Thanks everyone for being so supportive! It makes the day a little more tolerable when I have such nice replies to read. I'm still a little down, but getting better...and I have you guys to thank! Have a super day everyone!

have a great day everyone!!
hang in there!


battle of the bulge
slow and steady wins the race

Hi Gang!

I hope you all are doing well.

Molly, I think Ellis has a great suggestion. I would change your normal routine into something else. Even if its just going to the bathroom to splash some cool water on your face -- that always works for me when I get hot and if I get up because I'm hot then I'll go get a drink of water. Now if you don't want to do this because you have to go to or near the fridge, then maybe keep a cool glass/bottle by your bed. I do keep a bottle by my bed but sometimes I just need something cold and just need to get up because I'm so uncomfortable.

So

Thanks Everybody and to all!

hi guys

It's 12 midnight over here in Australia and its zzz time for me.

I hope today went well for everyone. =)

I overdid my calorie intake ( but it was just a bit over) so I'm not going to beat myself up for that. I did exercise though ( even though I didnt' feel like it)......so
that's a good compensation!

hang on there!

here to get some hugs. so of my school mates won't very nice to me...so i feel like bingeing as I want to get these horrid feelings out of me. But i am going to perservere........I have to try to remember that food is not = feeling. eating will not take away these feelings of inadequacy and loss of confidence. In fact, bingeing will make it worse afterwards and I will feel ever more lousy about myself.

I have to remember that this is life. We have to be prepared for mean people.Just remember....it's not me, it's them!


to me and to you!

Rachel

Rachel, here are some for you, sorry that one of your school mates wasn't nice to you. Sometimes people just don't even think before they speak.

Heres also some to keep from binging..........Good Job on exercising!

thanks for the hugs!!
I have been told by my close friends that I am pretty sensitive and get affected easily. So I am taking today's unpleasant episode as a learning experience...to thicken my skin up I'm told that I need that for the real world!

well, I did end up overeating....but I guess it wasn't as big a binge as I used to.( I overdid it by 600 calories) I'm still in pretty alright spirits. tomorrow will be tough as I have to cut down on my calorie consumption to erase today's food overload.


everyone

hang in there!!

here for my morning hug!

long day. long battle but i am going to work at it.

head up chin up guys!

rachel

Rachel - I too have been told I'm sensitive and so i understand. I am slowly getting to the point where I can not let things get to me as bad, but its tough. We all over do it sometimes. But I don't see how compensating the next day works? Doesn't that mess up your metabolism when you cut more calories? Just wondering.

I hope today was a better day for ya!

Lots of and to everybody!

Rachel, I've always been terribly sensitive. There are a lot of miserable people out there, but there are a lot of wonderful people, too. Those are the ones I try to focus on now. Even a smile from some stranger on the street will "make my day", and I make an effort to remember those experiences and to put the bad ones out of my mind. (easier said than done!!)
As well, I'm trying to be more tolerant of the nasty ones. (which is REALLY hard, because I feel like giving them a punch in the nose) Maybe they've suffered some terrible loss or are stressed over something. It doesn't excuse their behaviour if they're mean to me, but it does put things into better perspective, you know?
We all need to thicken our skin a little... we'd be much less stressed. Sending you a big hug, sweetie...

Sassy, big hugs for you, too!

thanks for the advice and support booster gals! It definitely helped me today!
I hope today was good for you too.

I tried to look at the good side of things today. I made it a point to look out of my window and appreciate the sky, and sights and the sounds of my scenery. It's amazing how we can be living in a area for ages and yet not notice so many things about it.

to sassy and ellis and all!!

getting and giving all my hugs again!

My very first weigh in tomorrow.
I haven't been too good in my food control but still I think that maybe a pound loss is possible? either that or no weight gain. Either way, I will be happy.

plan for tomorrow:
- cycling class
-finish case and notes!!!! ( no more procrasticating!!)
-calories under 2000, 2200 if exercising

lots of love!

Rachel

Hi Rachel, hope your day is going better for ya today.

to All

Hi!

Well, I felt the need to come to this thread- first time....

Good, I am in a bad mood, just need to rambel.
I am not really binge free, but not really binging. Somewhere in between- no good thing to be. I feel like slowly slipping away...You know that feeling when you try to hold yourself back from falling into an abyss? (Ok, in REALITY the roadrunner are one of the few creatures that actually know how it feels)

My exams is coming in 8 days (tomorrow in a week). I am HORRIFIED! first time in my life that I am really frighten because an exam. I am going from panic, to stress, hyper- active running around to optimistic to tearful and depressed (that´s true, I am not trying out my new theasaurus here).
I am tearful& lonely- oh, and did I already mentioned that there is a bit of self- pity?
I know that I am not going to die because of that exam. It would just mean to do a lot of work AGAIN. Loose maybe a year. Pay a lot of that new, shiny University fees. Feeling...not good.

Oh, and I am involved in somesort of a self- publicating (like a book on demand) book project. Would be a very, very good thing, but all the others are freelance journalists and have a lot of spare time at the time. I don´t, I have exams (I think I mentioned that already). So they are coming up with their ideas, their insights, their deep thoughts- and I am the one throwing garbage into the dish washer because I am totally "out of space" at the moment.
And if I have an idea, nobody listens. And five minutes later it´s someone elses idea and it´s ***** brilliant.
I just have a hard time fighting for my rights in that point.
And it´s all that: you are working and trying to give your best, but it´s somehow not so much honored.

My life is so messed up at the moment....not to mention the fact, that I had planned to lose weight. I look horrible!! I saw a few new pics of me! Oh NO!

Ok, to sum it up: (Did anyone hate that the way I do? Writing hundreds of words and then "sum it all up" in two sentences? So why the first blabla? Anyway) I feel as if I would be in some weird "transformation phase". If I can make it through, learn something about it and change some things, it would be helpful and good for me. If not....Go to jail, don´t pass Start and don´t take 100Euros (Do you know the Monopoly game in the USA?)

In my life, it seems that I am confronted with the same problems again and again- until I solve them.

Girls, I need more courage at the moment. I know, I just can find it inside of me- but there is some chocolate, swimming in orange juce (I declared that as "3. meal". Yeah, I am VERY GOOD...)at the moment, which is ruining my insight. Maybe tomorrow.

Uff, ok, thanks for reading it (and giessing what I wanted to say. Noone could say that I am not talented: I can write a lot of self- pity ramblings & present a nice- grammar/ word riddle. I should do that professionally).

I´ll be back when I am feeling better!

Kate

Oh, Kate. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you. I wish I could simply say something mundane like, "Let it go. It'll all be the same in a hundred years", and everything would be alright. But I know this IS an important time in your life.
I guess what it comes down to is that you can't do any more than your best. You can't push your mind or your body any further than it's willing to go.
You know, now when I look back at what I used to think were "four wasted years of college", I realize that I did the best I could considering all that I was going through at the time.
And I understand what you're saying about other people getting credit for ideas when you don't. That happens to me frequently. I've tried standing up for myself, but it just comes out "*****y", you know? So I'm learning just to step back and listen to my own applause.
You're not alone, Kate... sending you hugs and prayers to get you through the next few weeks...