Morning, chickadees! It's a lovely Sunday morning. Unbelievably enough, the furniture assembler was here by 8:30am yesterday, and by about 1pm, we had an office set up. Woo Hoo! BellSouth was also supposed to be there to deal with the phones, and for the first time, they called to say there were problems, and that they guaranteed it would be fixed before noon Sunday. They were at the house before 8am, but at least they also called ahead with a 10 minute warning so I could get up & throw clothes on before he got here.

I almost don't know what to do now! I mean, no one to call & yell at. Hubby is coming up today, since he worked yesterday. We may run out to replace his fax machine that has been kaput for a little while, and then work on setting up as much as possible in his office this next weekend.

When we get back to the other house, I have pictures of the furniture, and also his "office bathroom" with the palm tree stuff that he loves. Gotta keep the moneymaker happy, right?

And, I finally got my work laptop to dial up from the new house- kick butt! At least I'm not cut off from the world, and I can check email, check the bank balance, etc. DSL is the next hurdle, and I'll deal with them tomorrow when we get the follow up call to make sure that the line issue was taken care of. I might have to bring my desktop from the townhouse and set it up here, so that way we can test the DSL (can't install anything on the work machine) but then during the week I'd be without, and would have to try to bump hubby off his machine. Well, maybe without the computer in the house, I'll have no excuse to sit around & get lost on the internet, or games, instead of cleaning, or finishing up packing stuff to move.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

hi

So......I got on the scale this morning (sigh). Not only have I gained back all my losses this month, but added a couple of pounds to that too. I have set a new all time high weight.....and could just sit down and cry. I have made charts and resolutions and set goals until I am blue......nothing has worked. I can't even get enthused about a new challenge for March. I am at the 'there is no use trying, because I always fail' point in this journey......is this the rock bottom people tell me about? I wish I could say I feel that this is a turning point, but right now I honestly don't know.
Sorry this is such a negative post......

Morning chicks!

My weekend was nice and productive. The cats have come out of hiding (to romp around and make lots of noise around 2am!), Ikea was fun—and I managed NOT to spend a fortune—we found our new dog and we’re picking her up next weekend, and we managed to fix some things around the house and get some more stuff put away. It would have been a great weekend if I had managed to get some sleep. That’s on the schedule for tonight!

So there was some exercise involved, walking around Ikea all day Saturday and carrying things up and down the steps yesterday, plus bowling last night. Food, however, was not so great.

We found the missing piece to my scale, but it’s still not working properly. This morning I got readings all the way from 157-206, and I doubt even the 206 was right. My pants are a little snug this morning, though that may have something to do with TOM coming this week, but not entirely. So I guess I’m going to get a new scale sometime this week (hopefully). It may have to wait though, as I am already running low on funds.

The good news is that I got tons of groceries on Friday, most of them healthy. I didn’t get to get any cooking done this weekend, but I’ll try to do some during the week. Steve will be at basketball games tonight and tomorrow, so if I make a big dinner both nights we should have plenty of food for the rest of the week.

Tonight I am going to cook dinner, clean up a little more, put a few more things away, and go to bed. Saturday I woke up around 4 am and could *not* go back to sleep. Yesterday I managed to sleep until almost 7, but I didn’t sleep very well. I think if I could just get a few really good nights’ sleep I’d feel so much better. Seriously, I’m aiming to be asleep by 8.30 or so tonight. Eek… that’s 12 more hours I have to be awake. I’m not sure I can handle that. But if I get some sleep tonight, I plan to exercise tomorrow, hopefully the bike before work, or even after.

OK, I need to get some stuff done. Have a good one, chicks.
~Elisha

First of all...let's have a group hug...

This is a hard journey, a hard process, and we are all weary it seems. I am among the frustrated..the scale is going up..up ..up...and I hate it. I am stressed and out of control.

Now, with that said....I can't bear the thoughts of just quitting...even though I want to.

Somehow, some way...we can all do this. It has been done before, and we are capable, smart women!

(((((((((((((((((MsRD, Jennifer, Julie, Betani, TBJ....and all new chickies I missed))))))))))))))))))).

I need to run now...but I will be back later. What are you guys thinking of for our next challenge??

Evening...and grr. What was a good day started to turn to crap right around lunch time, and then slid downhill rather fast. Roid made a rather costly mistake, which is going to have to be paid for by our boss, who is the cheapest person on the planet, when it doesn't involve 6000.00 Hermes purses, and 800.00 Prada shoes. So, when it costs her a few grand because someone on our team is more concerned with calling her mother, brother, husband, other brother, friend, neighbor, mother's neighbor, and setting up personal appointments and blows the pricing on a loan, well, big mistake. Huge. Needless to say, I spent the day laying low and walking on eggshells, since I didn't do anything wrong, but once the crap hits the fan, it splatters everywhere, guilty or innocent.

