[lateralus98]

Hang in there Rikki. Just keep moving along! I'll keep you in my prayers!

[sapphire9]

Good Afternoon all. I made it through another weekend. It doesn't get easier. I'm still eyeing that biscotti (figured out it's about 125 calories). I know I should probably stay out of Peets (the coffee place) but I so look forward to my weekly cappucino. Although I'm rarely hungry, I'm often thinking about the food I'll eat when I get off this fast. And yet in reality, I know that I can never eat like I was. My health just can't stand up to it anymore. When I'm done with the fast, I will take a resting metabolism test which tells you how many calories you burn in a day. The generic rule is your weight times 10%, but I know I'm way below that number, as many overweight people are. That number will be the guideline for the future. I suppose I'll stop obsessing with food so much when I finally start exercising.
Melissa - don't worry about that skinny blonde girl. She has to run faster because she doesn't burn as many calories as you do when exercising. Congratulations on having a healthy in-control weekend.
Ellis - six hours of garden work. Whew! You need a massage, lady! That comfort box is a nice idea. I sometimes look at old letters or cards or photos (especially the ones where I'm thin ).
Rikki and Manu - Just let go of the bad days and start counting the good days. Eventually, if you stick with it, the good days will outnumber the bad.
Sisley - You don't have to bare you soul every time you post. Just say what's comfortable for you and come around whenever you can.
Later - welcome to the group. You have a busy schedule, but I'm sure you can find time for that needed exercise. It will make you mind sharper.

[HourglassLass]

Hi all, I hope everyone is doing well!

Ellis sweetie - Hey there! It's good to 'see' you! I'm so glad those shin splints have almost healed! I remember girls back in school who used to suffer with those and it always seemed so painful! I hope they go away soon! So you knew a guy who ate cat kibbles huh? Oh man... I remember a strange little boy in elementary school I knew who used to eat cupcake wrappers! I really hope he outgrew that! SIX hours of gardening? You must have a true green thumb! My idea of gardening is watering my hanging basket! I love plants but my cats are crazy things and I'm afraid they'll eat them! I guess I'll have to stick to silk. I have, however, promised myself that when I get around to buying property, I will NOT buy a house. I will buy a condo so someone else can do all the yardwork for me! I don't relish the idea of potting plants and mowing grass in Florida summers! Way too hot!

Sisley - I'm sorry to lose your company on here but we all have to come to terms with our inner selves in due course. I do hope you find the answers and support you're looking for and that you come back soon. I wish you the very best of luck!

Manu - It sure sounds like your head is in the right place! Take it from me, the queen of binges, that there is always tomorrow. We all slip and slide on the weightloss path but that doesn't mean that one bad day will undo all the good we've done. I think you're doing wonderfully and that weight will come off. I think we all just have to reach a point where the weightloss want outdoes our need/want for the bad stuff. It doesn't mean that we won't ever slip again or gain a few pounds here and there, but I do believe that we get closer every time. You just hang in there and pat yourself on the back for having such a great attitude!!!

Rikki - Same for you chickadee! I'm a living example that food can severely overrun our best of intentions at times, but that's okay! The key is knowing that all is not lost because of one bad day or a few bad choices. I think you're doing great and having one bad day is much better than a bad week or month. You've come a long way and I think you should be proud of yourself!

Lateralus - Welcome back to the forum and it's great to have you in our thread!! You must be incredibly busy! No wonder it's so difficult to find time to exercise! I admit that I haven't been to Curves in almost two weeks because I hate going. All gyms bore me to tears so it's very hard to get the motivation to go. Nonetheless, you'll get where you want to be. I often believe that it's easier to make yourself exercise when you can see the results. Once I'm thinner and I can actually see the muscles through the fat, I may have a different outlook! I think you're doing amazingly well just keeping your head above water with your existing schedule! Hurrah for you!

Rosetta - Good for you for saying no to that biscotti! I swear food grows mouths when they get near to anyone on a diet. And those little mouths speak all sorts of evil to get you to eat them! It's like being in Wonderland! Might as well have a little tag that says "eat me"! But you have done so well and remained strong! Good for you! The scales will definitely reward you well!

As for me... well I had a few Tostitos on Saturday - and I mean just a few! And of course my IBS kicked off. I'm convinced that I can't eat anything but my supplements anymore. I think someone is trying to tell me something! So, at 2am on Sunday morning I was off to CVS Pharmacy to get some Pepcid. I finally got to sleep around 3:30am and decided I've SO had enough of this! I don't know why I insist on doing this to myself, but I think I'm beginning to get an idea... because I think I'll beat it! I keep thinking, well if I drink extra water I'll be okay or if I take a gas pill before I eat I'll be okay or if I chew the food into mush before I swallow I'll be okay... but it never is! So, I give up on this cheating crap. Which is a good thing. Although I do worry that when I reach my goal I still won't be able to eat proper food. At least by then I'll have a doctor who can maybe explain to me why everything makes me sick!

