who I was! It took me a long time to figure it out but once I did I swore I'd never go back to the way I was. My husband says one of the things that attracted him to me was the fact that I was my own person and had my own life. Gah... I know she probably doesn't want to hear it. I'll try to be more sympathetic, going out just the two of us is a really good idea. I'm not sure what or where though... neither of us have any money!

Mom - it takes much more then that to tick me off!

Marie - Really think you need a new job with someone who recognizes your worth!

Aunty- lol good...I agree they shouldn't find their idenity in their bf or anyone else...they need to see who they are and be their own person....but thats why its important for you to remind her of who she is an her talents and to figure out WHO she is without him....MCDonalds sells ice cream sundaes for $1...Dig up some change and have some dessert!! Or a frosty at wendy's is pretty close to the same!!!

Aunty Jam, good luck with your SD, im dreading my 2 girls coming up to teenage years, my eldest is only 11 and its all about looks and boys and she is one of the shy ones.
your right about my job im just hoping that the new job i have lined up is not as sexist.

I didnt resign again today, i know i have to do it by friday its just a case of timing. my "work" day started badly my bossed called me at 8:45am on my cell phone demanding to know why i didnt go to the client meeting yesterday so i told him i thought i was only there to make the tea. it turned out i was suppost to give a talk on progress as well as make the tea and made him look bad.. haha yerh like he doesnt do that to me!
so i finally get to work 3 hours late and in a foul mood i get called in my one of the directors to say i am to start working on a 3rd project, thats unheard of someone in my position working on 3 projects so i tell him and his response is it a ressession get used to it. he can F***k right off i almost told him i was going to leave at this point.
it just gets worse and worse as the day went on, i was so pleased when my brother called me at 4:30 and said to come for a drink, i only see him twice a year and as he was in town I packed my bag and left the office. i know they are going to go mental about this tomorrow morning but i seriously am not in the mood for them and i had a great time with my brother.
Sorry to bore you all with my work stress i find i would rather me stressed with work then worry about my marriage problems i can forget about these when i am stressing with some thing else.

Hope you all have a good day xx

I feel for you because I have had years of hives. Steroids are bad. I understand how low you feel but you have done a great job. Do whatever you have to do to feel better.

Mom - that's a great idea... Or if I go to DQ they have those calorie wise treats but that's more pricey. Hhhmmmm... Now the only problem is time, this week is pretty much shot but I'll see what I can work out.

Marie - Ug.. can you afford to quit? I dispise my job also but I can't quit.

Pugmom - Thanks I thought they were gone until I got up this morning and had 2 on my left hand. Ow! It's a really random thing... very strange. When I did talk to my dr she agreed steroids probably weren't the right choice this time around. I'm going to try wait it out.

I think I just agreed to run a half marathon. Um.... I just had a chat with a co-worker who's a runner... and he mentioned that he's been toying with the idea of doing a half marathon and this has been my goal since I got really into running. Anyway, it seems I really need a filter between my brain and my mouth.. before I could stop myself I blurted out "YES! Let's do that!".

hey everyone hope your all well i got loads on uni work to do and its stressing me out


marie i hope you sort your job out soon sound slike a right nightmare x

aww ems, it will be worth it in the end honey, i will be doing my masters next year as well as working, i think i just like the punishment

Aunty Jam, i am leaving the job im just waiting a few more weeks to tell them im off, i have an even better one lined up, just got to suffer about 6 weeks longer where i am
Well done you in agreeing to the half marathon. hows your step daughter doing is she any more happier?

Iv had a good day today I just took work in my stride and didnt let anyone get me down.
I have tomorrow of work to see my daughter perform in an african dumming session, so i am going to kick back and relax tonight and let nothing get me down

Hope everyone has a good day xxx

Just wanted to stop in and say hi. I had a wisdom tooth pulled today so I was off. It's sad but I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I didn't have to work either job and it was just great. It's sad when oral surgery gives you a welcome break from life.

Hi Aunty Jam, marie, ems, buddly, and momof4. I know you all are going through some serious problems. Thinking about you all. I think things will slow down a little for m in May. Pool league will be over and I told my part time job that I couldn't do Monday nights. Maybe at that point I will only work Tuesday and Thursday night and sundays at that job. I will actually have 3 nights off and Saturday. That should give me some more time to myself to rest. I just have to survive till then.

