Well just to let you girls know - today i walked on the treadmill. I don't know if I pushed myself too hard or if i'm just out of shape (i'm hoping its the first one) but i felt like i could quite possibly pass out. it was terrible. when i was finished i lay on the lfoor and just caught my breath. im hoping this does get easier - does this happen to anyone else? part of me was happy that i actually worked up a sweart but the other part was sad because it was too much a little disappointing, but i will keep on going.

congrats pink of your sis commenting on your weight. i can't wait until i'm at that point too! i know that it mucst have made you feel really good to hear those words i'm really so very happy for you. i'm also really glad that you have a buddy now (besides me, ha ha) to talk to and motivate. that is wonderful news.

how is everyone else doing that looks on this post? i hope y'all are having a good day and just so you know... i did something new today that i've never done - i practiced starting to really like myself and i took notice of the things that i do like about myself. it made me feel happy that there is more to me than just bingeing.

(by the way, what is the correct spelling of that word? is it bingeing or binging?)

thanks for listening girls

LOL Sarah, good for you for putting the treadmill in your kitchen! Good choice! Sounds like something I would do LOL.

And Pink... you are only supposed to start out on a treadmill for about 10 minutes and at low speeds; and work you way up to more. Sounds like you maybe did waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much the first time! You can damage your heart by overdoing it too quickly.

Hi Pink,

I was in the same boat as you a few weeks back and though some of you ladies may not know me from the boards (been a member for a while, but I mostly just read) and I can tell you - you already know deep down inside what to do. Like me, the trouble is actually doing it! It is difficult and yes, there will be bad days...even though I am NOWHERE near my goal, talking and reading about other's experiences has made everything click. I lost just over 2lbs this week and I feel like I'm on cloud nine right now.

hi girls,

well misti according to what you said I really over did it. i was on the treadmill for like 30 minutes and switching between walking really fast to running. i didn't feel bad while i was doing it, but right when i finished is when it felt like a ton of bricks fell on me. it was bad. i felt sick the whole night last night -c an you believe it? you probably can...

hi amy - thanks for what you said and congrats on the 2lbs. i know that you must feel so wonderful... i have yet to lose any weight, ubt i know that it is coming. you are so right about there being so much support on here too. i really find that helpful and i enjoy reading what everyone says.

you know today is day 3, i think for me. as you may have read, i bought an ebook and found that it helped me make things click inside my head... i didn't binge the first day or the 2nd, which i was so happy about. yesterday i didn't have a full binge, which is good, but i did eat more than i wanted to. i ended up giving in and eating some candy and chips, but no where near the amount that i would have before. at first i was really bummed, but then i readlized something that i read in that book and that is: 1. things aren't going to miraculously change overnight and 2. i can't have the all or nothing mentality. in the past, i would have thought "oh well, i already ate it, so now i will continue" whereas this time I stopped. i thought this was a huge accomplsihment for me that day because it made me realize that i'm changing into the person that i want to be... slowly changing, but changing nonetheless. it was just really nice AND i didn't beat myself up about it. isn't that great?

hope you girls have a nice day today Thanks again for all of the support

Hi Pink

Oh I can relate only TOO well because I too have a tendency to put everything I've got into it rather than starting off slowly and building up! But hey, glad you are okay sounds like!

That is great about your stopping before you totally binged... LOL I know that thinking too that I've already blown it so may as well go ahead! Sounds like you have some great thinking and good attitude... hang in there. You will get this thing going and once you are on track it will become a lot more natural!

THanks Misti - I'm sure hoping that this will get easier. i feel more in control, but the urges are still there.. i guess that is normal. i just wish there was a quick fix and i could snap my fingers and be all better.

yesterday i ate pretty good - again no binges, which is almost a miracle. i did eat 3 peices of pizza, but not the hwole box, so that is good. but it is still a struggle and i find myself going back to the ebook more and more to just feel like what i am going thru is normal.

I will get there!!

Where is Sarah lately????

Hi Pink

I think it does get easier... the more you say "no" to yourself, like any other discipline, the more it begins to become a habit!! You're off to a great start!!!!

Hey pink! so funny!

I just got in here and was replying to a private message and then saw that you posted, and then asked about me! Say that 10 times fast! HE HE HE!

I've been busy helping my sister move which is great because my arms and legs are REALLY hurting! I'll be staying over there again tonight and she doesn't have a computer, so I will not be able to come back on and read.

And PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT YOU GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so proud of you. You have come so far so quickly. Congratulations! Yet more days with you staying in control. Do you see how it gets easier? OMG... I forgot to mention, I talked to Kristin on the phone a couple of nights ago. She is so nice and helpful! I had some questions, emailed her and she asked for my number and called me. I even told her about you and how much her book has helped you and she said for you to send her an email sometime to say hi. Its so funny because I was so nervous to talk to her but she was so helpful.

OH!!! And I have more GREAT news!!! I'm going to be moving in with my sister for ahile at her new house. I will have my own seperate area which is private and has more room than my partment!!!! That means that I won't have to put my treadmill in my kitchen! I will actually have my own work out room!

I've been writing out all of my goals and dreams lately and going back through them, I am amazed at what is happening!

I was so sad that I was going to have to put my treadmill in my kitchen. I mean I was excited about it, but I just wished that i could afford a bigger place. And look at me now, I am moving into a bigger place with my own living room, kitchen, work out room (which I may have to share ) and bed room that is MUCH bigger than before and I am paying 1/2 as much for rent!!!!

This stuff works girls! I'm just so excited. OK... gotta grab a bit to eat (a salad with chicken, water, 1/2 a apple, and a pickle.) and then head back to my sis's house.

Keep well everyone!

wow...
I have read the whole tread and feel so connected to all of you. My story is long and much the same. I know I have BED and for a while I had it under control, but stressors that have continued for over a year have lead me to binge almost every day.
I am destroying my body. I know this. I'm worried about my heart and added fat to my already petite frame. I feel useless and gross at this time.

I read Kristin's site and some of her journal entries. She seems such a wise woman for her years...
I tried all diets, including OA, which didn't help for me. I'm just at the end of my rope, for now I feel better as I read all of your words..
bless you all
purple

hi purple, this is pink.. hee hee

i'm really happy that this thread is one that you can relate to. i was feeling pretty worthless and just so down when i wrote it, but as you can see, i am feeling better day by day. i guess this is just what it is about - taking it one day at a time and not beating yourself up about anything. it's a hard process, but i haven't binged in some days now (I think 5, go me!) but like you read above - it's such a struggle and i think that we can all relate to that.

i'm so happy that you deicded to post on here. i've found a lot of support from the few people that have posted to this thread. there's is something so nice about knowing people out there that you don't even know aare rooting for you

i'm so sorry that you are feeling gross all of the time that really makes me sad to hear.

personally, i dont think diets are the answer. i've tried many too and i always went back to bingeing. those times were the times where my binge eating was actually worse...

i hope that youll continue posting on here and keeping us informed about how you are doing... i've found it really nice to post once a day and i like to think that people are reading it it just makes me feel better and almost holds me accountable for anything.

what other things have you tried, if you dont mind me asking?

I am brand new, but have learned from you new friends already.
Thank you for being here!
patkid

Pat, I'm so glad we're joining us! Please feel welcome to join us in the other threads.

hmm diets I tried...
cambridge diet, weight watchers, fasting, jenny craig, atkins, cabbage soup diet, the makers diet, south beach, medifast, counting calories.
Did they all work? yes they did, but I never had the mind set to stick to any of them. In 1999 I lost 50 pounds on weight watchers and was almost to goal. I platued and stayed at that weight for 4 years, I rarely binged. In 04 I had some health issues which are still recurring somewhat and my bingeing started again, I have gained the weight back and then some.
I have a small frame and I feel out of breath and very out of shape.I started walking on the treadmill yesterday and could almost cry at how flabby I am and how I could barely hit 3.0 on the treadmill. I used to run 4 miles daily!
I'm taking it day by day and yes, diets don't work, everytime I start one I feel deprived and then binge.
I'm trying to eat healthy, fruits, veggies and whole grains. I think what helps me is to eat three meals a day with two small healthy snacks inbetween, like fruit and yogart. I'm measuring out my portions to get back to what a healthy portion is...
Today I will be binge free..
Purple~

i'm proud of you purple. i know that it's hard work to stay binge free, as it's only been short of a week for me. but everything counts, right??

i think that you hit it on the nail when you said what you are eating. i have been finding lately that when i am eating more haelthy and having 2 snacks along with breakfast, lunch, and dinner that i just feel better. i'm not as hungry and i don't have too many urges to binge. i just think that you are doing the right thing, especially since it seems to be working for you. congrats on that!!

Hi
day two binge free. This is a challenge for me as my college aged kids are home from school this week. They have junk food around and this is challenging.
My goal for today is to up my fruit and veggies and drink more water.
Have a binge free day!!