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Good things about being broke day 1: I really want pizza tonight, but there is no $$ left for it. being broke just saved me from a fat-laden binge
It is so cold here (brrrr....) I can't seem to get anything done I just turned up the heat a bit and am gonna go curl up with a comforter for a bit to see if I can get warm enough to sneak in a pilates wkt. all!
It went so well today..i had friends that went to and so between them and my kids i really didnt think about it. ALTHOUGH I did look around and to be honest the bigger people are the majority and the skinny minnies are the minority.. so like we could take the ones that run their mouths!!! j/k Anyways my firend had lost a good amount of weight a while ago so she knows how i feels and also has been a huge support so it was good today...EXCEPT dummy white girl forgot to lotion her legs..yep thats right lobster legs!!! ouch... Only at one point did my weight come into play..the small ( I mean small!!) crazy mouse roller coaster had a weight limit of 500lbs max per cart. I was with 3 other people the one girl is tall and a little heavy she weighs 220 something but is tall and cant tell its that much.. so between the two of us we already came close to 500 so i just casually was like maybe we better split up just so we dont come close...but even if I was skinnier we woulda been over...anyways..Oh yeah we have to go across a cross walk to get to the other side of the park and it goes up hill yep I was huffin and puffin...But I was def. under calories by A LOT today and got tons of excercise..... I gotta go going to my moms tomorrow gonna go swimming while husband works on the roof...I know so cruel!!!
Heather i cant wait for the day I can run 2.2 miles...that would be wonderful. I never was a long distance. I usually did smaller things in hs track. I won first in the 400 tons of times. Then the 200 I got like 3rd or something cause its almost too long to completely sprint and then too short to pace yourself. my coach threw me in the 100 once cause a girl couldnt show..YEAH totally stunk...esp. no training at it...I miss my track days... hopefully you get to feeling better though!!!
Raven thats awesome your feeling so good getting back into the swing of things is going smoothly for you!!! You just needed some refreshing right??
Me A You know the whole money thing I have thought about it and thought about it..I was like even when I do have money there are so many things that I needed but werent necessity so then i get that stuff and its gone..so like is there ever a point where I will be like ok I dont need a single thing and let money sit there...maybe after the kids are all gone!! I think that is where most of my money is needed!!! I am really trying to do some of the money makeover by dave ramsey...My friend is kinda doing it with the envelopes and doing well at it. But you have to have enough money to pay your bills and meet living expenses and a lil extra for savings...and the way the price of stuff is now yeah i dont see that happening.. Just groceries themselves have jumped...crazy!!! I wanna turn amish and grow my own stuff and do the horse and buggy no gas no taxes....OH YEAH!!!! Wait that means no puter no 3 chicks!!...scratch that then!!
Have a great day...oh yeah I was afraid to step on the scale today to see if i was still at the same weight or if it was a fluke it wasnt I was still down 5 lbs...YAY
I was feeling really low again before logging on here........but thanks you all, you truly touched me by your kind comments. I feel like the biggest baby though, weeping away. lol. Can't help it. I feel like I've been pulled back in time about *gulp*20 yrs or so.......I dunno I always thought that this sort of thing would stop when you were an adult, but I guess some people never grow up.
I am still sick, I can't help it, its just how my body reacts I guess when I get really really upset. So I called off sick tonight at work, I just didn't feel like going in when I am sick and everything.
I am seriously thinking though about doing some serious, serious major job hunting this weekend and seeing if anything at all can pans out. I am even thinking about going back to work for Wally World. I know I can't stand all day long anymore being a cashier, but maybe they would find me something I could do? I am just so so so *literally* sick of work right now I can't even fathom going back but you know how it is, we got bills to be paid, so I can't just quit without having something else, even if I don't get paid as much as I do now, anything is better than nothing at all............
DH goes into work in the morning, so at least I will have someone to see if anything goes on or if anything is said.
Now maybe this was the huge gigantic kick in the @$$ I needed, yes it was a painful one, but I am gonna be doing some research and I am gonna change. It may not be right away, but it will happen and I'm doing it for me, not for anybody else. I am also thinking about going into counseling. This whole thing has brought up a whole of bunch of emotions that I have buried deep down and I think I need to work those out.
Or maybe just keep things the way they are and with how my body reacts to stress, I'll lose weight that way! lol. That is honestly how I lost weight in HS. I got so stressed that I could not eat hardly at all. My mom would have to beg me to eat something. I know that isn't the healthy way though and as you all are very aware, it didn't last either.