Well I managed to plan to go to the retreat I have been going to for a few years now...Its this weekend. First I wasn't going to go but on Saturday I was like you know what I have been working hard I need this time more than any other time! It is up on a mountain and so peaceful and just a relaxing time....no rushed schedule. Time to just think and ponder and get refreshed...so ya

BUT that don't start till Friday and tomorrow is proving to be a heck of a day..Baseball practice, trainer, kids visits....I wanted the laundry to be all caught up and things organized before I leave so my husband dont have to do anything and I dont feel guilty for leaving when stuff needs done. I cleaned the kitchen today it looks beautiful again. I only have 1 load of dirty clothes and bout 4 clean to fold..so really its not bad...but the kids rooms need cleaned before they get outta control...sigh..SOO I got a list tomorrow and cant afford to miss any of it!!! LOL
I can push myself in the gym but I dont push myself here like that! errrr.....Im defective haha!!

Let me tell you a funny story bout my kids..I sent my boys upstairs to clean their rooms and gave them 15 minutes to complete the task (wasnt bad) I kept yelling off time updates. Right after my 5 minute update my 8 year old comes down stairs and says mom Nathan wrote on my face....I didnt look at him and was just like "really" then I turned and YEAHHH..I had to turn away so he didnt see me laugh...I had to do it about 3 or 4 more times..then I call for nathan who is 6 and when he walks into the rooms he immediately says "it was an accident" I WAS LIKE NO NO NO...There was no accident about this...Ethan tried telling me his little brother held him down...sigh..Here's what he looked like...haha

Then my 3 year old brought me her purse and told me it was time to give her more money...ahaha
I love my kids!

Oh I'm sorry to laugh at that but how true Drugs, laying down on a padded chair with your feet up...oh yeah

momof4, thanks for that cute pic!! lol, 'accident'. And about your 3 yr old saying she needed money cute!! I hope you get everything done so you go to the retreat with an easy mind but HEY...if your husband has to do laundry or fold, that's not the end of his world, either.

Hi Aunty Jam, ems, marie, buddly, and iris

we're supposed to get a foot of snow tomorrow <---that little guys shows how I feel about that.

Hey to everyone.

Mom - Looking at that picture I don't think I would have been able to hold it together! The retreat sounds wonderful... wish I could come with you.

Hope - I hear ya, I've had wisdoms removed while thinking the same thing.

So today is offically the last day of my ultimatum..... I'm still not sure what I want/need to do. He has "negotiations" today with someone he's been doing contract work for a full time gig. I'm just not sure they'll pay him enough for us to live.

I've had dreams of fighting with people all week, usually I'm wrapped up or restrained in some way and fighting to get out of it. Last night I also dreamt I was going back to high school and having no end of problems. Couldn't get registered, couldn't find my schedule, my locker, my classroom. Actually the going back to school dream is a reoccuring one for me... the fighting is new.

hey girls on a happy note i lost 1.5lbs this week x

mom - lol kids are so much fun. have a great time on your retreat.

hope - i am not good with the dentist, hope your feeling ok and in not to much pain.

Vermont - ((hugs))

ems - hows the studying going? are you ok?

Aunty jam - are you on meds? i find my meds make me have some very strange dreams. something happened in my life about 2 weeks ago (i cant go into detail) but i thought i was feeling better about it then the last couple of nights its been dreams almost nightmares about the situation, I cut down on my sleeping pills this week to 1/2 the dose i think this could have something to do with it.

So no work today for me and i was at home having some time with my girls and the mailman came and he had my final contract for my new job. i am so excited, i just have the awful task of telling my boss i am off, i HAVE to do it tomorrow, will let you know how it goes.
I have been feeling like a panic attack has been coming on all evening but not quite getting there, my chest has been getting a horrible flutter feeling like my heart is going wrong, its not good and I have been in a bad mood since about 5pm it just hit me and wont lift, nothing started it of its just there

xxx

OMG iv done it I have resigned from my job, i feel like a massive pressure is off my shoulders, scary boss took it quite well i am just waiting now for HR to come and talk to me, fingers crossed i get garden leave

Hope everyone is haveing a good day XXXX