The good news is that I've dropped another 3lbs so I've finally hit the 40lbs mark! I'm not changing my ticker until Wednesday - maybe I can milk another pound out of this week for a 4lb loss but I'm not holding my breath. Either way I'm happy though - finally I'm out of that 30lbs domain!

I'm sorry I wasn't on over the weekend again. Some girl driving her daddy's Jaguar thought it would be nice to cut me off on Friday afternoon! So, to avoid hitting her, I had to ram one of our construction barrels on the job site instead. It dented my car and took the side mirror completely off! Consequently... I had to take yesterday off work to go and get estimates. Good grief what a pain. Luckily no one was hurt (of course why would she be? She didn't hit anything because I took the impact myself! Grrr..) but she seems to think daddy will write out a check for me to have the repairs done. I don't know if he'll choose to do that or not seeing as though there's about $1,800 in damage! Plus they're going to have to shell out for a rental car for 5 days while my car is fixed. Jeeze why can't people drive? And then to top it off her stupid insurance company told her - get this! - NOT to give me her insurance details!!! Have you ever heard of such a thing? Well the Sheriff told her she could give them to me or she could have a few tickets! Needless to say... she gave them to me. THEN he called the Florida Highway Patrol because she didn't have her license on her! I have a pretty good feeling that her parents will be accommodating - seeing as how the FHP asked ME if it was okay that he didn't write her a ticket and I agreed. Sometimes I'm so nice I could puke ya know?

Anyway, everyone take care and I hope the scale god smiles at you all!

Alisha

[happykay]

Hi!..I am new, and after reading this..you all seem so nice! I too have some weight to lose, my first goal is 50. I was laughing hard over the "biscotti" discussion, in my warped thinking, I think because they are "crunchy" they should be fiber...no??..LOL
Also, I am obsessed with my scale, which is probably strange for a "chubby" girl, but I am, weigh everyday! So..glad to meet you all!

[lateralus98]

to the group happy kay! My goal is to lose 60 lbs. altogether, but we'll see how that goes! I'm a scale addict as well, I can NEVER stop weighing myself, no matter how hard I may try!

HourGlassLass -- SO sorry to hear about your car! I can't stand ignorant drivers like that. Hopefully the parents will be kind about all this and you get everything you need. Hang in there!

rosettastone -- it's so hard to stay away from snacks like that! In fact, when I'm on a diet all these wonderful junk foods invade my mind and I can't stop thinking about them the rest of the day! Hope you have better luck than I do!

[sherpamelissa]

Hey everyone. I am almost back to doing my normal job here so I'll have more time soon.

I'm staying on plan, of course, weekdays are easy. Big hugs for all that need them.

[sapphire9]

Hi, all. Just a quickie drive-by. Alisha - congrats on the 40 lbs! Way to go girl! Hope daddy picks up the repair bill without any hassles. For those scale fiends, I'm tempted to do it every day too. However, I manage to keep the weigh-ins to twice a week - Tuesday evening at the clinic and Saturday a.m. at home. My home weigh-ins seem to be about 7 lbs less than the clinic but I'm tracking the clinic weight. Just makes me feel good to know it's less. Bye, gotta go get my hair cut.

[RLK2005]

Hello everyone! I had my weigh in tonight and I gained 0.2 lbs but I was pretty relieved at the piddly gain. I am ready for the new week--I am actually feeling positive!

Thanks for the encouragement everyone! What a nice group! I feel like I am always whining...

Alisha--Congrats on that 40 lb mark! That is awesome! Not cheating is a goal--maybe I am ready to declare that?!?

Welcome happykay!

I hope everyone has a great week. Talk to you later...

Rikki

[lateralus98]

Glad you're feeling positive even though you had a small gain, Rikki!

[RLK2005]

Thanks!

I had a great day today--one day down!

[sherpamelissa]

Sorry I haven't been posting ladies. I have been fighting an awful urge to binge for the last two days. I hurt my back on Monday, I think, trying to lift too much weight and not watching my form. So I took two days off from exercise. Unfortunately, any time I am off my schedule I have to fight the urge to binge constantly. It's like knowing I am not exercising gives me an excuse to blame a weight gain on, so I feel like I can eat crap. Not sure what that is all about.

