Staccie- I am so sorry. I know the feeling and I could work out too. Salad is not going to cut it. I am so hungry. I just want something filling. Mashed potatoes? lol. NO. No food!! Sorry about your day. We need to turn this bus around!

Pammy- You can do it! I would give anything to be tall and lean! I can lose all the weight I want but I can never grow tall =( lol. about the hurricanes though!

Aj- Isnt it funny that we always want what we cant have? Rather it be shorter or taller or a larger or smaller chest? Why are we programed to hate our selfs in one way or another? :rollpin:

I went to the gym. Somehow I managed to argue with my fat personality and the skinny personality won.

Anyway, I signed up for a trainer tonight. Once a week for a few months. I don't need a trainer to learn how to work out but I think I really need someone to help guide me. I found before that I really responded to results. So every Sunday I will get weighed, measured and trained by the trainer. Although it may not be right, when I feel accountable to someone and could get into trouble or disappoint someone, I tend to do better at everything. I must have gotten the strap in school a lot :) They still did that back in the days :) I feel accountable to my friends and family, but somehow a trainer has always bred a lot of success for me. And if that is what it takes, well I am willing to do anything right now to just get me going.

He's one the best at the club and I've chatted to him a few times so I hopeful about this.

AJ - thanks for the sympathy and back at ya :) What did you end up eating? I'm on the bus and picking you up tomorrow morning (I wish in reality!).

Pam - oh so true, we always want what we dont' have. I want little boobs, girls with little boobs want mine (why I have no idea), I wish I straight hair and I have curly, blah blah :) I am convinced we are like this because of the pressure society puts on women to look a certain way. It breeds a sense of 'never good enough' - even women who are so beautiful always think someone is more pretty. Those people that honestly say they love themselves, I always wonder if that is true (and if so, good for them). And now with surgery, you can look almost anyway you want. How the world has changed...

Well I have hours of work to do so I will check in tomorrow!

Oh me you ask? What did I eat? Chinese food. Tomorrow is a new day and I have closed my mouth for the day. Good night girls.

Lindy-Hope you are feeling better and out of your funk. I am hoping to see good results with the grapefruit. You arent really hungry at the end of the day, you can eat as much as you want of meat and veggies or salad. I have the whole diet written down. I will try to pm it to you in the next couple days.

Staccie-woohoo for making with the gym and wrestling with the fat personality and winning!!!!! I would love to have a trainer. I know I could be so much further into this by now if I did. Oh and I get the old lady pucker lips sometimes with the juice.

AJ-my hubby is a butt man too and has to "check out" my pants I wear everyday, but lately it looks like I took a dump in most of them cos they are saggy. But hey that spells results to me, so thats ok. Is your back better? I had a bad binge day like that Monday(I had chinese food too), thats when I decided to do the GF diet for 12 days. Had to get over wanting to eat any and eveerything.

Pam-kids are so funny. I know how you feel being away from your bf. When my hubby and I were dating, he lived in Michigan and I lived in Alabama. It was hard but we made it work. Eventually I ended up moving here and now I want to go back to AL so so so bad. I've been here 9 years.

GF diet day 2 went well. I didnt get my walk in as planned. Had the boys most of the day and the youngest has impetigo and a sinus infection so had to keep him in. Gonna go grocery shopping tomorrow and get all my staples for the next 10 days. Really really hope I can get to 199 on this diet.

Hope everyone is having a great night.

Staccie - woohoo for the new trainer! That's a great idea - it might just give you an extra push when it comes to staying on track and I'm sure it will keep you super focused on your workouts although we all know you love weights anyway. Good for you!!

aj - sounds like your body decided it was tired of the super lo-cal diet yesterday - hope your back isn't bothering you as much. I head back to Denver today and am not even going to try to get any exercise until tomorrow.

burgundy - your loose pants comment cracked me up! Funny how looser clothes can be even less flattering sometimes!! Sounds like the gf diet is going to work for you and you'll bust right on through to onederland. When do you see your sister again? Is it soon? I can't remember.

pammy - the whole self-critical thing is a major bummer, I agree! There must be one thing about yourself that you really like though - what is it? Seems like someone as pretty as you would have lots to choose from!

Off to dye my roots and to get going on property visits for the day. Hope you all have a good one!

