sorry i don't have time right now to read all the posts ...but i have to confess...i binged!!! after so many days it finally hit me...all the stress, worries, tiredness and not eating enough in the past days made me binge today like crazy troughout the day since breakfast. i feel like i'm gonna throw up and i just want to go to sleep and i have a big test tomorrow. my life is switched around for 180° and i just need some time to adjust. i can't believe i'm saying this now...but i miss my crazy family soo much. i can't wait to go home to see them.
tomorrow is gonna be a good day...i hope. after my test i'm going to Venice with my friends.

missunshine,
I think it is OK to eat once in a while.
I actually go strict for 4 days and I schedule to eat on the 5th day.
I couldn't do the 1 day a week thing.
so far, it is working out for me.
i.e.m loose 1, gain .25 back... still the net loss is .75

have any of you ladies ever sought professional help? I mean like a psychologist/disordered eating specialist or anything? There is a program with Nutrition Counselor Specialists at my school and I'm thinking about going, the restricting/starving-binge/overeat cycle is really becoming exhausting and I want to stop for real. Any advice from anyone who's gotten help?

Alisapearl- I've thought about it a lot, but I chicken out before I ever end up really getting help..

Missunshine- good luck adjusting! Hope things get better quick!

By some miracle I have made it through 8 days... Ate to matinance today, which is fine because I've got to fuel up for my race on Sunday- I know I won't binge tomorrow because then I'll be sick Sunday morning and my race will suck and I refuse to let that happen- its awesome motivation for me to fill up with only healthy foods and only what I need tomorrow. Plus I'll be too nervous to eat... :P

misssunshine - I'm sorry you're having a stressful time adjusting. Are you able to skype with your family? Being able to see the people in addition to talking to them may help. Enjoy Venice! It's beautiful there. I miss the pizza in Italy!

AilsaPearl - I haven't, but I think you might as well go in for at least one meeting and see what it's all about.

danzingurl - 8 days is awesome, way to go! Good luck with your race! Looking forward to hearing about it.

I went off plan last night, but I didn't binge eat either, so I'm pleased. Now to try to make it through today. Going hiking tomorrow morning...getting in as many as I can before it gets too snowy!

Soooo looking forward to the brunch tomorrow
I was a bit hungry last night but I slept through and it is better today.
I can feel PMS is starting...

have a good Saturday all!

Hello all,

I totally binged BAD yesterday, and then continued to overeat at dinner. After just overdoing it a little on Thursday, it was like I wasn't satisfied with the binge and kept obsessing over it and ultimately "finished" it off the next day. :/

I had a great realization though about why I'm binging. It's tied directly to how I feel about myself and my weight. I realized that when I binge, it's basically the only time I allow myself to feel OK about my body, as contradictory as that sounds....when I'm eating healthily and normally, I tend to hate on myself because I feel like I'm still fat even though I'm doing the right things, but when I binge, I start telling myself, "hey, look at that, I can eat 10000 calories of crap 5 times a week and still at least be this thin!" So I'm actually getting a lot of positive emotions from binging, just because that's the way I think before and after doing it. It's terrible! But now that I've noticed it, I think I can change it. I'm going to take my focus off losing weight and instead make it my goal to building healthy food and exercise habits.

Sorry for the long post, but when I realized that, it was a huge thing for me. Like, surprising, actually, but it made so much sense.

Just want you all to know that I'm keeping up with how you're all doing, and really wishing everyone the best of luck over the weekend!!! (:

Atoms- glad you didn't binge keep it up!!

masterptr- kick that pms in the butt... :P I am sorry though, that's always a tough time as far as food goes!

Mottainai- glad you're making some discoveries about yourself and good luck with turning things around!

Made it through another day! I actually had to force myself to eat because I've had butterflies all day. Tomorrow I'm planning on a (sort of) free day after my race. I'm planning on allowing myself up to 2,500 calories- enough to "treat" myself- but I don't want it to turn into a binge like it normally would. I want to just have a treat, eat enough to recover and then stop. So- we'll see how that plan works out!

at the end of the days I feel burned out and I have the urgency to binge.. I can say that approximately 50% of the times I do not, and that has made a big difference so far. still takes some effort to get your mind off the `goodies' though

Good news and bad- I finished my race 1 minute under my goal time, so I was THRILLED about that. All of the last three months of careful planning and training- it was all worth it!

The bad news- I binged pretty bad. Like- all day- insane amounts of calories. The stress of work next week coupled with the relief of hitting my goal time and being just so dang hungry after running that far totally did me in...

I'm having a hard time really even feeling guilty about it actually. I'm starting again tomorrow and almost feel like I "deserved" a day off. I know that shouldn't mean stuffing my face like a crazy person... So I'm working on changing that mindset.

10 days left to finish October strong!

Good job danzingurl77!!!

10.5 miles outside and I was crawling...
side affect of yesterday (Eat day)....

Have a good one everyone!!!

Day 19 of no binges.

AWESOME!!!!!

Thanks masterptr!

Tubolard- 19 days is PHENOMINAL!

Bad day of bingeing for me :,( that makes two days of HORRIBLE eating in a row... I haven't done that in a while... Those guilty/negative feelings about bingeing are back- and unlike yesterday- I am feeling down about my choices today... Bingeing two days in a row scares me.. It makes me feel like I'll never stop. I know 2 days isn't the end of the world, but in this moment- it sure feels pretty bad.

Tomorrow I've got another chance to tackle this thing... Here's to trying again...

Hi all,

Tubolard-- 19 days, wow!!!! Really fabulous!

Danzingurl-- I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. Twice in a row is so discouraging, I know. Coming out of the rut just gets harder and harder, and even getting back on track feels worse and worse. ): You can do it though!! I'll be thinking about you and hoping you can make it binge free this next day.


I've made it a few days. Weekends hardly count since they're impossible to binge though. New strategies are helping and I'm feeling encouraged I might be able to keep going!