Ended up seeing The Karate Kid with my son. It was a very good movies but I didn't think it would be as long as it was. We did have fun so that's a good thing.

I am feeling a lot better than I was earlier this week. The home remedies that I did worked. My throat is still a little sore but not as bad as it was. I am just happy that I was able to take care of it without having to go to the doctors. I really could not afford a doctors bill right now.

This week I have been helping a friend of mine. She had surgery on Wednesday and had a tumor removed from her breast. It was really scary for her but if it wasn't for me she would have never done it... I was there with her for every doctors visit and have been spending a lot of time with her this week.. She has been very brave even though she was very scared of what would happen... She will find out on the 22nd more info on what the tumor is. If it is nothing or something else.. I will be there. She is a very important person to me...

I have to get back on my diet and eating right again and exercising... This week I haven't really done anything.. I was trying to rest as much as possible and didn't want to push things to much. That is something I am going to be working on..

Finally going to bed.. Night

Hi all -
I drove out to my folks' house - ended up getting out late, but didn't want to stay over anywhere midway. Ended up getting there at 4:00 am! Boy am I pooped.
Chat at ya'll later - I'm looking forward to getting some workouts in with old friends during my visit.

Awww momof4, I'm sorry. I hate, hate it, hate it too. It happened to me too this year. I think I had already lost 20lbs too so that really made me feel bad. I just noticed two other people started threads b/c it happened to them too. Don't feel like the lone ranger. My goal is a flat stomach but will that ever happen? Can it after all the stretching to it I've done?

Finally off of my stretch of closings at work. Looking forward to thursday when I'm off till next wednesday. I'm still debating going home to see my mom. I keep going back and forth. I don't know what I'm going to do yet.

Amarie, your trip makes me lean toward going home. I hope you're sleeping now. How long are you there for?

Purefire, I'll say a prayer for your friend. It's such a scary and stressful thing. The waiting is the worst.

Hi everyone,
Sorry I haven't been around this weekend much. I have been so very busy. I woke up friday morning at about 9ish. Didn't go to sleep till Saturday night around 11ish. Woke up Sunday morning around 9 again, been busy the whole day then didn't go to sleep till about 1 am. I have been so busy but good busy I guess. Well most of it anyways.

most of you have asked me about my journal...no I haven't started my journaling yet. I did though change my blog from drabby to uplifting. I haven't been on there for awhile also. I try to think positively but I get shot down alot. I try and try though.

I did awesome today. I didn't have breakfast but ate a big salad for lunch. Ate some oreos, not as much as I would normally during TOM (thats the only time i eat oreos), had a protein shake for dinner and one for dessert then just had a pop tart. I wanted to taste this one cause my best friend said it tasted good. I don't like it much so I guess that's a good thing right? I also took my 4 kids to the neighborhood park. I walked. Now if I can do this tomorrow, I'll be in business.

Sorry haven't read everyones post. Will try to catch up later.

I'm so ridiculous sometimes. I can't make up my mind about visiting my mom still. I decide to stay here then make myself feel so guilty I decide to go again. She doesn't even know that I'm off yet on thursday for a few days. I need to just stop talking about it because I just feel stupid. She's just very important to me and deserves a visit. I will go later in the year, maybe august or september but as I get older I know how fast the years go by and how we need to appreciate the people who care for us. None of us have the promise of being around forever. But...what if I go off my diet?, lose The Biggest Loser contest at work?, never get these closets cleaned out?... Ok, I'm shutting up now.

tkglenn, good to see you. Good job on your eating. You can do it. I don't think I could stay up that long. Hope you were enjoying yourself.

Hello everyone

momof4, I am sorry brother-in-law had to go and say that man you had alot to do on that day!! are you a cosmetologist/stylist that you do people's hair and makeup?

tkglenn, Hi and glad you did well yesterday!

Hope, you need to stop beating yourself about the head and just accept that you will visit your mom later, and enjoy your time off especially if you get inspired to clean closets and such

Purefire, Im glad that you are feeling better, and that you helped yourself without having to go to a doctor And what a good friend you are!!! to be by your friend's side for all that .

hi amarie have fun with old friends at your visit!

hi to AuntyJam too

We went out of state briefly to a friend's b-day party in CT. It was a shock to see their house, just the two of them but 4800 square feet, 5 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, their own workout spaces/studies/hobby rooms etc. Then to come back to our ahem 'homey' place

I know I have made progress with my body shape, but its still hard for me to wear short sleeved shirts, I have biceps that you can see but I also have some underarm fat. Well I thought I'd be brave and wear a t shirt (its summer, right??) and then my friend told me what exercises she does to get rid of her underarm flab. And i hadn't even said anything about my arms, I'm just thinking that she saw my arms and thought 'oh boy, does she ever need to do these exercises'. It kinda brought me down. Actually I will admit it brought me down alot! I have a flat tummy but I would never EVER suggest exercises to her, to help her tummy. Why do some people just 'open mouth and insert foot'.

I am one of those people who rely on other's opinions of me of how I look (because I have a bad self image) and I don't want to hear anything bad

hope everyone has a good day

vermont- I want to go to school for cosmetology but haven't yet. I just do pretty well at it. I usually do all the teen girls hair for social and stuff some of them just dont have money. I want to learn more. I get tips on cutting hair from my sylist. So I am able to cut some hair too...I enjoy it an probably will go to school for it...to just do it on the side!