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Good Morning girls. Not sure what is so good about it though (not a morning person)

I am on day 3 of the lemonade diet master cleanse thingy. Well kinda. I started in the middle of the day on day 1. But all I had that day was raisin bran for breakfast and a salad of just lettuce for lunch. The rest of the day it was just the lemonade. Last night though, I had to go to our friends parents house and have spagetti. I didn't want to, but we have cancelled on them a few times recently and they get quite offended, so I had to go. They are the type of people who make TONS of food and then expect you to eat TONS. Well I just had salad, half a plate of spagetti and 1 piece of garlic bread. I am back to the lemonade this morning.

I had the courage to get on the scale this morning and have a peek. It said 295. Since the highest weight I saw on the scale was like 300.4...I'm pretty happy with that. I'm not looking again until Sunday though.

Now on to you guys:

Dance: Lol. Dye your roots??? You mean your not a natural redhead? I would have NEVER known. You have the complection of a redhead.

Staccie: I'm proud of you for taking a step that you know works (getting a trainer). Plus, even more proud of you beating your fat personality with the skinny one.

Lindy: Hope today is a better day and you are out of your funk.

Burgandy: I toooootally know about the poop in the pants look. I hate it!!! I sure hope you break through to onederland with these 12 days. I wish I could too. HAHA! We know that's not gonna happen.

AJ: I wish you the best of luck in not allowing food to get the best of you today. Oh and the pictures were awesome! The is such a big difference with 20 lbs. I have lost 60...and really when I look at pictures I can only tell in my face and neck...nowhere else.

Anyone I missed: Hope you have a great day of skinny thoughts.

Good morning everyone!

Lindy - Here is something to start your day with: :hug:

Dance - travel days always suck for me no matter how I eat or how active I am so you might as well take the day off - tomorrow is another day.

Staccie - good for your skinny personality kicking butt and scheduling a trainer. You are definitely driving the bus today!

AJ - today will be better. Maybe you can find a nice balanced day food wise. I hate how badly the sodium affects me with Chinese food.

Tiff - it is so good that you are back. It sounds like you really did well last night at the spaghetti dinner.

Burgundy - saggy pants are a GOOD thing! You will be busting into the 190's before the month is out.


I am still waiting for my new exercise DVD's to arrive and am getting to the point where they no longer seem exciting. :(

Thursday's are a tough day for me exercise wise. I have been going to the store on Thursday mornings before work to take advantage of their $10 off of $50 worth of groceries. So not much of a workout in the morning. Then right after work I run Harry out to his agility lesson, by the time I get home it is cold and dark and I don't feel like exercising. Last week hubby was home and was kind enough to walk with me. I could use some suggestions that don't involve walking backwards on the treadmill. Maybe my aforementioned Disney exercise plan should be set into motion for Thursday evenings.

I have been trying to hit this hard since I started last Monday so that I could see the results to keep me motivated. I keep thinking about those Biggest Loser people and how they work out a ridiculous amount of hours a day while they are at the ranch to drop those large numbers. So I am just trying to get more exercise in than I usually would when starting a diet. Hence I have been starting most of my days with 20 minutes on the treadmill. Then in the evening I try to do another 30-45 minutes of cardio. I would love to do more but time does not always allow for it.


KICKing vibes for a successful day out to everyone - please KICK them back.
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I am really feeling over this. Not you guys just the whole dieting thing. I feel so beat. I am still 155/156 and I am just over it. What do I do?

Sorry girls.. but I'm having a pity party for myself and just need to vent. Please disregard. I just found out that my husband will not be coming home for thanksgiving and possibly not christmas either. They were taken away from him.. he has no priveleges now. He got into a fight the other day apparently. Well. he says some guy jumped on him. He got him off of him.. didn't hit him. but held him until the sargeants came over. But they both got in trouble. So.. now I don't get to see him and we're out a lot of $ for plane tickets. I'm pretty miserable right now and have nothing to look forward to now. At least I don't feel like binging. I feel more like starving. I have no appetite and feel sick. On top of that.. I have to go to work tonight. So.. this day officially sucks. Thanks for letting me vent.

Neesy I am so sorry! The military really is effed up. They told my brother he couldn't come to my wedding because of training and then told him two days before he could come. Then there was a time when he was suppose to come home for 4 weeks pre deployment and because of one thing he didn't have they wouldn't let him leave... THAT DAY. They are really messed up. Also deployments suck. They say _ months but it always extends =( I am so sorry you are having to go through it. They first year and half is the hardest. Then its a race to be done. I hope your day gets manageable. **HUGS**

Was 3FC down for a few hours or was that just my computer?

