private recruit rachel reporting for duty sir!
tough day ahead. Sprained my ankle and it is making me binge.
Ate loads yesterday and the feeling of defeat is making me want to throw in the towel. But I mustn't. Because though I took a step backwards yesterday, I dont have to self destruct and take more steps backwards. That will only mean that I will have to work even harder to get myself out of the hole that I dug myself. Got to think logically. Got to think rationally. Got to get mysef out of my self-imposed prision. think prison break. wenthworth miller. hottie. ( haha...sorry making sense...it's the urge to binge, the urgent desire to stuff food down my throat that is making me all loopy. it's the withdrawal symptoms

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I can't believe that I am a druggie. I told myself that i would never smoke, I would not overdrink, I won't take drugs.....but it's obvious that I am an addict. It's hard to admit to it. Addict makes me think of 'loss of control, 'irrational', but I guess I am 1. The withdrawal symptoms are making me go crazy......
duties for today:
-finish yesterday's notes. Complete this chapter of work.
-pack and clean up my room
- no bingeing
- relax, relax, relax
loopy doopey signing off sir!