I am frustrated. I am fatter than ever- in fact, this challenge, I managed to gain weight. WTF? Hello, this is weight loss, not the fricking ironman. I'm not a bear going into hibernation. It's the end of Feb and it is already close to 80 degrees during the week, and I am not only fat, I am hot, and sticky, and unhappy.

I commiserated with a friend this weekend, while at the house before hubby came up. I need to get the control back. ****, I'd settle for getting some motivation to do anything remotely involved with weight loss, and changing the bad habits. I know how to do this, so why is my brain acting like a spoiled 2 year old throwing a tantrum and not wanting any part of this. Like, I bring in Zone bars for breakfast, and that means I can have fast food for lunch. Um, no. And tonight, my super-healthy dinner after a weekend of KNOWING I have to do something about this again...pizza. Not 1 slice, but many. Greasy. I am going to pay for it tonight and tomorrow, feeling even more like crap, and I KNOW this, but apparently I am too stupid to even force myself to do the right thing.

I need someone else to be in charge of me. If I pulled crap like this at work & didn't do what I was supposed to, I'd be fired. How do I fire myself as boss of my life, and my health? And when can I start interviewing for my own replacement? The pay sucks, the benefits suck, and your subordinate....basically sucks, too. MsRD, Julie, Betani, TBJ- I feel all your pain. Lisa, you've got so little left to go, but I can see how frustrating it has to be, and 20 points, well crap, kids need more than that to survive.

I seriously am sick and tired of being so damn sick and tired, but there's too much crap that is still out of my control. Stupid excuse. I can plan better. Still major hurdles, but I could bring a week worth of breakfast in, and a week worth of lunch to the office. I need to do something for myself. And that's where I need help.

Somehow I still don't think that I've gotten with the program. I think that I still don't believe that I'm worth the time and effort and work that goes into losing the weight. Maybe I think that I deserve to be fat, and miserable, and uncomfortable, and that I'm just punishing myself for who the **** knows what.

Does everyone else feel the need to do some major overhauling, mentally? I know that I need to find even one stupid thing that I can do, and make a habit of it, and march (oooh, March!) my fat tush back onto the straight & narrow path.

If everyone agrees, I'd like to start the March challenge, and make it a chance to write off the lessons learned these past 2 months, and mistakes made, and get things moving back in the right direction. We can do this, ladies...I know we can.

Heavy sigh.

Jennifer...I feel everything you just wrote...with every iota of my being! I have actually thought those same thoughts over the last few months...and wonder, too, why I can not seem to get it together! Hmmm...must be something in the air!

I'm in for DOING SOMETHING THIS MONTH!!!! There just ARE NO MORE EXCUSES...THERE'S NOTHING IN THE WORLD THAT IS MORE WORTH BEING THIN AND HEALTHY...not even that stupid piece of greasy pizza or that last serving of icecream! We are all so addicted to food, it's just a way of life for us...and we KNOW we can do this. I KNOW I can do this...I HAVE done it and I will continue to try...I am NOT giving up. I am going to get 10lbs off this next month come **** OR HIGH WATER!!!!!

OK...so that's my soap box...NOW LET'S GET TO IT!!!!!

Hi Chickies,

It's been a while... thought I'd stop by and read posts.

I cannot believe that you all (or most of you) are dealling with the same things I am. I have surpassed my highest weight

MsRD ... I think this is possibly my rock bottom... I don't think that I could feel any worse about myself.

Jennifer, I feel like it could have been me writing your post.

Betani, my binge seems to have lasted since last fall sometime, and after the fact I'm getting so P***ED at myself.

Julie, we've gotta work this "thing" out and get going in the right direction (just about did a freudian slip and typed the "write" direction... maybe that's a hint.... sometimes we need to really listen to ourselves or is someone trying to give me a hint ...)

TBJ - Glad to hear the the BAR is done and you can get on with what ever comes next for you. ... albeit one pop and fruit and veggies every day

Anyways, I'm so sorry for not posting this last while, I know we need to "inspire" and "encourage" each other to have success and feel good about what we are doing. Please forgive me chickies, I had given up.


Hugs
Joy

Jennifer, please set up the next challenge for us. I, too, agree with and could have said myself the things you wrote.

