Good evening everyone,
BonnieL - Thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate it

I feel like my head is filled with too much negativity. I always try to relax and breathe and think about why I started in the first place. My motivation would only last for a little while and then the " **** it, I don't care"- attitude would come right back. But I am starting to feel a little better and my hopes are very high! I am so sorry to hear about your situation and I am praying for the both of you. I think we've had this talk before - going off plan and staying off plan for way too long. I hate it yet it seems so hard to get back on track. You can do it!
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I almost failed yesterday but with the help of DH I managed to stay OP. I was OP today as well though I didn't eat dinner due to a mean headache and I was just not feeling hungry. I had a couple of sips of a chocolate milkshake at work and one small chocolate bar while grocery shopping. Nothing too crazy but I feel like I should mention it, given my situation these past few weeks.
I weighed 144.8 lbs this morning. All I keep telling myself is "one pound at a time". I need to be patient.