You know, I'm totally fine with not speaking to my family. They were treating me like a child. And to me, it seemed like they were trying to act like my parent. I HATE that so much!! I'm 22 years old, been married for 3years, I've been living on my own for 3 years. I've gone through an entire 7 month deployment (my 2nd deployment with dh) without ever hearing from them, except when they had the time for me. I'm an adult. I do not deserve to be treated like a child. They had no right to speak to me the way they did, and to shun me because they didnt approve of the way I was behaving. Like wtf!!! And to be honest, I'm only speaking about my 2 female cousins. They're the ones that did this to me, and everyone else just agreed with them.

I'm sorry..I'm still very bitter about everything that happened. I spent a long time crying over everything that happened. It has added more to my depression. Not only have I lost my best friend, but I lost the people that were supposed to be my family. I keep thinking about my unconcieved baby that may not know its family. Because quiet frankly, if thats how they treat me now, I'm pretty sure they'll gonna try and raise my baby themselves. They probably wont approve of me even having a child at such a young age since they let it be known that they would've NEVER gotten married at 19 years old. (one is married and the other isnt).


Ugh okay..I'm sorry for writing all that out. I need to stop now because I'm crying my eyes out and its making my headache worse, lol. I swear, I'm not usually such a drama queen.

Good Morning,




We are staying home again today.... still sick and DD isn't feeling well either no Karate or birthday party for her But later we will dye easter eggs

Francie I know exactly what you mean about family, I am going thru the same thing myself with my siblings (I'm one of 7). When I decided to live life for me (DH and my DD) and well this doesn't sound wonderful but when I decided to just keep them out of my life (as much as I could) I became a much happier person. Its not easy to accept "losing your family" but they were just making me miserable. I cried and cried and thought about it for a long time....being so miserable. Then it came to me... geeze I wouldn't let a stranger treat me like this so why should I allow my family to. So now that I keep my distance I am so much happier and my DH said the same thing. It really effects your entire being. to you... I really understand how you feel.

Sassy you sound great girlie kudo's to you. Positive attitude sure does you well. Your date sounded wonderful. How is Mom?

Buddly I'm so sorry to hear about your neighbor... that is just to sad they will be in my prayers. Did you flood???? we've gotten hammered here too with rain and usually my DH's shop floods but by the Grace of God so far it hasn't happened. Its just so devastating and tiring.

Marie Marie Marie I'm glad you finally got some sleep... it stinks going around feeling like your drunk b/c of lack of sleep, thats how I've been lately but last night I slept pretty good. I've heard Lavender can help you sleep... hmmm Whats up this weekend?

Beauty you've certainly had enough to deal with at such a young age. I'm sooo glad to hear your marriage is healthy and stronger, you really deserve to be happy. Have you tried your local churches for grieving counseling? some churches have free counseling groups. Just remember everyone grieves different....some a few months, years and some like me a life time, so don't compare yourself to others...ok. I did that for a long time after my sisters death...I kept saying why can't I just get over this. In my opinion....time doesn't heal...but it does help mend. Hang in there hon

Hope...how are you sweetie

Heather hang in there... your in my prayers.

Jerzygal .... where in Jersey are you? abouts? I'm in northern nj...bergen cty area.

Well girls...gotta go check out the other boards.

Have a great day and remember SMILE God made you beautiful.

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good morning gang

sorry I haven't been in here this week! I am beyond busy! I'm sure y'all all know how that goes. And in the middle of this busyness - we are getting ready to go to Colorado this week with our 12th graders for their senior trip.

Leenie - did you get an appt with the doc? you sound soooooo sick girlie! I hope you get much much better soon!

Liz -I thought about you yesterday! hope you had a wonderful birthday! it's easy for me to remember bec it's the same as my dh's birthday.

Amarie - so glad you got some sleep! take care of yourself girlie! you need more sleep than that!

Hope, Buddly, Heather, Sassy and everyone else!

I hope everybody has a great week! I'll probably be back on here on Monday the 31st.

Hope everybody has a blessed & happy Easter!
hugs,
Cathy

Just popping my head up to say a quick "Hi!" to all you wonderful ladies... You all seem so supportive and kind that I can't wait to get more involved here!

Good Morning!
Thanks all for letting me share here and also thanks for the kind words and concern.
Leenie- Thanks for the advice about the grief groups. Because I am such a task oriented person, I wanted to power through the whole pain of grieving mess and tried a grief group at a nearby church right away. My pain was too raw at the time and I couldn't bring myself to go back. Plus, most of them were grieving the loss of a spouse, which is totally different.

I do have plans to join up with a different group, now that it isn't so raw this year. I'll keep you posted when that starts. I'm just so new and "feeling" emotions, it's hard for me to know what to do.

Hello everyone. I've been in and out, but I keep forgetting to subscribe to threads, so I miss out on the discussions!

I am really discouraged. I want to exercise but I've had what my students are calling the Death Cold for almost a week and I feel like crap. I'm running out of Kleenex and I have no energy, but I need to get my act together and prep my next unit for next week and design a lab and I just want to curl up in bed with my kleenex and episodes of Star Trek and hibernate until it stops snowing and the temperature goes above freezing for the first time since November.

I'm really doing well - I've lost 9 pounds in about a month and a half or so, which is good. But I just feel so sick and I have no energy at all, so it's hard to stay cheerful and motivated.

Hi ladies!

Kitschkitten (love the screen name!). These ladies are so wonderful - they have been so great for me on this journey! I'm glad you found us. Hope to see you often.

Emmy - take care, and get better soon! The Death Cold sounds miserable! And its so hard to want to work out and not be able to!!

Cathy- look at you, our traveling chickie! Have fun in CO. Are you chaperoning?

Leenie - Hi! Not much going on here this weekend! How 'bout you? Did you get in to the doc's office? Hope you are feeling better.

Beauty - I hope your new group helps with your healing. How is your weekend?

Francie - ah hun... I'm so sorry about your family. I'm sure your cousins were in a lot of pain and not able to act their best, but to pile all that on you was horrible! I hope they can grow out of it someday and will understand how much they hurt you... Until then, you are better not around that kind of toxic stuff.

Well, I'm taking next week off work since its spring break and I'm out of school. I really don't know what I'll do, other than clean my house that is!!!

Happy Easter everyone!

Sassy, Buddly, Heather, Hope and all - what's shakin' girls?

KK


BBL

Happy Easter, my friends


I am finding it hard to take in everyone's posts, but I'll be thinking of you all, wishing you strength and love and good choices, and I'll be back soon.

Heather

Happy Easter!

Hopefully we can all get through the day without pigging out too much . . .

Happy Easter Everyone!!!!!!!




I'm gonna be spending the rest of the day with dh. He's leaving later today, so I'll be back then. Have a great day with your families!!!!!

Happy Easter Everyone!!

I hope everyone is having a great day! Its 10:45am here and only one kid is up, ah to be a teenager!! Hubby is cooking the waffles as I sit!
Well we are getting some more snow this morning, got to love spring. The flooding at the end of the driveway isn't to bad yet. The problem is that the culverts are still all frozen and the water from the snow has no place to go, hopefully it won't be to bad, only time will tell.

I better get going, I just wanted to pop in and say Hi.
Oh and Welcome kk! I look foreward to getting to know you. This is a wonderful place.

Take care all,
K

Happy Easter!!

Nothing exciting planned today. There's plenty I need to do. I think I will sign off here now and try to get a workout in while DF is at the office. I still haven't worked out since I 've been back. The eating hasn't been good either. I'm on plan about 40% of the time.

Have a great day today, especially those spending time with their families.

Heather: big 's

BBL