There must be something in the air. We’re all down in the doldrums at the moment, wallowing in our own self-pity and even, at least in my case, self-loathing. The worst part of it for me is that I feel like I should be happy and loving every minute of every day right now. Things are going so well for me, and I still feel like a big, fat failure (FAT being the operative word). Granted, my life isn’t perfect, but this has been a dramatic few months for me, all of it good. For years I have prayed for all the changes that are now going on in my life, and now they’ve all come at once, and I’m so scared and stressed out I feel like my head’s about to explode.

What to do?

For my part, the strategy I’m going to apply is simple: baby steps. For the past few weeks I have gobbled down anything I could get my hands on, the more unhealthy the better. After giving myself carte blanche with food for so long, I feel hungry all the time now, and I just can’t stop eating. I have no idea what my weight is.

Tomorrow I will take measurements and start tracking my food once again. At this point I don’t really intend to limit my food so much, but I do intend to switch to healthier foods. My kitchen is stocked (at least somewhat) with healthy fare, so there is no excuse not to do better. I know that eating too much of the healthiest foods available will not help me lose weight, and I know that a calorie is a calorie is a calorie, no matter if it comes from a candy bar or a carrot. But I also know that the lean frozen dinner and apple I brought for lunch today are a much better choice than the Taco Bell salad and Kit Kat I had yesterday. Baby steps.

On the menu for today:
Breakfast
2 cups of coffee with creamer, (1 with sugar, 1 without)
LF granola cereal with skim milk
Banana
Whole wheat toast with peanut butter and apple butter

Lunch
Diet Black Cherry Vanilla Coke
Frozen Dinner—Mexican Pork, I think, around 250-300 calories
Apple

Snack
LF yogurt
Reduced-fat Pringles

Dinner
Salmon cake (made with egg whites and whole wheat bread crumbs)
Broccoli
Leftover macaroni and cheese (yeah, I know that’s not the healthiest option, but I don’t feel like cooking tonight)

I’m going to drink water all day at work (after I finish my coffee, and with the exception of the diet soda at lunch), and I’m going to make some unsweetened iced tea when I get home. Or maybe I’ll just drink water there too. Or I have some SF lemonade. We’ll see.

And I need to start exercising again. I took a few minutes to stretch this morning, and it felt so good just to move my body like that. I need to get on the recumbent bike every day, or do some yoga, or one of my tapes, or Y!F. We’re getting our dog on Saturday, and she will need to be walked every single day. My back isn’t getting any better, and walking, any movement really, helps that. I can do better. I’m not saying I have to start training for the Olympics, but I do need to move.

And as far as my house goes and getting everything done… I’ve been so stressed and worried about it for the past few days. I’ve been wondering when someone is going to help me do this or that or whatever. But you know what I realized? I can do it, whatever it is. OK, so perhaps I’m not the ideal candidate for drilling holes in the floor and hooking up the water line to the frige, but I can paint the bookshelves and make the curtains and do any number of other things that need done. And if it comes right down to it, I could probably manage to hook up the water line if I had to. I am capable and resourceful. Yes, I would like to have all the help I can get, and I’m sure I will get some at some point. But the fact is, I’m the one that wants it done, I’m the one that’s concerned about it, so it’s my responsibility to see that it’s taken care of.

So since we’re all going through some sort of mental… I don’t know… whatever this is, I’m going to start posting daily questions again, or at least things to ponder. You don’t have to post your response if you don’t want to (but you know we would all like to read them!), the point is just to get you thinking about why we’re making this journey. I’ll start up the questions (many of which you may have heard some version of before) when the new challenge begins.

OK, I’ve got a meeting in a couple of minutes, then I have work to do. Have a wonderful day, chicks.
~Elisha

evening all.....

I have just read and re-read your posts.....frustration seems to be the word of the day. I don't think it is a motivation thing.....motivation always hits me at the beginning of the month and then after 2 weeks, it is gone......it is an emotional thingy and nothing we should count on for long term effect. I have to break out of this slump.....it is to the point where I simply do not feel good, physically, and this may be the beginning of serious health problems, if I don't start taking care of myself.
((Joy...Lisa...Elisha...Jennifer....TBJ....Julie.. ...Rosie....Betani....and anyone else I have inadvertently missed)).....this major overhaul challenge could be the start we are all looking for! If you are all for it, how could I not join you?

Tomorrow is going to be a great day!

I posted early- because I KNOW there's no way Roid & NewGirl would give me the 15 minutes of peace & quiet to get this started. Have a great night, ladies, and see you in the morning for a new month and a new start!

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