Shirl, congratulations on your progress! Keep it up, girl!!
Upswife, I hope you're back on track, hon. It's easy to hunker down with food when the weather is lousy.
I'm having a pretty good week. The gifts are wrapped, the decorating is done, and I'm starting to plan our Christmas meals.
We went to TWO Christmas parties on Saturday night! PHEW! Difficult for someone as anti-social as me.
Thanks Ellis for the encouragement. It was just an awful night, we were not even supposed to be home, then it started snowing. I had nothing planned for dinner and was just not ready to cook. (It too DH 4hrs to come home~53mi)
I am doing better so far, but it is really tough. Hitting Mid-cycle and I just want to eat everything in sight. But, I know that if I can control my stomache and keep exercising, it will be better in the long run. Keep your fingers crossed, I am 2lbs away from my chrismas goal!
Dh's job is really stressful through the holidays and there has been some crossover. (he does't mean to, but he brings it home with him) I just have to keep reminding both of us to take it one day at a time and soon Christmas will be over. Don't get me wrong, I love the holidays, but it has been difficult to enjoy them that last couple of years. The only thing I look forward to is Midnight mass. It is very comforting to be in the church with all the candles lit and listening to DH sing with the choir (plus the kiddies sleep through it so I can actually pay attention) Well, I have been a tad long winded so I will sign off. Tomorrow is another day! Have a Great week Everyone!
when you joined this group...did you find yourself more emotional? By that I mean,,,you were thinking of what your eating is doing to you/family?
I have lurked on here for over a week and came in and posted a couple of days ago...and since then have had this place on my mind since...my emotional eating has caused me alot of pain. Both emotional and physical. Im over 280 lbs..5'6. I wasn't always this big...and hate that I am. Which makes me eat more,,which makes me hate more,,,blah blah blah
I am a control freak,,,I grew up in anything but a controled enviroment. It was total chaos. And at 17 I ran, got myself an apartment,,finished highschool. And did well for myself. I am still like that,,,needing control, neat and order in my life. And find if I can't have that I am flundering,,,and of course I eat.
So Ive felt pretty emotional this past few days. Just wondering if I am the only one who has felt this way? I don't think so but would like reassurance
Happy Holidays everyone! Its been a while since I posted here but I always enjoy reading the posts for encouragement. I am trying to keep myself on a 1200 cal diet and exersize everday and hopefully make it past 5 days with no binges so far I'm on day 2. I have read every book and peice of information about binging I can lay my hands on but have not found a real sollution yet. I know that when I binge for myself it is usually emotional so I'm trying to talk myself through them instead of eating. Any suggestions?
Yes, Angie, I did experience an emotional upheaval when I first joined this group. I'd never before identified myself as having an eating disorder, and it was a real shock to discover that there were other people out there just like me. A LOT of other people!
I think the discomfort you're feeling is a very good thing. It's easy to fluff off the issues behind over/under eating. Eating is such a quick comfort for us. Feeling uneasy about what you're doing to yourself is a big step towards the healing.
Upswife, I'm sorry the holidays are a stressful time for you. I'll be saying prayers for you and your family.
Many of us (myself included... big time!) have certain expectations for the holidays, and when we're not able to fulfill them, we feel that "something isn't right". If only we could learn to relax and enjoy what we have...
Sorry, hon... ... I wasn't relating that to YOU! I was just thinking of myself, and how I have so many plans and too little time. (and money)
Good luck with the two pounds, girl!
Janis, welcome back!
One thing you could try is making a "comfort box". I learned about this in day hospital.
Find or make a box, and put in it things that are very special and meaningful to you. Photos, a candle and matches (or a pretty lighter), a little container of nice-smelling hand cream, a favourite book of poems, a cartoon that makes you laugh, a letter, some special little gift given from someone you love... etc.
Get it out when you're feeling "out of control", and remind yourself of who you are. Remind yourself of how special you are... to yourself and to others.
Do as I say, not as I do... I'm just thinking of my own comfort box... I haven't added to it in ages, and it's not in an accessible spot.
I'm going through a real binge period, and I'm so mad at myself. I'm going to get on the treadmill right now...
Hi, all. Sounds like we all have holiday emotional issues. I know I have. I've been cheating a bit on my fast. In my program, we have to fill out a form every week stating the number of calories in, number out (exercise), the projected weight loss, our weight and whether or not we've strayed from the fast. Well, I've been lying on my form and not fessing up to the extra calories. I figure as long as I'm losing (about a lb a week) I don't have to put up with the doom and gloom. But of course this is a game I'm playing with myself, who is the one that's being cheated. I had pre-planned to go off it during the holidays a bit, but haven't told the group leader yet. Will have to do so next week because I'm going to the office xmas lunch on the same day as my group meeting and weigh-in. Sigh.
So the truth is, Angie, it's a constant struggle for all of us.
Ellis, I'm sorry about your binge. Can you somehow talk yourself out of it?
Ellis what a clever idea...I like that. I have a heart shaped box..Im a trinket junkie and love having them near.
As much as I hate to say this,,I really am glad Im not alone in how Im feeling. As weird as this seems Ive always would raither face my demons,,,and know who my enemies are then to hide and worry. So ok this Emotional Eating (EE) has to be controled,,,and to know how to do that is my self discovery.
Hi.. I thought I would pop in and say hello on the monthly thread.