My DH did come out afterwards and apologized for not saying more, he was half-asleep.......So we did talk about it.
Anyways. I surely do appreciate all your kind and wonderful comments.
I sure wish we could all work somewhere together, wouldn't that be cool?!!
There is no other way to keep losing weight than to make myself work my own programme, which I KNOW works, and stop being so complacent. Yes, I've lost a lot already, but do I really need to eat that danish? No - I can eat it when I reach my goal. Or - not at all!
I guess running 2.2 miles sounds like an achievement; it's hard when I was running 6, 8 10 miles... I logged over 80 miles in March!! And then, as my heart broke, I gave up on myself.
Okay, I know what I have to do. Measure and weigh my food. PLAN MEALS. Stay focussed on the end goal, not the 'that would be tasty right now, and I can start again tomorrow'!! Recommit to my weights, and rebuild up my running. Post here. LOTS. Reach out for connections to help me stay on track and not just wallow.
Okay. So, I know I have to do it. Let's hope I can... I have to find the motivation that brought me this far... and cling to it!
Chat soon, girls - have a great day!
Haetehr
Last edited by HeatherAngel; 06-12-2008 at 10:35 AM.
Can't stay long - I gotta run to a meeting in a few, but wanted to stop in to give a big
I never did get that pilates workout in last night. Heather I hear you on the needing to work your program. I am not finished, I have not given up - I have more work to do, and I know what I need to be doing. For me, its weigh and measure food, journal, and get out for a walk or run EVERY day, whether its raining or not. I started my walking when there was ice and snow on the ground - pshaw, I can handle a little rain!
Hope - Hi! I got my dvds organized last night, and sorted through 1 box in my spare room. It wasn't as much as I had hoped for, but I'm counting it as a success? How are you doing on your declutter manifesto?
Sassy - I know how it feels to be so stressed you become physically ill, and I hope that your load lightens soon! Take care of yourself right now... maybe a bubble bath? Paint your toes? Something that will make you smile
Momof4 - I'm so glad the day went well at the park! Yay on you! Haha... uh huh, we could so definatlely take the mouthy people - not only do we outnumber them, but we have the weight advantage!!!!!
Ack, gotta go or I'm gonna be late! Love you all. Hope everyone is doing well.
Well I feel much better. I heard some news from someone and made me feel much better. Basically they (girls and I infasize GIRLS at work -- ) aren't gonna break me. I have too many people who love and care about me, I don't need people like that to get me down. I have much better things to do with my time than bother worrying about any of those losers. People who hate others usually are intimated by them -- see my quote, I LOVE IT! HA HA! So SASSY CHICA is BACK YA'ALL!!!!
Oh and I found this and I thought it was so cute:
Thought we all could use Calgon to "Take us away" right girls? And the kitty cat looks like mine, only mine is a whole lot FATTER!!! lol. But I still wuvs him, he's my baby. lol.
Have a Great Day, You all are WONDERFUL!!!
Amarie: I watched I Love Lucy and she always makes me laugh She is my "Therapy"
So...how is every little thing today? I just got back from my workout....today was Stretch & Relax class and 35 mins on the treadmill at incline 5 and 3.8 mph...yeah...little sweaty...good thing you all can't see me! I love Stretch class...the YMCA that I go to has Yoga on M,W, & F and Stretch & Relax on Tu & Th...the instructors rotate through...but luckily I enjoy all of their different styles and think it is very cool to have the break in routine... Today...wow...I went further into a seated forward bend than I ever have been able to...I could feel the lengthening in my back (a problem area) and I could still relax the muscles and breathe into it...today's instructor, D, emphasizes holding the stretch for longer periods so it is easier to melt into it...it gives your muscles the chance to get over the OMG! What are you doing to me phase... It felt amazing!
It is raining!! I love when it rains and I don't have to be out in it!!!
Sassy: I am so glad that you are feeling better...we all wuv ya Baby! Love the cat!!! I think I am still partial to grumpy one though... And even though they were sad...the fairies were beautiful...
Amarie: Do your Pilates!!! You'll feel better!!! lol
HeatherAngel: Good to see you back around...don't let the all or nothing attitude get you! It has a way of doing that to me too...I always compare every workout to the one before and am never satisfied with the fact that I got any in at all!! I think it is a sickness!
Leenie: Watcha doin' Babe...ya awful quiet....
momof4: Yay You on the fun at the amusement park!!! I love carnival rides...except for the ones that could strand you upside down...don't really go for those...too paranoid! EEK!! Yeah...I am a pale little white girl too and really have to be careful with the sun...not to mention it tends to bake my head...make me feel fried and nauseous even when I don't get burned if I am just out in it too long...
