[hope4me]

Lynnie, I'm sorry you are dealing with PTSD. You are lucky to have a great hubby that listens and understands you. Are you in counseling for the PTSD, or is that a possibility?

I napped most of my day off and watched Twilight for the 10th time. I was just trying to escape I guess. I have been cleaning on Saturdays but was just too tired today. Why do I feel guilty about that? Maybe it's not guilt, but I do feel like I need to get it done but I'm working tomorrow and I'm sure I won't do it all after work. I did get the sheets washed however so it will be nice to crawl into bed tonight. Don't forget to set your clocks forward everybody.

[momof4under5]

I am a little frustrated because I worked super hard this week and ate healthy about 95% of the week. The unhealthy things didn't lead to lots of calories (except the stupid fat free fig newtons I didnt pay attention to!!) But I went to the gym 6 days this week (1 day I went twice)!! I have kept my calories down and tonight I weighed the same as I did last Sunday....My weigh in is Sunday mornings...so it better be atleast down a few lbs...Like what else can I do?? A freind who HAD to lose weight for medical reasons her dr and nutrionist recommended the no whites (white flour stuff or potatoes) and she lost like 50lbs in not very much time.....just from cutting it out and working out....I dont know if I want to commit to cutting out food groups because if you ever go to eat them again you can just gain the weight back.
Like today after lunch my total calories consumed was 547 and my calories burned at the gym was 541...I have never moved this much at ate right so how can i NOT be losing weight..guess we will see in the morning. Just struggling losing this weight 1 to 2lbs a week...thats insanely slow and will take me FOREVER...If I work out any harder I will kill myself or injure myself...

blahhh ok thanks for listening!

[lynnie923]

Originally Posted by hope4me

Lynnie, I'm sorry you are dealing with PTSD. You are lucky to have a great hubby that listens and understands you. Are you in counseling for the PTSD, or is that a possibility?

I napped most of my day off and watched Twilight for the 10th time. I was just trying to escape I guess. I have been cleaning on Saturdays but was just too tired today. Why do I feel guilty about that? Maybe it's not guilt, but I do feel like I need to get it done but I'm working tomorrow and I'm sure I won't do it all after work. I did get the sheets washed however so it will be nice to crawl into bed tonight. Don't forget to set your clocks forward everybody.

I see my psychiatrist every 3 months so that helps with the dealing of the PTSD. Plus I take a medicine for the flashbacks and nightmares.

[Aunty Jam]

Hey all... just checking in. Not a whole lot new.

[ems81wales]

hey everyone hope your all doing well? Im ok been plooding along with the weight loss i had an episode last week cus i was stressed out with uni so had a crying session but i feel abit better for it now. Hope everyone is ok xxx

[hope4me]

Hi all, not much to tell for me either. I almost called out today from work, but I didnt. I just didn't want to go. The weekend was too fast. We had a fire drill today and then the elevators went out. I had to walk up the stairs to the fifth floor. I thought I would die. It was bad. On the bright side, I actually was asked for help from one of the people who had been working at the company for years. I had to explain one of our analysis sheets to her. She told my boss that I knew how to explain it better than she did. It was nice to get a compliment there. It made me feel good, and useful for a change.

[VermontMom]

Hey lynnie sorry I'm a couple days late in welcoming you

momof4 - you are doing good!! just keep on. I know 1 or 2 pounds a week sounds 'insanely slow'..but that's the way to do it. I think that most, if not all, of the 'success stories' here at 3FC have been chicks that have done it slowly yet surely. Burn the calories with the cardio; start building muscle with strength; and as you're getting rid of fat, you'll be ready with the muscles underneath You do so much in all other areas; we believe you can do this, TOO!

Hi Aunty Jam Hi summershine!! and hi ems81. Sorry about the crying spell but I'm glad you 'let it out' and maybe feel a bit better.

hope - hiya I think that is way kewl that you got that comp about your knowledge at work! Sometimes we are 'saved' by a comment from someone that really makes our day (or our week, or our month)

I've had a couple of those 'saving' comments over the winter. The first was in late December, from a friend who didn't know about DH's accident. He was really concerned; listened; offered me his huge 1800CC Victory bike to ride if I wanted but just really let me know that he cared, and offered unequivocal help if needed, at any time. And I believed him.

The second was hearing from a seasoned motorcyclist, in January, that he saw me riding in front of him one day last year, saw me accelerating to go up a fun hill, and thought, 'that person knows how to ride'.

The third was about a month ago; another long-time rider who has a motorcycle touring business; asked me if I'd want to help him, by being a tour guide!!! I was so psyched that he thought I was skilled enough. Well i have been riding for almost 9 years now...but being a 'girl' I still had some self doubts about my skills. But he thinks I'm good enough! woohoo.

I can just tell that I am starting to get back to myself. With Daylight Savings Time, and just feeling that in a month most of the snow will be gone..and only one month (30 days!) of the awful winter job left.

[ems81wales]

cheers holly wehave day light savinf in a few weeks the clocks are going forward im not looking forward to that hehe xxx

[Beck]

Hi all! I'm Beck, mama to 6, and have battled with depression and anxiety for the past few years. I was diagnosed with PPD after my twins were born, took meds for about 4 years, and have been off for about a year. The past few years have been trying ones; my husband has lost his job 3 times in the past 3.5 years (he just started a new job a few weeks ago, thank heavens!), lots of marital problems, and on top of that finance problems due to the job losses.

I lost some weight last summer and fall, but over the past 4 months have gained about 15lbs back. I'm back on track, and I hope I can keep up the motivation to get myself fit for life while finding mechanisms to cope with stress and depression.