And that sad thing is that all I skipped was one day. One of those was a planned rest day. Today I only did a 1/2 hour bike ride instead of an hour run - but that little difference makes me feel guilty. And hey! - I'm already feeling badly about myself, so I might as well eat bad.

Yesterday, I fought it off all day. I ended up eating a little too much at dinner and two halloween size packs of m&m minis. But really, I only came out with an extra 250 calories. My daughter feel asleep in the car on the way to pick up dinner last night and my mind starts reeling. I want to stop at every fast food place and grab food and gobble it up with no one seeing me. Lucky for me, my brain is smarter. I even ordered the steamed veggies instead of the baked potato with my dinner.

So, I lost 2lbs this week, I hope this is going to inspire me to make it through the weekend on plan.

[sapphire9]

Hi, all. Rikki, I'm glad things are going well. Just keep on doing it.
Melissa, I can emphathize with you and the bingeing urge. I had one of my own yesterday. All day long I was craving real food - like a corned beef sandwich or a pizza (caused by someone bringing one up in the office elevator leaving behind the wonderful scent of garlic which lingered all day). I remembered I had a couple of packages of saltines in my desk. So I spent the afternoon fantasizing about them with the leftover cream cheese from the office bagels. I was hungry so in late afternoon I had a shake. Wasn't satisfied so had an apple (isn't legal on my program but I have a small 50-calorie one daily anyway). Still wasn't satisfied. so after some handwringing and mind gaming I gave in, got out a packet of cracker (2 to a packet - 25 cals.) and retrieved the cream cheese. Umm. It tasted good. My hunger was finally satisfied. But did I stop there? Nooo. I went for the other packet and downed a couple of extra dollops of the cream cheese. Did I feel good? Nooo. I felt guilty and betrayed - by myself. It didn't matter that I only ingested perhaps an extra 100-125 calories. I felt the same as if I'd binged on a big meal. Intellectually I know why I'm doing this and that it is good for me physically and spiritually. But my emotions kick in and sometimes get the better of me. I need to renew my resolve -- again. I have a nice little book of essays written by a buddhist priest or nun. She has one chapter on addiction which is very good and somehow reached me. I'll have to read that again. There is a good quote in there which I'll share with you when I find it.
Anyway, Melissa, get back on the bike and stop persecuting yourself for the slip. The 2 lbs. show that you have not lost the game.
Have a good weekend all.

[sherpamelissa]

Good morning all!

Sorry to have disappeared a bit. I took the weekend off and tried to relax. My hurt back traveled up my shoulder to my previously injured left deltoid. I thought if I was less stressed and just relaxed it would help a bit. I kept busy all weekend, didn't stick to my plan, went out for an adult evening with hubby and friends. I ate waaaaaaaay too much. For the first time in probably over a year I didn't track all my food. I was being all zen about this and stuff. When we went out it was an all you can eat buffet and everyone overate. We were all moaning and groaning, it was free too! I was pretty happy with my weekend off until I stepped on the scale this morning. I was up 6 pounds! In three days?! I know some of it *again* is water because we drank beer and stuff too and my body takes awhile to readjust. I am absolutely disgusted with myself over this. I am now back to "obese" on the BMI chart. At 160 I was still severely overweight, but almost moderately overweight. My next big goal was 157 which was only 3lbs away. Now it is 9. Ah, well - here we go again. I think if you counted all the pounds I have lost and regained and lost I would be down about 1000!

[lateralus98]

Hey everyone, haven't been here in a few days, I've been busy with work & school. I made the Dean's List! So I'm pretty happy with that. I've been doing pretty good on my dieting and exercising, I lost 2 lbs in the past week or so, so I'm down to 153. My goal is 149 by October 31st! Wish me luck!

Anyways, I'm going to eat some breakfast, hope to talk to you all later!

[sapphire9]

Hi all. This thread has been kind of quiet lately. Where are all those lurkers? Melissa, sorry about your weekend. I doubt if I could have resisted a free all-you-can-eat buffet. (Actually, I finally gave in to the biscotti urge last weekend ) You'll probably lose most of the gained weight quickly because it's probably water. Rachel, congrats on the 2 lbs. and making the Dean's List. I changed my tracker to reflect my at-home weight rather than the clinic weigh-ins. There is usually a 6-7 lb. difference between them and I keep forgetting what the clinic weight is. Would rather record the lower weight anyway. of course, that means the starting weight is lower, but I'm not sure how much. I won't change my avatar for awhile. That man that is losing weight quickly lost 11 lbs. (!) last week. I lost only 3. It sort of parallels "The Biggest Loser."