Shop: Where are you? Turn those songs off and come hang out with us!!! Come on...step away from the sad stuff...come over to the happy place!!!
Gotta run...I am offending myself...must shower...
Well, I didn't get much done yesterday in the house b/c DF was off unexpectedly again. We ran around most of the day and then went to a cookout with some of his biker friends. I took a big fresh fruit salad (yummy) and some homemade brownies, which were a hit last time and they actually fought over them. I mean, if you are going to fight over something, what better reason than brownies?
Hmmm, can you tell I'm still not on plan? Today I'm doing some regular cleaning: vacuuming, dishes, and straightening up. If I have time I'll sort through something else. My girlfriend is coming over tonight to workout so I wanted the house to look better. We've been trying to do this workout for a couple of weeks and something happens every time. The problem is I haven't been doing it on my own either.
Gotta run and finish cleaning. I'll check in later. Hope you all have a great day!
I am completely BEAT....Since it was such a long day yesterday when we went ot get everyone up at like 7:30 to go to my moms NO ONE WOULD GET UP....my husband clapped his hands, pushed them, yelled at them everything those little kiddies were soooo tired from all day at the park then church and NO nap yesterday So i left them sleepin and my husband took the bike. SO I got up at like 9:30 and me and the kids cleaned everything up and then left for my moms. Husband and dad worked on the roof ALLLLL day like 13 hours I felt bad he had to work on his day off but my parents have done so much for us not fair to not help them when they need!! Kids swam and played all day and I got to do some laps in the pool I LOVED IT...Thats my kid of excercise...LOL...hurts but fun doing it!! So yeah I am crashing cause I am so so so tired and kids will be back up early in the morning..UGGHHHH....Is is Sunday (my day of rest) Yet???? catch up with all of you more tomorrow.
AWESOME SASSY...YOU GO....I love your saying!!
I'm having a pretty bad night. Another panic attack God..and I'm seeing a freakin therapist and everything. And I still cant beat these stupid panic attacks. I want my hubby home.
Basic Abbreviations I shared this in another forum, figured it might be helpful to anybody who is new or just not too familiar with the forum abbreviations.
Morning All.
Well I didn't end up going to bed until like 3 pm yesterday! (To those who are new: I work nights and on my nights off I stick to my schedule, otherwise it messes me all up. ) Anywho, I didn't wake up until almost midnight!!! DH let me sleep cuz he knew I went to bed late. lol. (he gets off work at 9:30 PM) Aw well I am off so no biggie, right?
I watched a wonderful Oprah Show, all about that you get what you put out there. Ex: if you put out negative, miserable vibes, then that is what you get back. If you are positive and happy, then that is what you get in return. So that makes complete sense to me. So I am going to try to make a better effort. They also said to have a "Vision Board" Where you put pictures of what you want out of your life. So I want to try it. I already have a start, I found a houseplan of a house that DH and myself want to buy and have my mom move in with us. So I printed out the plan and framed it. I thought I was being silly for doing it, but it is something my step dad always believed in. I guess he was exactly right. Because he found a picture of a truck he wanted at the time and guess what? He got one eventually! I am not saying its all for material objects. Like the house plan I have, yes it would be nice, but we would be happy to just be all together. (my mom and us) That is what is important to us. We don't want my mom to be alone anymore. (To the newbies: My stepdad passed way from cancer in 03') So that is where that comes from. My step dad wanted that truck so he could do the things in life he was passionate about. He always helped everybody and with that truck, he did so. So please don't misunderstand what I am trying to say here. You can go to Oprah.com if you want more info, the ladies on the show have books out and I want to buy at least one of them.
Just makes sense to me. Same thing as they say if you are always negative and miserable, that is the kind of people you attract. If your the opposite, then that is what you attract.
Also FYI: Oprah is having Bob Greene (her Personal Trainer) on the show today, and they are going to talk about weight loss, etc.
Anywho. That is that. Today my goal is to get the clothes put away....... They are all clean and everything, just need to be put away.........I am gonna work on our closet so it is easier to get clothes in there..........(has to wait until DH gets up and goes to work though, he gets up around 7:30 am and leaves a little after 8 am)
Hope you are all feeling a little better today. Sassy I love you quote!