[Tamlynne31]

Hello everyone!! I'm Tammy and I also suffer from pretty bad depression. Its gets to where I need to force myself to get out of bed. If it weren't for my daughter I don't think I would get out of bed some days. I am doing good weight loss wise.. lost 8 lbs so far since I started but its hard.. I want someone who is doing it with me. I want to have a friend right there with me so I don't feel so alone but it just seems impossible to find.

Anyway I hope to find some friends here and look forward to getting to know you all!

[VermontMom]

Hi Beck and Tamlynn,

[VermontMom]

Originally Posted by momof4under5

So I Ran yesterday at a 4.2 for 13 minutes without stopping then the second time I ran at a 4.3 for 10 minutes without stopping!!!
So my goal today was to run the original goal of 15mins...I RAN 16MINS!!! @ a 4.3!!!

mom, I meant to comment on this, WOW!!!!!

Originally Posted by momof4under5

Vermont- thats some crazy snow and your good years are just starting...right!!!!

meant to say THANKS for that!! really nice hearing that from a young person

Hey to everyone Doing okay here...which is actually good for me - I feel like it's been a horrible long haul since fall for us. I think it's such a good thing that DH and I are such 'afraid of change' people because otherwise we'd be separated or divorced a hundred times over by now

the latest thing is him telling me 'don't pay the hospital more than $25 a month' when I've already made the calls to set up a payment plan and they would NOT accept less than $250 a month, with the threat of "Collections". He thinks the hospital bill was incredibly overpriced, and compared to another hospital bill it was; but I HAD to deal with setting up a payment plan so I did.

I just don't think it's fair that I have been the one to contact everyone we owe, because of his accident, and make the payment arrangements, and pay them, then he tries to state what I should do. He made this statement to me yesterday in an email, from work, not even in person! So I was kinda cool to him yesterday once he got home. I should have just confronted him with it, and said "hey...we BOTH need to be involved in this, NOT just me to have the balls to pick up the phone and contact the people." Okay rant over.

Besides that I feel good. Haven't felt like this in months and months and months!! I swear it's all due to the seasons. But this time it was worse because of DH's accident and the repercussions of that. HOPEfully next winter won't be so bad!! and I've GOT to find a different winter job.

my latest complaint about winter job - last week I slipped on a piece of meat fat and went crashing to the floor and of course landed on the left knee, the one that's been hurting. Both boss and wife asked, 'are you okay?' and I said NO I am not. ( I could feel the blood drain from my face..when you're about to pass out?) The wife said, ' get some ice and go lay down in the back for a while' and so I did (but only 10 minutes) The Rat B@st@rd Boss did not say ANYTHING else. Not 'are you okay now' or 'does it still hurt' or ANYTHING. I hate him for that!!

Yesterday I was feeling good enough to do some much needed housework (no one else vacuums in this house) so I vacuumed, mopped the kitchen floor, cleaned the bathroom, picked up everyone else' stuff in the living room and it looks good for one day Today will be laundry, and maybe attack the snowbank at top of driveway that blocks our view.

wow I'm talkative today

[momof4under5]

Welcome to the new ones!!!

Vermont-I can send you my laundry since your on a roll!!!

Well Im not a morning person and my husband called and we got into a fight....Like he has to have an answer for everything he cant just be like awe honey thats not good..I hope it goes better....His advice is figure out whats causing you to feel like this and fix it...LIKE REALLY...If I knew I woulda fixed it by now...But hes been trying to not be grumpy and done good for a while He told me to just not be irritated and I was like yeah ok I will tell you that when your grumpy...Hes like when am I grumpy...you must be living in a different world than me....blah blah blah I hung up! LIke one its too early for this and two I don't want to listen to it.....


Oh the up side I ran 20 mins at a 4.5 yesterday! People really arent as supportive as I wish they were....my husband tries to get me to eat food after I control myself n told me maybe I should skip the gym a few days and take a nap at home...

My kids are irritating me like anything I say gets ignored well Im about sick of it I will be the freakin boot camp mother....Just so sick of it ALL!! I've thought about packin and leaving but I couldnt do it it wouldnt be worth it...
So here I am....


Anyways.....I have sooo much to do and its stressing me out and that makes me aggitated....guess I will talk more lata!

[Aunty Jam]

Hey everyone.... welcome to our new people.

Vermont - Hope your knee feels better That's great that your friend wants you for a tour guide. You're probably a great rider... just your own worst critic. Your hospital bills make me glad I'm in Canada.

Mom - Dealing with your husband must be tough... Would it help to sit him down and talk about it?

My husband still isn't working... but he's stepped up the search for a job. He also applied for emergency funding from the Gov but I'm not sure if anything will come of that. He has looked into a few new temp agencies... and submitted a bid to do work at a chain of pharmacies. He's thinking of getting his business license back and going after contracts... working like that stresses the heck out of me because it's not stable, but I guess it's better then nothing. I know he's feeling the pinch because after he pitched that idea to me he says "Does that count as "working"?". I didn't know what to say, I couldn't even look at him. I just started saying something about I didn't know what to do (regarding the ultimatum) and how it wasn't something I was taking lightly. I think we're both very aware that the last month is now half over.

And with all this carp going on we're thinking about adopting another dog. He's a border collie cross and his name is Snoop. I know it's crazy but Chase is so bored on his own, he's never been an only dog before. I've always thought dogs do better in pairs. If we split of course both would stay with me. Obviously I don't want to split. Maybe I'll just become a hard arse and demand he clean the house every day, yeah, cause that would make for a happy home.

[ems81wales]

hey girls i lost 3lbs tonight im so happy thats 16lbs lost since i started back at ww only 15lbs more until i meet my birthday goal which is the end of july