I'm reading, will catch up later.

I have this humongous list of things I need/want to do and I keep beating myself up for not getting them done. If I could actually get them on paper it would help tremendously. I've started it a couple of times but ended up losing it or not working on it. It ranges from looking for a new job, cleaning the house, to taking care of the dogs and car repair. I'm sure you all know what I mean but I'm feeling this sense of urgency about it. I guess that's good, I'm usually just avoiding it altogether. Everyday I've had to close at work I rush all morning trying to get things done before I go in and am almost late, even when I go in at 2pm and get up at 8am. I need to make my goal to get my list together and put it into categories so I can get something accomplished.

I'm off next thursday through the following tuesday. DF has to work long hours so I'm torn between staying here and getting some of these things done and going to visit my mom. I haven't seen her since xmas but TBL contest wraps up at the end of the month and I'm afraid it would ruin my diet. There is no workout equipment there or videos to be done and then there is all of the country cookin. We plan on going down later in the summer and power washing her house and doing a few little maintenance things for her but I'm still feeling some guilt if I don't go alone next week. I need to get over it but I just feel like a bad daughter if I don't go as often as possible, especially since my dad past away and she is alone. I really don't have the $$ either. Blah, blah, blah.

Momof4, I hear you on the consistency thing. That is what is driving me nuts right now. I grew up in a clean and organized house and no matter how I try I can't live up to the standard of clean I grew up with. It makes me feel like a failure. I can't figure out how to get it totally clean and keep it that way. I know my mom worked on it daily and maybe that's where I'm going wrong. I'm thinking too that I need to get rid of as much stuff as possible so there won't be that much to clean.

Vermont, I'm so proud of you for hitting your goal. That's wonderful! Sounds like things are going pretty well for you? Looks like you are working out and being productive around the house. Here's to keeping things on a positive roll.

Aunty Jam, how are the shoulders? Highs are hard to come by for us, aren't they? Maybe more running, more highs?

Buddly, I agree about the goop analogy. I'm glad you are seeing progress. Was it you who was talking about the 'flylady' website? I just looked at it briefly yesterday. I need to really check it out a little more and try to follow it, along with my own list. I'm truly sick of the messy house thing.

Amarie, I'm soo getting some pancake from cracker barrel after TBL contest is over. With bacon. And extra syrup. Just one cheat day though. Your post did remind me though about how crappy you feel afterwards when you eat pancakes. I don't think it changed my mind however.

tklenn, how is dh's schedule working out? Do you see an improvement? What about the journal? I don't keep one, though I've always wanted to but my hatred of writing has always kept me from it. This site has actually helped me learn to put my thoughts down a lot. Right now however I am keeping a food journal and exercise/weight log. I think it has helped me tremedously lose these 30 lbs.

I forgot to tell you all that I lowered my cholesterol 36 pts and my triglycerides 43 pts. I am proud of myself for that. I'm still working on it.

Momof4-- how's that for a long post?

Happy Thursday Chickies

Leenie

Morning Ladies...

I just got back from going on vacation from Indiana on Sunday and then on Monday I ended up being sick. It started off as a sore throat and turned out to be what looks like tonsillitis. Since I still don't have insurance I haven't gone to the doctors yet. Instead I did some research and found some home remedies that I decided to try instead. Some of which are really nasty. But I found two of the remedies have antibiotic qualities to them and they are helping a lot which is a good thing. The swelling and redness have gone down quiet a bit and my throat is not as sore as it was.

Waiting for the cold to go away before I start doing anything again with the whole exercise and diet. I still have to eat soft things that won't irritate my throat and trying to get as much rest as possible.

Trying to figure out a lot of other stuff that is going on and struggling with it a little bit. But trying to get back on track where I was 6 weeks ago.

Good morning chickies!
I need a nap. I'm going off a measly 3ish hours sleep (is that even possible) today. I'll be back when (and if) the caffeine kicks in! Laters,
Amarie

What a day.... 4 year old stuck a rock up her nose. Husband had to get it out with tweezers.

7 yr old ran into a table some how and got a big bump on his head.

my 4 year old tol her father she wants money for new sunglasses he told her no so she slapped him (was a mistake on her part!)

my 4 yr old foster boy is really pushing it with me....last night I gave everyone the same amount of pizza and he always shovels his food down. When my 5 yr old went to the bathroom the foster boy shoved my 5 yr olds pizza in his mouth. then today I found in his room one of our dvds he broke to pieces, the 4 yr old girls birthday doll he tore apart , then found a piece of colored glass from outside.
I am about to my limit. With all the peeing and destructiveness...oh he also shred the carpet by his door and we rent and they have nice carpet in the whole house so there goes part of my security deposit.

Went in the basement yesterday and found that my basement had flooded...so I have tons of cleaning...anyone realize how much easier cleaning would be if we were in shape....ugh

Then I guess TOM is knocking at the door cause I just got instantly ill and my head is hurting...so thats awesome.

Amarie-looks like your the same weight area as me...we can alll go on this together!!

Hey everyone...

Hope - Very few and far between but the high I had makes me want to do it again... I guess that's why they say it can be addictive. I'm going to try do more but it's hard with the other stuff going on. It's a very stressful time for me right now. Maybe I'll just go crazy instead... hah, short trip! And the shoulders are peeling, sore and itchy. My neighbor is giving me a bunch of tomato plants and it's finally stopped raining so it's out to the garden again this weekend! Maybe this time I'll wear sun screen

VMom - I hear ya... my no longer over weight number is 149 but I've got an extra 15 pounds to lose on top of that. My old pup is much the same, she shakes sometimes, she falls sometimes, poops all over the house, then tricks the young dog out of his squeaky ball and romps through the house with it. Right now we don't think she's in any real pain, I guess the usual old dog pains still apply but she still has a good quality of life. Hah, when she wants to play she barks, jumps up and hits our young guy with her shoulders and he's 4" taller and 30lbs heavier then her! Such a bossy little lady.