Neesy, that is absolutely awful. I really hope you have plenty of family around to spend the holidays with, but I sure know that is nothing like having your husband there. I am so sad for you because I know how much you were looking forward to having him to yourself. Just don't starve yourself girl, that won't solve anything. Even if you don't feel like eating make sure you are getting some nutrients in that body! Come vent all you need to.

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I am pasting the below because I tried to post it earlier but 3FC froze up on me.

So I was just thinking...I put on between 10-15 lbs in the past few months. I don't know if anyone else does this when they start to gain, but I avoid the clothes that I know have less give in them. For instance, today I am wearing a pair of pants that I haven't worn for several weeks because they fit PERFECT when I was 285-290, but they don't really get bigger throughout the day like most of my pants and they are driving me crazy today! They fit decent when I am standing up, but when I sit down (pretty much the whole day) they are tight on my thighs and waist. I have not been wearing them to further my denial. I guess subconciously, it's ok to not diet if my clothes still fit. But that turns into, it's ok not to diet if SOME of my clothes still fit. Then that turns into, I have to go shopping anyways because I need new clothes, whatever if they're a size biggger...this store's clothes must run small...oh the lies I tell myself.

Does that make sense??? This whole post is because my pants are tight today.

THE END :)

Dance-I get to see my older sister, mom and niece in December. We are going down for 2 weeks for christmas and new years. I really would love to be at 193 by then, that would put me at my halfway mark.

Tiff-you are another brave one trying the master cleanse. I dont know if I could do that one. Good luck. I hope I get to the 1's too!!!! Yea when I was 236 I have a few pair of pants that I always stayed away from. I hate when they are tight in the waist and are uncomfortable all day.

Popcorn-making small changes where you can will help and you have already done that. You will start to see results. :kickcan: good vibes for you too:)

AJ-please dont give, you are so close. I know you can do it. I was on a plateau and wanted to give up, so I ate and ate on Monday. Tuesday I decided that was enough so I started the grapefruit thing. Is there a certain plan that has worked well in the past that you could try again to get the scale moving. Even though the scale isnt moving, the inches are def coming off, just take a look at those pictures again.

Got some groceries today, not everything I needed. Went to the amish store. Love that place. Got lots there. Day 3 is going good. Gonna try to get a workout in tonight. Will have my niece and nephews here tomorrow so their mom can go xmas shopping. 40 days til I go to AL, so I need to stay on track and lose 12 lbs. Hope I am not shooting for a number that is not obtainable for me. We'll see.

AHHHHHHH-- DARN 3FC. It was down all day and I kept thinking it was my work comp. then I came home for lunch and sure enough, it was still down, lol. God forbid! Anyway, not the best of days, so let me vent. I started out ok, 2 cookies, 4 egg whites and 3 pieces of turkey bacon, which put me at 400 calories, then I had a handful of almonds-150, then I ate a whole footlong sub - 700 flippin calories! a pepsi - 150 calories, then I had 2 pumpkin pie mcdonalds things....grrr...Im gonna say like 600 calories, so Im already at 2000 calories without dinner. Good grief! In addition, I havent hopped on the scale in a week but clothes are feeling tight...uh-oh, time to rope this back in!

AJ- dont give up. You and I should try to do this together! We are both slipping up pretty bad these days, wanna be each others accountability buddy?

Neesy - so sorry to hear about your hubby! :( Im glad to hear you didnt binge, big props for that.

Im sorry Im not commenting on everyone else, its so late in the day and dont have a lot of time now because I have to wrap up some things. Try to stay skinny tonight girls, Ill touch base with you tomorrow.

Ooh this site having issues today must have been bad kharma. I am feeling down too. I am debating on getting my butt in the car and just going to a mall to walk because I can't bring myself to exercise. And my mom is using guilt to make me feel bad about a vacation day that I don't want to use to go do something with her, which I don't mind spending time with her, but it is really to spend time with a group of several people and she doesn't need me along to do that. I am just venting here there is no solution to this problem in regards to explaining it to her - it was just easier to say that I can't and try to let that sick feeling in my stomach dissipate.

AJ - try to hang in there. Please don't give up. Is there some new activity you can take up that might kick start your metabolism. I did that once at my husband's suggestion and it really worked.

Neesy - I don't know what to say, except I am sorry. I can only imagine how devastated you must feel. Like Tiff, I am hoping you have other family members or friends who can help fill some of the void. Try to eat something so you don't get sick. Take care of yourself.

Well I had a really long post but It never posted and now its gone :( Sorry ladies! Anyways hope everyone is having a good day today!