I'm still feeling overwhelmed. Things are the way they are. Poor DdB, she's a lot like me and last night she had another migraine and ended up throwing up. I do believe she is a little overwhelmed as well. Poor thing. Between grad, exams and this boy who she was told liked her two years ago finally got the nerve up to speak to her yesterday and decided to go to dry grad with her (he wasn't planning on going) It sounded rather cute, she was alone at her locker and she sees him walking in her direction then do an about face go back to his friend's locker and then head back towards her and finally talk to her! They "hung" out during lunch and actually had a conversation. Both are so shy! Its just sweet!
Anyway, we finally got the walls finished last night. As I said, I've been overwhelmed which means I don't get much done. I sit and procrastinate instead of biting the bullet and spending the measly few hours, it takes days! As my Dad and step mother should be arriving today, I have to clear off the table and scrape all our paint drips off (the primer was really runny) Oh and DdB left yellow residue in the bathroom sink when she was done last night, so that needs a scrubbing. Oh thank you, with writing this out now I have a sense of direction.
I better go and get doing before I get lost again.
Take care everyone And I hope you all have a great day! I am so grateful for this place and all of you
K
Well, I had a busy night last night getting myself packed up for my camping trip this weekend - its been so long, I don't really remember how to pack for camping!!! Anyway, my sis and I are gonna take our dogs to a dog show and we decided to save $$ and camp. It should be fun - if we don't freeze or kill each other!
I was a VERY naughty dieter yesterday - trying not to beat myself up about it too much, obviously I felt like I needed to eat that crap, and whats done is done. Sigh.
Sassy - I think your vision board sounds lovely! What a great idea! And I love, love, LOVE! The calgon kitty!
Raven - your Y classes sound fun! I used to love going to a gym that was by where I lived back then - they had awesome classes. Then I moved, and I think they've closed down now, but those instructers could get me MOTIVATED! I've actually signed up for a community center yoga class that starts next week - I'm really looking forward to it!!!
Francie - feeling any better?
Hope - I didn't do too badly on house projects yesterday I got my desk moved back in from the garage (all by my little self!) and the electrician came to fix a faulty socket in my garage (yeeks! it was all burned inside!!!). I wish I was handy enough to do that stuff myself, but it was definately worth paying him to do it since I had no idea what was causing the breaker to trip all the time. I also did a couple loads of laundry, ran the dishwasher, and changed my bed linens. I love a freshly made bed - it makes my whole life seem tidier somehow! No projects planned for the weekend since I'm gonna be camping. How about you?
Momof4 - holy cow! Your fam really must have been exhausted! Good for you on the laps!!! Swimming is great exercise!
Heather - Lifting weights kicks my butt!! Good for you!
being broke just saved me from a fat-laden binge 
I just turned up the heat a bit and am gonna go curl up with a comforter for a bit to see if I can get warm enough to sneak in a pilates wkt. 
all!
Hello Ladies.
lol. Can't help it. I feel like I've been pulled back in time about *gulp*20 yrs or so.......I dunno I always thought that this sort of thing would stop when you were an adult, but I guess some people never grow up.
SASSY's BACK YA'ALL!!! HA HA!
) aren't gonna break me. I have too many people who love and care about me, I don't need people like that to get me down. I have much better things to do with my time than bother worrying about any of those losers. People who hate others usually are intimated by them -- see my quote, I LOVE IT! HA HA! 
So SASSY CHICA is BACK YA'ALL!!!! 
lol.
She is my "Therapy" 
I love when it rains and I don't have to be out in it!!!
Come on...step away from the sad stuff...come over to the happy place!!! 
I took a big fresh fruit salad (yummy) and some homemade brownies, which were a hit last time and they actually fought over them. 
I mean, if you are going to fight over something, what better reason than brownies? 
Morning!
(To those who are new: I work nights and on my nights off I stick to my schedule, otherwise it messes me all up. 
) Anywho, I didn't wake up until almost midnight!!! 
DH let me sleep cuz he knew I went to bed late. lol. (he gets off work at 9:30 PM) Aw well I am off so no biggie, right? 
I got my desk moved back in from the garage (all by my little self!) and the electrician came to fix a faulty socket in my garage (yeeks! it was all burned inside!!!). I wish I was handy enough to do that stuff myself, but it was definately worth paying him to do it since I had no idea what was causing the breaker to trip all the time. I also did a couple loads of laundry, ran the dishwasher, and changed my bed linens. I love a freshly made bed - it makes my whole life seem tidier somehow! No projects planned for the weekend since I'm gonna be camping. How about you?
Lifting weights kicks my butt!! Good for you!