Momof4 - I still say you're trying to do to much for other people. Take some time off.

Thats what I love about you Mof4 - I think I have it rough but at least no one put a rock up their nose Yes, it seems like you, TK and I are in a similar scale place - lets go kick collective butt!

Well, my students are done - finished their exam (even got it graded) now all I have to do is grade their final papers. Yay! 120 pages of undergrad grammar! Now all I havta do is crank out a paper, and my summer officially starts. I will have much more control over my schedule, so I think I'll try scheduling study around workouts for a change!

Hopey - you are seriously the opposite of a bad daughter. I remember how much you talk about your mom and how much you dote on her! If you think going for a visit would be fun, go for it. OR, you could give yourself a fitness staycation, and do double workouts each day

Purefire - sorry you have been sick - that sucks! Its nice to see you

Hi Leenie!

I do have a lot but I know I can manage my time much better and everything is doable...Now this foster boy is HIGH maintence and I am not sure how much longer he will be here or how much longer I can handle (he has courthearing and they are trying to get him adopted to the family that has his sibling but the mother isnt sure she can handle him..nice huh!)

Since I have been off my meds I am getting more accomplished. I was never a lazy person but this weight affects my energy levels and also what I am eating. Even when you stay in your calorie intake if you didnt eat the right things it drags your body down....

I feel better (except when TOM shows up) I really do without the meds. My stress is all coming from the chaotic house which I have a plan to GET EVERYTHING done tomorrow except the attic!!! WISH ME LUCK!!! I mean decluttering, moving furniture, moving things from the basement to the attic...OH YEAH....lol...i know i wont wanna get outta bed in the morning but then again you never know!! LOL I got my dad coming to drop stuff off tomorrow, caseworkers coming, all kinds of stuff...LOL...maybe I should stay up now then just have a good nap tomorrow??

good morning ladies!

momof4 - I wish you tons of energy today to accomplish what you want to do! and you DO have an extra full plate, small children PLUS foster plus your youth work, so give yourself credit for whatever you get done And I like your new avatar pic too!

AuntyJam - our rain finally stopped also! four day's worth, yikes. I give you and your doggy hugs, love the description that she sneaks the toy away from the younger dog and is playful when she wants. I think also she is still having good quality but sorry you need to clean up after her.

amarie - congrats on your summer almost starting! I agree that if you have free days, it does help structure if you plan around making a workout a definite 'to do'.

Purefire - sorry you got sick right after vacation! Hope your throat is much better.

Hi Leenie!

Hopeforme, CONGRATS on lowering your cholesterol that much!! and the triglycerides too! And I know the feeling of 'I should be visiting my mom'. You just do what you can I think if you're feeling a sense of urgency about getting your list of things done, then you are capable of tackling it! Or maybe a couple things, then you have that great sense of accomplishment.

hi tkglenn! Did you start your journal That does sound like a good thing to do, just positive notes in it.

Well I found out yesterday that I got a small cost of living raise and didn't even notice it last check but noticed it in this one! 50 cents an hour, hey I'll take it. Makes you feel good doesnt' it!

and I can ride to work for the first time since last week!! I have some new bling on my bike and want to strut it

hope everyone has a great day!!

hope-that is awesome bout your cholst. are you eating lots of cheerios??? lol I watch those commercials and they make me laugh!

Vermont-WAHOOOOO 50 cents is 50 cents. I realized thats how rich people get rich they realize a penny adds up to a dollar and a dollar adds up to 100.... You go girl! Thanks about the pic!!

SO I've gotten some cleaned but not as much as I wanted. Living room is rearranged, swept and decluttered. Entry way is decluttered and rearranged. School room is organized still needs swept. Laundry is so so...I had a headach and went to take a nap well the phone only left me sleep like 20 mins so it made the headach worse. Then I planned on this cleaning being an all day thing cause dh had plans for tonight. WELL now he dont Im in the middle of cleaning and have to cook supper now since he will be home and dont wanna waste his evening home so who knows bout the cleaning..UGHH.. I would rather NOT make plans and do things at the last minute than make plans and have to change them....it really gets under my skin!

Ok well need to go figure out what Im gonna do!!

Momof4, no cheerios. I like them but I always add tons of real sugar on top and that would probably be counterproductive I'm guessing.

Catch y'all tomorrow.

hope- I do also but have you tried the multigrain ones..they have some type of coating I can actually eat them without sugar..SHOCKER...I know..

Nice blow up in the house last night went to bed early and slept in yet i still want to go lay down and do NOTHING...but yeah I cant..I have my sis in laws makeup to do for a wedding, her moms hair to do for the wedding, run to the bank, get the kids ready for a wedding, go to the wedding, then reception later and bday party later and laundry and still have a desk to clean and organize..did I mention laundry??
Wanted to get the kids to the park that would be nice but forgot about doing makeup so that blew that plan...sigh...

Hello Ladies...

Going to the movies with my son... Will write a longer post later...

hugs

SO went to brother in laws wedding and yeah he hasnt seen me in a while and asked me when I was due....AWESOME....i was like huh hes like are you having any more kids....I was like no no...it wasnt too awkward but i still felt lik crap afterwards. I only have like two dress shirts that fit and the one I wore has a black strip right under the boobs and then the stomach comes out....it does look like Im kinda pregnant but still sucks....i only at a sandwich and one meal today but I HATE BEING FAT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!