Poop Knockers! I tried to get on a few times with no luck. But, I made it good today :) I never cheated, had cravings but didn't give in even though work was super busy and stressful today. My trainer needs me on Friday mornings now and tomorrow I get weighed, measured, body comp down and then every Friday after that before I work out. I'm feeling very hopeful about it. It is 6PM though and I am ready for bed. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I might just go to sleep and then get up earlier.

Look like today was a rough day for most of us :( Hope tomorrow will be better!

Popcorn - my mom (although I love her) uses the guilt trips like no one else i know...makes things hard. A vacation day should be used for something YOU want to do, after all they are certaintly limited :)

Lindy - you worked too hard to have those clothes get tight...stay away from pumpkin pie and other stuff and get on the scale - that will help make you accountable. So many of us are struggling right now...but we can do it!!

Burgandy, I don't think that number is unattainable, if you really push your workouts and eat clean. But maybe try for lost inches, do you have something a bit tight to try on every few weeks? For me, using pounds lost is only when complemented by something else (measuring inches lost) etc. Just a thought :)

Tiff what you said made perfect sense...and oh so true!!! I think getting rid of clothes as soon as they become too big and getting them out of the closet leads to less temptation to unfortunately get back in them? I know as soon as something gets too big on me, it's going away...that way, if I gain weight, I have nothing to wear and that's an incentive :)

Neesy - that's really sad about your husband...I am so sorry.

AJ - look at those pictures that you posted for a bit of re-motivation. Looks to me like you are toning...who gives a crap what the scale says if you can see results....and your results are very obvious :) Hang in there beautiful - it's just a rough patch....I promise :)

Dance - hope you had a good root dye - speaking of that, I better get on it!!!


Well I'm pretty pooped. My body is obviously saying - SP you need sleep...I need to listen to it. I'd rather get up at 3 - cause I sure am not going to be productive doing anything now!

Well tomorrow I will report in on my weight, measurements and body comp. I'm scared but excited. I'm so done with depending on the scale and looking forward to having a trainer again even though it's going to cost me an arm and and a leg :)

Ok - tomorrow is also Friday the 13th....supposed to be unlucky but I say it's going to be a much better day for everyone than today has been.

I love you all - :hugs:

So the no nonsense side of my brain took charge and shut down the pity party. Before I had time to think it through I put on a fleece, some gloves and hubby's reflector vest to hit the loop (my street is a semi circle and combined with the cross street is 9/10ths of a mile). I did the loop 3 times and let my head clear. On the third loop I called my mom just to tell her "I loved her" and we ended the evening on a good note. Sent an "I love you" text to my husband and two sons just because I thought they needed to hear it. Now I've had my nightly piece of dark chocolate and am feeling pretty mellow now.

Sending some good karma out to all of you as you all deserve it. :hug:

What is up with 3FC? I can't see any comments except tonights and then it bounces 2 days back. What happened to Neesy's husband? Is everything alright? Help ;-(

Today was GREAT. Just the lemonade...didn't crack and eat any food. Didn't want any until someone at work cookked some popcorn. That smelled deeeeelicious. But I pushed through it and didn't think about it again. Except that I kept for being amazed I didn't want food. Usually I craaave so many crazy things when I am fasting. Like cheese fries...mmmmmm. Sorry that was mean wasn't it.

Staccie, I can just tell in the tone of you post that you are completely in the zone! I am so excited for you. I know you struggle like me with all or nothing and right now it is all for both of us!

BTW. I got the biggest loser Wii game tonight! I just did the first days workout and Don is currently doing his first workout. It's awesome!!! Great workout seriously. It reminds me of 30DS but with feedback to tell you if you're doing it right. It also tells you how many calories to eat and every week there is a weigh in. How hilarious is that!? I can't remember who said they had it. Do you like it just as much after doing it for a while?

Since the biggest loserr has me weighing in on Wednesdays and you guys weigh in on Sunday, those are going to be the only two days a week I weigh. I am going to try to break that cycle by avoiding the tool that is causing it. I obviously can't control my mind to not get upset when there are fluctuations up, so I will eliminate my mind from seeing those fluctuations. If there is an increase while only weighing twice a week, then I am doing something wrong and I need to fix it. It's just gonna be sooooo hard not jumping on that scale. I have tried hiding it, putting it out of reach, I just have no willpower. So I am going to have to find some for this challenge on myself.