Ok, I'm going. Yeah, I know. I'll check in with you all at my friend's house if I get a chance. If not, see you on monday.

Have a great week everybody.

Hello Ladies...

Still having issues getting back into doing exercise and eating right.. I haven't been up to doing anything lately.. I know I just got over being sick and should get back into things.. but I just don't seem to have the energy to do anything.. I have to get some motivation to get things done and do more..

Yesterday I went into school.. I still haven't started my externship and I have been out of school waiting for it for over a month now. I talked to the Dean and he is getting on the Career Services Lady to get it moving. I ended up going for a drug test and am having a back ground test done. I am now suppose to do my externship at the hospital. So I am waiting for the results to come back and then to start it. I am just really nervous now because it will be in a hospital and not in a doctors office. I know I will learn a lot more being in a hospital but it will be constant fast pace.

My friend is doing a lot better. She is still in a little pain but otherwise she seems ok. We will find out more information on the 22nd... so hopefully everything turns out good.

Really tired tonight so I am going to bed early for me since I normally don't go to bed til around 1am. I have to start going to bed early again. I have been sleeping in for the last 3 weeks and I seem to feel better and get a lot more done when I get up at 6am...

Hi everyone.

I am down 1 lb. I am so excited. I weighed myself this weekend and have gained 5 lbs since I started my tracker but weighed myself this morning and I am down 1 lb since this weekend. I am eating what I ate yesterday without the oreos...lol. I wasn't able to go walking though because my oldest had cub scouts. I'm excited to see what the scale has to tell me tomorrow morning.

I'm worried though. On Monday I will be driving down to vegas to visit with my mom. You know how it is when you go back to home cooked meals and all. I know everything will go out the window. I'm hoping it wont be too bad.

I'm hating this heat. My clothes feel like saran wrap. They are tight as it is but with the humidity and heat...it makes it feel like saran wrap.

Ok everyone. I've got to go and work on a story I'm writing.

Good night. Dream sweet dreams everyone.

tkglenn, Yay! congrats on your pound! Home cooked meals were exactly my worry. I am out of town at my friends house tonight but will be at my mom's tomorrow. I did ok with eating today. We had Japanese tonight but I had the steamed rice, ate lightly and skipped some sauces. I also did a Biggest Loser workout tonight after she went to bed. I'm doing what I can. I should have brought my weights though because I had to use 2 cans of pork & beans instead.

Purefire, you probably are still just drained from being sick. I'm sure some energy will come back when you have been well a couple of days. Take care.

Gotta get in bed.

purefire I hear ya
I have been sick since monday and now I am just tired of it! My house is a mess...house work is getting behind...i have school stuff thats GOT to be finished and all I wanna do is sleep. I have been getting dizzy alot today...Guess I need to start pumping vitamins and get some good food in me!

I watched super nanny and she really brought out a good point I am a stay at home mom and I am with the kids but they dont get quality time with me...hmm...another thing for me to work on!

I want this to change so I need to do somethings differently. I am almost willing to start drinking coffee in the morning if that will jump start me (i hate coffee) Getting up early is my hardest thing..I hate getting up early!!!! Alot of my problems would be solved if I did that!! A few extra hours to get stuff done would be great!

My dh works all day and doesnt need to come home to clean or do laundry...he does do dishes but sometimes thats pushing it time wise...I dont move around here as fast as I could...while he is working his butt off for 9 hours plus every day...shame on me...SO I am working towards getting more done and being more consistant!!
I dont wake the kids up they wake me up....I want to be the mom that gets their kids up and starts there day good not me being aggitated cause i gotta get up and then just grumpy!! Guess I need to when the alarm goes off go straight for the shower and then try some coffe with LOTS of MILK and SUGAR...LOL maybe my body will adjust!!

Thanks for listening!! Lata girls!

Well I managed to get stuff done with school today hopefully tomorrow I can be almost finished with them. I also was able to clean the kitchen some. I pulled out the stove wiped it all down and under the hood...lol, cleaned under it the same with the fridge...and the washer and dryer....then scrubbed under all of them and all the kitchen. Cleaned off all the counter did the dishes then all my dh had left was what we used for dinner. It was nice for him to come home and lay on the couch and relax till dinner. I had dinner all ready and then he did the clean up...It felt good that I got something accomplished and he didnt have to come home from being on his feet all day and go straight to cooking...Just have to push past the sickness and stuff.
Have a good night
OH i signed my kids up for free bowling...anyone interested you might have a site near you go to kidsbowlfree.com and check it out!!!

See everytime I come back to posting here regularly everyone else stops showing up then I just say forget it and dont come back for like a month or two....Kinda sucks posting to myself...LOL! I talk to myself already...hahahaha!

I wish I could figure out if my lack of energy or motivation to do anything is just from being sick or if its going to be a problem. I want to do lots of things with my kids and keep them busy instead of being a boring mom...but I make all the plans at night (im a night person) When morning comes I am like PHUH FORGET THAT...lol OK well since im talking to myself Im gonna stop there...LOL

Hi everyone! It was nice to read all of your updates... I'm doing pretty good but we're worried about my Grandma, she's 98 and starting to have more issues. We're currently trying to convince her that she should move out of her house. She's still an amazing lady but it's too much for her and we think she's starting to get confused. I really hate that I more or less take after the other side of the family It would be nice to be almost 100, living in my own house and doing crossword puzzles.