The funny thing for me is that weighing myself everyday wasn't a problem before. I actually found it very encouraging. I think it might be because I'm at a low weight that I'm not used to, so any loss or gain is a bigger deal. I think now just looking in the mirror is a big enough encouragement because I can really see the difference.
Milo is a chocolate malt drink that's sold in Australia and in some Asian countries. It comes in a powder form and you're supposed to mix it in with milk, however I have a tendency to eat it plain. I find that binging tends to make the stress worse in the long run. I actually think that I'm using it as a form of procrastination.
And you haven't hijacked my thread! Post as much as you want
As for how well I've been doing today, the binging urges have decided to return. I think I've discovered new enabling behaviour, these being going through the food aisle where all of the junk food is and obsessing over the food, as well as going on youtube and watching recipes for yummy things. Definitely need to stop doing that. So far I haven't given in.
In the last month I've gotten into the habit of bingeing 1 to 2 times a week. I can't seem to go a week without having a massive binge and because of it my weight has been bouncing up and down between 66 and 68 kilos and I'm not really losing weight. I'm also starting to get painful stomach problems from it.
I've decided to just go a week without bingeing, which is until next Tuesday. I think I need a small achievable goal and somewhere to post about it. I really want to give it up for good and never do it again, but what I'm currently doing is not working.
That's great newes and I'm so proud of you! Keep up the good work
That's great newes and I'm so proud of you! Keep up the good work
Thankyou!!
I nearly binged last night, but managed to stop before it was too late. However, the urges carried out to this morning and I gave in . I think I went through a can of skim condensed milk, half a pack of chocolate mini muffins, a large piece of cheesecake and a large aerobar. Then there's the large bottle of diet Pepsi.
I think I need a reset. I'm going to try to last till next Saturday. I'm going to increase my calories from 1350 to 1750. I'm under quite bit of stress, so I think I need to focus less on weight loss and more on other areas of my life.
Amy, sorry you slipped up a bit!!
I'm tempted to say it doesn't sound so bad as far as binges go (more like a big treat meal?), but I know everyone binges differently, so I know it could be really devastating for you. ):
On the bright side though: you said you lasted through an evening not binging before giving in! That's super!! Any time you resist even a little, it's building up the power to do it again, I think. Plus, you really made it quite a good few days before binging, didn't you?
I hope you're able to put it behind you and get right back on track! That's the important thing now.
Also, did you learn any lessons from the binge? It can be helpful to view it as a learning experience, IMO-- helps in forgiving yourself. (:
I hope you enjoy the weekend!
I screwed up again today. I'm kind of disapointed in myself that I didn't even try. Luckily I'm feeling a lot more motivated for tomorrow. I'm going to get my week!
mottainai: I think the difference between a big treat meal and a binge for meal is the reasons behind it. I've been struggling with an assignment that I may fail and get kicked out of the course if I do fail, and I'm binge eating to try and make myself feel better. With big treats, it tends to be because I'm really craving a certain food, or I'm out enjoying myself. Binging in the morning is a big problem because I know I'll probably binge throughout the day, which I ended up doing both yesterday and today. Still, you've made me realize that it really was a pretty small binge. I've actually noticed a change in my binging behaviour. Yesterday I didn't finish the mini cupcakes because they didn't taste anywhere near as good as I thought they would, and if I was going to binge, I'm not going to do it on crap tasting food. Normally I wouldn't have noticed. These past two days I've also stopped when I started to feel sick, but not to the point that I thought I might throw up. It's like I'm becoming more in tuned to my bodies wants and needs. Some of the stuff I bought for my binge this morning even lasted till the evening. Normally I would have finished all of it, and then gone back to a different shop for more. The compulsive binging is becoming less compulsive. I might actually be able to kick this nasty habit.
A big hug for you, Amy!
The day after is always so hard, isn't it? I don't know about you, but the day after I've binged, I'm usually feeling disappointed that I binged but not all that bad physically, so I still feel like it's legitimate to binge again to deal with the disappointment from the previous day!
Wow, but the fact that your behavior is getting less compulsive is amazing! It's so great that you were tuned in enough to realize that the food actually didn't taste good and also stopped before you got physically sick. Really, that's a huge step in the right direction!! It sounds to me like you're making progress.
I'm also glad you're still coming back and posting even when you've slipped up. I know that when I do, I sometimes tend to sneak away for a bit because I'm too ashamed to write and report about it, lol.
You absolutely can kick this habit! Like your signature quote says, learn from it and move forward. (: I'll be waiting to hear how you do!
Thanks mottainai. I agree that the day after is really hard. For me I tend to just tell myself that I screwed up yesterday, what's the harm in one more bad day? I nearly binged again. I was in the car driving to the supermarket to get food, then it was like someone turned a switch on in my head, and I turned around when I was halfway there. I eventually went the the store and bought a bunch of healthy food. I had a hazlenut chocolate bar for lunch, which I think is what may have triggered the binge thoughts. I was in the library and I didn't feel like going out to get lunch. I made up for it with a green smoothie when I got home. I also stayed within my calories.
Really good job, Amy!
Especially on turning the car around even on the way to the store, that's super. I can't tell you how many times I've done that, even turning around multiple times! Turn around to go home, then turn around to binge, convince myself again to go home...haha.
Stay strong, girl!
I figure'd I better update this. I nearly went yesterday without overeating but I snapped a few hour before bed. Luckily it didn't turn into a full out binge. I'm hoping to do better today. I've decided to start weighing myself daily again, as I think it may have been doing me more good than harm.
Amy, glad to hear from you, was wondering how you'd been. That's awesome you avoided an actual binge. For sure, if you think it'll help, you can try using the scale again! See how it goes. Good luck! (:
Turning the car around when you are in the zone takes serious willpower. Give yourself credit for that! Especially since you were able to go back and get HEALTHY food later. I presume you were still in a store that had some bad food, but you were able to be in control.
mottainai - Thanks. I've been avoiding the scale for the last few days because I keep falling off the wagon. It's been really frustrating because lately I'll either binge all day, or I'll binge in the morning and get back on track for the rest of the day, or I'll stay on track and binge in the afternoon or at night. I can't seem to have one whole good day.
Ferny1730 - Thanks, my willpower seems to be getting better in some ways and worse in others. I seem to be unable to eat well for long periods of time, but I am getting better at stopping binges before they get too out of control.
AmyAmy - hang in there!! We've all been there!!! Hope you are having a better day today!!
I am committed to not bingeing today! I have had a few moments in the last few days where I almost gave in, but I held out! Also, I had to make a dessert to take to a housewarming party. I ate one and stopped there! The rest are already on a plate to take the party, and I have committed to not eating any more!
Amy - Congratulations on yesterday! I know it can be so hard to get through just one day, and you deserve congrats for getting through!!! Way to go!! You can do it again today!!
I had numerous binge-y thoughts last night. At one point, I thought I was going to cave in. The switch flipped in my head to binge mode, and when that happens, I'm usually at the point of no return. But I managed to save myself by eating about 120 calories of a non-triggering treat and a few diet sodas, and amazingly, I ended the day at 1,400 calories. Today was a planned maintenance day, as I had a restaurant coupon that expired today. Again, I had binge-y thoughts, but I ignored them and had another non-triggering treat that fit into my overall calorie plan for the day. I saved another day! My goal is to make it to Friday, when I go to visit my parents and stay at their house for 2 months. I am determined to not binge while I'm there!
. I think I went through a can of skim condensed milk, half a pack of chocolate mini muffins, a large piece of cheesecake and a large aerobar. Then there's the large bottle of diet Pepsi. 