Popcorn; oh boy do I know about mom guilt. My mom has a degree in it. For example, last weekend she asked me to comeover and help her with some things, so I said Sure, Like what (in text). She never replies. Next day I send another text and say "you never answered, what do you need help with". She replies, just some things, does it matter?...I say no, just wanted to know. She never replies again. I call friday night to see what time she wanted me to come over...she doesn't answer or call back. To make a long story short...she got super mad at me and decided she didn't want me to come over because I "was nosy and kept asking what she wanted me to do, and all she really wanted to do was spend time with me". Like I'm a freaking psychic!!! Anyways. She'll get over it if she is upset.

I am off to watch flash forward! I LOVE that show. Does anyone else watch it?

Night girls!

Yay popcorn! I'm so proud of you overcoming yourself and doing 3 miles!

Mygrits...Neesy's husband can't come home for Thanksgiving and Christmas because of some other guy's stupidity. Pretty much a load of crap.

Well, hopefully 3FC is working, so I will post. I still can't read back, but will respond to the messages on this page from last night. AJ did email me about Neesy's husband. I am soooo sorry Neesy, and I know it really sucks you won't spend those special days with him. Do you know when he will be home, or is there any possibility you can go there?

Tiff I love having you active on the board again, and your doing so fantastic! The Lemonade Diet huh? I have people coming in the Health Food Store occasionally for that. They are either getting the mix, or making from scratch. How long are you planning on doing it?

I am doing good and down 2 more pounds to 210. My goal this week was 211, so I am thrilled I am below that! Woo Hoo! I wrote on here last night, but it didn't post that I am hooked on Jasmine Rice. Has anyone else tried it?

Ok, lets see if this posts.................

Greetings Friends!

What the (#$*$ is up with 3FC? It keeps eating my posts and refusing to let me look at comment pages. (Shaking Fist Violently)

Well I'm heading out for work but wanted to hop on real quick and attemp some personals...

Neesy- The situation with you husband really bites it... I know it's no concellation, but is there anything else about the holidays that you were looking forward to? When will be the next time you'll get to see him?

Stacee- I just read your binge eating post and I can totally relate, this is a serious problem for me as well... I guess my only advice to you is to take it one day at a time and eventually it gets easier...Awesome news about the trainer and the gym though!

AJ-Don't give up! This may however be a good time to go back and examine your motivation for wanting to lose... believe me it doesn't get any easier after you hit goal so having a clear understanding of your motivation and intention are going to be extreamly helpful in the long run.

So for me it's work today and then exercise hopefully later this evening. I've also been a little gloomy lately as TOM arrived here also...and in full force...a few days ago and it really made things tough for me. It's just an ugly combination of biological effects that just inevitably throw my world into a tizzy. I shouldn't say inevitably though...I mean there has to be some way I could manage things better...right? Anyways, I guess that's it for me because I'm heading out the door. Apologies to everyone I missed personals to...I am up to date with all the posts so hopefully I'll have something for you later!

Lots of Love!

Just a quick check-in because I can't stand the issues with 3FC site.

I forgot to tell you that yesterday I set up a date with a friend of mine to walk a bike trail from start to finish the first weekend in December. We did this two years ago when I was losing weight and it gave me an exercise goal to focus on.

The whole trail is 8 miles and we walked it in just over 2 hours.

So I will build up to by trying to walk at least 4 miles when my schedule allows - which should be about 3 times a week. Slowly building to 5 mile walks by Thanksgiving. Then by the week before I should be able to do a couple of 6 mile walks so that I have the stamina for the biggie on that Saturday.

I am pretty excited about doing it again.


Sending out good vibes to everyone today - Friday the 13th.

Ok, mine comment posted, so thought I would write some more.

Popcorn that is such a testimony to your 'heart' and 'integrity'. You were so smart to go out and excercise, clear your head, then let your family know how much you love them. I know you felt so much better after that. Big ((hugs)) to you!

I hope all you other ladie have a wnderful Friday, and eat healthy, and get your workouts in! I will check in later and sorry on the comments I missed, but they are not showing. Is it only on my end? I can see last nights on this page, then the next page is from 2 days ago.

Bye for now.

Oh Good grief, 3FC is still screwed up!!!!! Yes, Popcorn I am now shaking my fist violently!!!!!!!! :devil: The comment right above yours I tried to post over an hour ago! Damn

Popcorn I love walking trails and that sounds like such an awesome plan with your friend. LOL........I wish I could go! I walked trails in Blackmountain, NC a year ago and absolutely loved it.

Well, I hope they fix thing site. I miss reading all your posts and its my day off, so I can actually have time on here today..........go figure :(

Im going to attempt to redo my post in hopes that It actually gets posted. I have no idea whats going on with the site here lately. I typed up an entire post just for it not to post in the first place. UGH!