I haven't made an real change since this time last year - so coming into the New Year it was the reason for me to address that I have an inappropraite relationship with food.. this whole year just feels like one enormous struggle with my weight and emotions.... sorta glad for it to be done and to think more positively towards the next year.
Thanks ellis what a great idea. Well I made it through day 2 with no problems. I have been reading a new book on overeating and some "food" for thought for everyone "Who says that our bodies are less than idea? By who's standards do we judge ourselves?" I was thinking about when we start to loose confidence in ourselves, at what moment does that begin? Then I started thinking about our children and how they might think we're beautiful and when the find that we don't see ourselves that way the start to doubt their own self image. Thinking about where I was last year at this time, I was knee deep in an eating disorder with my resolution being to get into a normal relationship with food/myself. I can say that I have made progress but I'm not "there" yet. Sorry to ramble Janis
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... Then I started thinking about our children and how they might think we're beautiful and when the find that we don't see ourselves that way the start to doubt their own self image.
That's so true, Janis. A couple of years ago, I was talking about my diet in front of our children. My then 7 year old son started crying. He gave me a big hug, and said, "I don't want you to change. I love you just the way you are."
It was so sweet. It reminded me to be happy with who I am on the inside, regardless of what I look like on the outside.
Marianna, this is going to be a great year for us!
Angie, when the name of this forum was changed from "Eating Disorders" to "Chicks in Control", some of the members didn't like it. But I think it's something we have to face up to. Yes, we may have an eating disorder, but we are capable of being in control. Not constantly, perhaps, but we don't have to "give in and give up".
Rosetta, thanks for your support, hon. I think I'm starting to move away from the binging.
Sweetie, mark those extra calories down! You may be still losing, but if you stop, you need to know why. Don't try fooling yourself... you're too smart for that, girl. Sending you hugs and strength...
I'm having a coffee with my mom today, then am going to pick up some beading for an evening wrap I'm making her. I found the most fabulous fabric for it...
Good morning all! I just got done shovelling Snow/ice/sleet from the driveway. I had a really slow wtart this morning, but eventually got my behind up. My next move is to get the girls all bundled up and go apply for my passport. It is not required, but DH has a hispanic last name and wants to make sure that we get back in the country after our cruise. I am so excited, but now I am starting to worry about packing and all the little details that go into a big trip like this. We have never done anything like this before. This will be our first big trip without the kiddies (grandma is watching them)
I know i am rambling on, but I have to keep my mind on something other than the fact that next week is going to be really rough. DH has been working 13-16 hr days and things are expected to be BAD next week. But I did find out some good news~the whole family on my dad's side is going to my aunt's house for Christmas Eve! This is the only party I look forward to for the food (traditional Polish meal) I can't wait. And the kids like getting together with all the cousins.
Oh I like Chicks in Control better then eating disorder.
I joined Weight Watchers 2 montsh ago and have so far lost 10.8 lbs I of course wish that Ive lost more. But I see the light at the end of the tunnel with feeling more in control. I have a journal that I write everything in,,,and I have a tracker book from WW. I find that when I don't track my foods,,,my mentality gets to be like,,,what food? So I will be writing everything down along with my feels and such in my journal.
My best friend who made me join with her,,,asked me what I liked best about WW,,,since I was new to it,,,and I said,,love the control Im in. I think the control is based on that tracker book though. So need to control the tracker. And the food will follow...geesh I sound like Field of Dreams.
Upswife,,,oh to be going on a cruise,,,lucky you. Pack a lil first aid kit,,,anti nausea..pepto, advil. Pack an extra bag. And lots of film!
Angie~It hadn't dawned on me to bring that much of a first aid kit. I was just thinking pain killers and bandaids, but I think you are right. I will start more planing a little into January.
I am going to have my hands full. I am watching my Three youngest Siblings for three weeks while my mom and sister are on theri trip down under. So I will have 3 boys and 3 girls(b-11y, 8.5y and 5.5y~g-6y, 3.5y, 2.5y) full time for three weeks. I must be nuts! Although my dad will have them on the weekends. But still I am not going to get anything done. My sisbs are home-schooled so I will not even be able to send them off to school. the only one that will be gone is DS he goes to half day kindergarden. Well, I just keep rambling, I have to go start dinner.
Upswife,,,may want to start talking them drugs now...6 kids for three weeks..yikes. I have a girlfriend who has 6 children...but its different when they are all yours...ya know what i mean?
I only have 2 boys,,,but they always had 1 or 2 friends over all the time. so there were alot of times where there was 5-6 wild kids in the house.
Well I need to go and get myself ready,,,have a root canal appointment...oh joy!
Hi everyone
I'd never before identified myself as having an eating disorder, and it was a real shock to discover that there were other people out there just like me. A LOT of other people! 
If only we could learn to relax and enjoy what we have... 
... I wasn't relating that to YOU! I was just thinking of myself, and how I have so many plans and too little time. (and money) 
I'm going to get on the treadmill right now...
Thanks ellis what a great idea. Well I made it through day 2 with no problems. I have been reading a new book on overeating and some "food" for thought for everyone "Who says that our bodies are less than idea? By who's standards do we judge ourselves?" I was thinking about when we start to loose confidence in ourselves, at what moment does that begin? Then I started thinking about our children and how they might think we're beautiful and when the find that we don't see ourselves that way the start to doubt their own self image. Thinking about where I was last year at this time, I was knee deep in an eating disorder with my resolution being to get into a normal relationship with food/myself. I can say that I have made progress but I'm not "there" yet. Sorry to ramble Janis
