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Well I had a mini-breakdown tonight after DH left for work. Reality kicked in I guess. I'm starting a new shift beginning Monday night and no I'm not happy about it as I didn't want it, it was forced on me. So now DH & I will be working totally opposite nights and won't have hardly any time together. Only a few hours here or there before or after work.
I know its not the end of the world, I mean I guess I should be happy that we both have jobs, but I just couldn't help it. The realization that we won't be seeing much of each other at all just sunk in and I couldn't help but breakdown. I just feel like I'm in school again, the fat girl that nobody wants.
I guess I'll survive, I don't really have a choice. I can continue looking for a different job, but I'm even scared to do that. Yes I'm miserable now, but at least I know people there and know my job already, KWIM? So I'm afraid to change, afraid it will be 10x's worse.
Well sorry to be a downer, but I guess this is the place to post stuff like this, as it is the depression support thread and all.......
Sassy I'm so sorry this is happening to you and I can imagine how stressed you must feel right now but maybe this change is happening for a reason, maybe there is something behind it all that we just don't know about yet. I know its hard but try to look at it as temporary and maybe positive....if you don't your gonna be so miserable and you don't deserve to feel that way...aww smile sweetie and remember your not the fat girl nobody wanted. We all love you here and so does your DH.
Joanneeeeeeeeeeeeeee good to see you sweet cheeks How's every little thing? how are you feeling?
Lets see.... yesterday I did some cooking, cleaning and we went to the mall to get DD the lovely new Autumn Bear from build a bear...then we went for dinner and then food shopping, came home put things away and went in the pool until 10 PM. The sky was so awesome, clear that you could see tons of stars...just beautiful. The only problem was the smell of skunk is what made us come in LOLOL peeeeeeeeeeeew.
Today I'll be doing a little heming, cooking and laundry.
Morning all! Sassy - GREAT to see you Sorry to hear things aren't great for you - not much is more demoralizing than being forced to do things you don't want to do... I'm thinking of you!
Well, today is a very blah day. We went to a neighbour's house yesterday evening for dinner; I hadn't really wanted to go, but determined to have a good time. And I ate. And ATE. AND ATE. Needless to say - feel like crap and am up a pound and a half today - mostly salt, I am sure! I know, I know, brush it off and get on with it - okay, I will. I've planned all my meals for today to get high protein, low fat, lots of water, so I must stick to this today and move forward. *sigh*
Must fight off the negative demons who want to come out in full force today and tell me I am a failure - depression is an evil b@st@rd, isn't it?!
Okay - hope everyone is doing well, and I'm sure I'll be back to myself tomorrow!
I feel better today. I think I just had to have one night of tears and sadness, just to get it "out of my system", KWIM? Because today I feel like I can do this and yeah it might totally stink, but life isn't always a bed of roses now is it? So I'm just kinda "rolling w/ the punches" and trying to stay positive, because they want me to be miserable, they want me to be negative, and I'm not going to give them that satisfaction.
DH added text messaging to our phones so we can text each other, he said since we won't be seeing a lot of each other, that we can at least keep in contact via text messaging. So it might take some "creative" ways to stay connected, but we can do it. Text messaging, email, IM, old fashioned "letter writing", phone calls, etc..........and we can plan special time together here or there we can switch shifts with someone or request a night off here or there. It will make our time together more special because we won't have a lot of it and maybe that is what we needed, a little "wake-up call" to see just how much we do mean to each other. When you see someone every single day AND work with them as well, well unfortunately sometimes you take that for granted and well now it kinda has opened up both of our eyes like, "hey we need to cherish our time together".........I just have to stay positive cuz like Leenie said, otherwise I'll be miserable and I don't deserve that. I've worked too hard for that.
Meantime I can continue looking for a new position, inside and outside the co. and who knows like Leenie said, it just may be meant to be that me or DH are meant to get a wonderful new job opportunity or something and this was just the little "push" we needed........
So I'm going to try my best to keep positive, but there may be days that I just can't help being sad of course, I'm only human.........
Sassy - that sounds like a good plan - and you and hubby can always have fun texting nudge nudge, wink wink!
Well, more like my old self again today, thank goodness. To make up for Saturday night, I ate well yesterday - high protein, low fat, low cal, LOTS of water - and put in a run even though it wasn't officially a 'running day' - and the scale is back down and I feel MUCH better! And more importantly, more in control, which was what I definitely DIDN'T feel on Saturday!
Today was measuring day as well, and I've lost inches, so all is good in Heather's World again - yay!
Had a mini-breakdown
Sassy...
How's every little thing? how are you feeling?
Sassy - GREAT to see you 
I've planned all my meals for today to get high protein, low fat, lots of water, so I must stick to this today and move forward. *sigh*
Thanks Ladies......