Neesy-:hug: Im sorry to hear about your husband. I dont really know what else to say, but try to keep your head up!
Dance- Thank you so much! I have a major problem with saying anything positive about myself. Its one of my flaw, I have always been this way and im hoping to eventually get over it. We will see :/
Burgundy- Your getting so close to onderland. I know you will make it! :hug:
Staccie- I would LOVE to have a personal trainer! I have heard mixed reviews on them, what are you ideas?
Tiff- I keep seeing the commercial for the BL wii game. It sounded pretty interesting but wasn't sure because I didnt know anyone whos tried it. Sounds like alot of fun, I might have to get it. Grats on the cleanse..I know I couldn't do it!
Popcorn- Way to go on walking 8 miles thats fantastic! Me and my older sister use to walk 4 miles twice a week and she just got too busy that we don't do it anymore, and I miss it :(

As for me I just got finished with my daily walk and my thighs are sore from doing the 30DS and I added on the No More Trouble Zones last night so im feeling it this morning. I really need to get a new update pic to post. Im hoping sometime this week when im feeling "skinny" to take a new one. Its getting closer and closer to my bf getting here and im super excited, but im also running out of time to get the house clean.. AHHHH my head is going to explode just thinking about all the stuff I still have to get done. Not to mention get all the ingredients to make all the stuff for Thanksgiving. Im totally planning on a free day for Thanksgiving but still limit myself to some extent ... What about the rest of you ladies? Any big plans for Thanksgiving?

UGH 3fC!

OMG is this for real?? Is it back???

YAY Finally! I was dying!

Hahah! Yeah. Me too. I saw that the site was sold. I still think they were just moving it to a bigger server.

Missed all of you!

Whew, it's back...even though I don't check in that much during the day, I was really anxious the last few days when I couldn't get on. I even woke up at 6 this morning and tried it. I think I even had a dream about it last night. I think it wouldn't be as bad if we didn't have such a close relationship with each other on this thread, it's not like we could just all meet up for coffee :) Well I could get on my private jet, but you know I lent it out last night - haha.

Well I am feeling pretty good about my weight stuff. I'm on day three with a lot of success. I did something kind of smart yesterday morning (but I didn't realize that it was smart until after I did it..I had an appointment with my new trainer in the morning and changed out of my work out clothes (good thing I didn't sweat it out yesterday) and left them at the gym in a locker because I had planned to come back in the evening. Well throughout the day I was like, no way I was too tired, I wanted to eat junk food, etc. But I knew I had to pick up my gym bag because if not, the lockers are opened every night and I didn't want my expensive gym bag and clothes to go MIA. So once I got there, I was like, well I might as well work out :) If I have to trick my mind once in awhile well I guess that's what I have to do.

I had cravings last night for some bad arse food. I talked myself out of it but I went to the mall food court by my gym and thought, well I will just have a taco - and I was standing in line and I just didn't want it - so I went over the salad place and built a nice big salad. I did have a small soft serve ice cream but I'm not angry about that, considering that I could have went nuts there. I just can't give up little treats like that. I just need to find a way to make it reasonable, even if I only have half of it and throw the rest out. I find that if I don't allow myself something once in awhile, I just fly off the wagon. What does everyone else think about that.

My trainer, well I am excited about it. He has 20 years experience and is certified up the ying yang. And he's not tempting (physically) too much anyway so I can stay focused and not worry about wearing make-up (just kidding) or angling my arse or boobs in 'such a way' to make them look more flattering. He took all my measurements and body fat yesterday. Every Friday morning I get weighed, measured and worked out. I like Friday because it gets me going into the weekend and keeps me motivated throughout the week because I know I have to actually show someone - and I like to get the high fives, good job and stuff. Since I am very knowledgeable in the gym as I worked with a trainer for over a year awhile ago, he is going to work on core exercises to help strengthen my core, balance and improve my posture. Lots of work on balls, bosu, etc. I am really excited.

Work, well it's really stressful right now. I'm not sure what to do. I think just making sure that I get to the gym and eat properly will really help me out along the way - but it's just crazy. I've been busy before, in fact my career has always been this way, but never this bad. But, I see light at the end of the tunnel, the games will be awesome to work and I have this new life waiting for me around the corner :)

Boy I have written alot - sorry!


Pammy - if you get the right trainer, it can make a world of difference, but the problem is getting the right one. I check out their certifications, how they work with other clients and always remember that they are salespeople too. I've had fantastic ones and one that was horrible. I immediately asked for someone new. I learned how to work out properly, particularly my form. Form is so important because you can work out completely different muscles by using something like a wide grip, or reverse grip, etc. They are damn costly, but for me - now it's a matter of being accountable to someone and ensuring that I haven't lost my form. Sounds like you are super busy getting ready for thanskgiving, in Canada we had ours about a month ago, so no plans for me. Good luck getting everything done :)

Popcorn, congrats on walking the bike trail...that sounds really nice! And in 2 hours - that's awesome.

Simple - thanks for the comments on the binge eating...I appreciate it. I am hoping that I will be successful but I know that I shouldn't be so hard on myself. I'm not going to expect to never put anything in my mouth that is not on the "GOOD" list - because the more I obsess about it, the more likely I am to just go nuts and eat everything I can. I hope to really work through finding the balance between just having a taste and eating the whole container...behavior doesn't change overnight right? And they say a leopard doesn't change it spots but if the leopard is a bit chunky, they sure get smaller :) As for TOM, he's an arsehole. I hate that time of month. Sending you :hug: to get through it!!!!

Sandy - you are at 210??!???? That is so awesome girl!!! Congrats, congrats!!! You are going to be at onederland soon too, then you can cheer the few of us left on here that still need to get there! I think it's just me and Vicky? Did I miss someone?

Tiff - I am very intrigued by the biggest loser thing...I love that show. Maybe I will have to look into that when I move back to Edmonton. You sure sound great - I am so glad things are looking good for you. And I love seeing you on here on a regular basis!!! And I so agree about the not weighing yourself everyday, I can't either because it can really influence me in a positive or negative way. It's like playing the slots or something...I don't like that feeling, I'd rather just do it twice a week too, but it's sometimes so hard to stay off it when you know you are doing good...

Well I am copying this into a word document in case it doesn't post because I would be so mad if it didn't. That's my safeguard for awhile. Sorry it was so long....!!!

I'm heading off to the gym soon to watch my favorite shows while working out on the treadmill, it's three hours of TV - project runway, Models of the runway and biggest loser (an older one). I'm obviously not running the whole time or I might be watching it in the hospital later :)

Luv you all and happy to be back!!

Woo hoo it posted!!

AJ -are you having a good day?? I had a good laugh at the fb message last night regarding the crickets and scorps..I HATE crickets, they are so gross. Little beady eyes and sticky legs...

Are you enjoying the 'cold' front?

Quick check in before I dash outside to rake some leaves - we are expecting rain tomorrow so I am feeling pressure to get them done today.

Staccie - good job on leaving the gym bag in the locker! I love when we do something to help ourselves without realizing it. BTW I am totally cracking up on your trainer not being "distracting" enough and the things you would do if he was!

Pammy - I am doing just the opposite on Thanksgiving. I am going to try to plan my eating out for the day. I told hubby that when the boys come home it will have to be a group effort to keep me being good for four days. I think that is why I am pushing so hard right now because I always fall off the wagon when they are in town.

For all of you with TOM I agree it is a total pain in the "arse". Guys have it so easy. Hang in there.


I know that our official weigh in is tomorrow BUT I will leave you with the news that when I weighed in today (my official day) I was VERY encouraged to keep up my efforts.

I will keep checking in with all of you - my wonderful support group - if this darn site will let me.

yay it finally back! I'm on my phone so I can't post much, but I just wanted to put that out there! I am on my way to have lunch with my mom so wish me luck on making the best choice possible! I ate a bit last night because we had friends over at the last minute and I just couldn't handle the pressure of having 3 people surrounding me eating. not a fail, just life. I am hoping to have a small salad with mom and we r going to the mall and can walk it off.

Staccie don't forget me in the 200s!!! I mean ill gladly say I'm in woderland...but it couldn't be farther from the truth! lol.

can't wait to hear from the rest of you girls!

Staccie- YAY you are doing so great! You are amazing. Miss self control! =) And it is actually really nice here. 66 and raining. Thats right... I said RAINING in the desert. I love rain. The smell! I am so proud of you for working your butt off literally. And I know you lent out the jet but maybe your driver will come down ad pick me up. Its only like 22 hours!

Popcorn- Great job this week. I can't wait to see the official tomorrow.

Tiff- I am so impressed. I did a fast like diet over a year ago and I would just eat this here and that there to the point where I might as well not have said I was on it. You are doing great.

So as many of you know... I quit. I am back up to 158. I will change my ticker. I have eaten things that I didn't even like pre-dieting. I have drowned myself in pepsi and my food choices might as well be considered salt licks. So I am a big puffy failure. GOOD NEWS. I am really going to try starting Monday just to be healthy with Lindy. She is going to hold me accountable and I am hoping that maybe having a partner will help me at least try harder than I am. I am not sure what my main motivation is but a small part is not re-gaining more. So I am OUT OF CONTROL but I will try.

Well I had a two hour workout and it felt great, watched my shows while on the treadmill and worked up a good sweat and then did some weights. So I am feeling awesome. I am heading out to go shopping and get my nails done. I live across from Louis Vuitton and they have some awesome Christmas displays right now...so I might just pop in. I should really leave my credit card with the high limit at home though :) I really need to do work but I decided that today is my day. If I don't rejuvenate, there is no way I will get through the next week. It's hard to make that decision but to **** with it.

Popcorn...I love that name. I love popcorn...air popped with Mrs Dash on it = hardly any calories...yum lol. I love movie theatre popcorn even though I always get cramps and the poops (sorry TMI) after. I want to see New Moon on Friday and no one will go with me :( I guess that means I am a middle aged housewife loser (well except I am not a housewife) - so I am going to bribe my friend Paul to come with me - and I am having popcorn but only a small bag....anyway I just got off topic - thinking about popcorn - what I wanted to say is I am happy you had a great weigh in today...woo hoo. I did too!!

Tiff - sorry I knew I forgot someone, ok there are three of us heading for onderland...we can do it. I am going to kick that 2 in the nards pretty soon!! Tiff how do you post from your phone, that would be so much easier for me somedays!!! I am really loving your attitude and want to adopt it, we do something we didn't plan for but that is life, move on, and just keep trucking along. That is to true

AJ - I have driven down to Phoenix many times and it's a gorgeous drive from Canada...but when I can fly and get there in about two hours, I say woo hoo. I am coming this spring and we better be able to hang out! And as for quitting, I don't see it as quitting - it's a temporary set-back. Just like I had and have had plenty of times. I think Lindy and you working together starting Monday is a good thing...you have both come so far and need to get back in the 'mode'. You are so beautiful, I was creeping you on fb last night and I thought, wow you know she has looks, personality and really cute family!! I'm so glad we met, well we will meet in person but I feel like I know you already! PS -I love rain in the desert. In the spring (April, etc) when I usually come to Phoenix, it's so beautiful with all the cactus blooming and stuff. It's my favorite time of year there.

Well I better have a shower and get moving along. :hug:

Staccie - WOWZA!!!! LOVE your new picture!!!!!!! Yes Popcorn is my downfall. I haven't even told my hubby or my kids yet about my forum name. They will just roll their eyes.

AJ - You did not quit, like Stacie said you just had a small set back. Tell you what just worry about tomorrow. Then reassess each day on that day. We have all been in that boat and you will be right back on track in no time. Look how far you've come already.

Tiff - good for you. I hope you made good choices too at lunch. I sure as **** struggle with eating out but I know I have to tackle it. In fact we are going out tonight to eat to celebrate my hard work. I WANT steak. I will just practice portion control which means that I will get yummy leftovers for tomorrow.

Thank you all for the kind words and support. What would I do without all of you?!

Hey girls. What has been up with this website lately. I missed all of you! .... so today is the beginning of my vacation! 10 days off! I'm sooooo excited. I bought plane tickets to go to baltimore to see my husband.. (with the help of you guys!.. that's what I used the $ for.. so thanks!!!!!) He won't be able to go off base. we'll have to stay by his command and have a "battle buddy" with us at all times. But at least I get to see him for a few minutes. I'm gonna sight see in baltimore and maybe drive to DC too. So.. I'm excited about that... Also, I'm getting him a lap top and that way we can webcam on thanksgiving=) Things are looking a little brighter on my end. And they haven't taken x-mas away yet... so i still have something to look forward to.


Dieting wise.. I'm doing good. I will have to come up with a plan for the trip cuz i don't want to eat out that much. Hmmm.. Exercising wise... I've been lacking.


Staccie- 2 hrs! go you! and OMG about living across from louis vuitton. That would be difficult.

AJ- Get back on the ball monday girl! You have come too far. But.. it's okay for a break. I understand. but don't make it a habit. Just look at your before/after photos. And I'm glad you are still coming on here. When i would quit in the past, I would stop coming on here and then just go crazy. So stay with us!

I'll check in more tomorrow and catch up.