I ate the frozen peaches and they were delicious, but I did eat something else, just don't remember what. I think it was milk?
Soooo stressed today, and OMG, my feet hurt so badly.
I'm such a dufus. the recruiter called to reschedule my Friday appt, from 1 to 2 pm. So, no big deal. BUTTTT, I also have an appt tomorrow at 8 am, or so I think???? ORRRRR did she call to reschedule my appt that is tomorrow to 1 pm on Friday and I AM SUPPOSED to KEEP my 2pm appt. Brain farts !!!! Only way to tell now (I didn't think of this til midnight tonight) is to call at 7 am, to confirm tomorrow's appt.
I feel like such an idiot.
Also my hip and my feet hurt. My feet hurt 100x worse than my hip. I get really swollen and red bottoms of my feet and they feel like they are ON FIRE. They also cramp very badly and are painful to the touch. I did some hunting online because this has never been this bad, and I came up with erythromelalgia, I took a look at the pics, and that seems to be what this is. Of course it is rare. But it sure sounds and looks like it.
So my stressful, pain filled day ended up with me eating a whole 8x8x2 pan (-6 bars) of pecan bars, did it help anything? I actually enjoyed myself while I was not thinking of my feet. (bad, I know). it is not going to help with the weight loss though, on top of me not wanting to exercise because of my hip and feet!
hahahaha i totally feel what you're feeling right now.
take a step back, and breathe.
i am totally chicken-brained all the time so this happens.
you will sort out the recruiter appointments.
if youre injured, maybe you should take time off to recover?
my food was actually surprisingly good yesterday. im really sore, like REALLY sore, today is my last yoga for 5 days which will give the back a nice little break. i also have to manage to pack today (which i have been completely avoiding). this should be good ha ha
I had a long post, but this laptop eats posts....so here goes a recap of what I wanted to say.
stim, sorry you are sore. You have a long enough break scheduled though. I don't think it is an injury, just my body acting wierd. There is no *point of injury*
Tyla, good job.
I am usually not so ditzy. I have just been under alot of stress, and I thought i was supposed to meet her because that was the original plan, but then she changed it to my going to the appt by myself. We do have a meeting on Friday. I have another appt tomorrow at the eye doctor, and we are going to the lake for the weekend, then I have an appt at the endocrinologist on June 14th. Then orientation starts the 18th. not to mention starting this huge paper for my new class.
Yeah, I'm a little frazzled. But, I will make it. God give me strength.
I am NOT WINNING. I feel like a failure. I did about 3000 calories again today, I am so stressed and anxious about my whole life changing. Not to mention I finally checked out my new class and almost had a panic attack. First assignment is to do find 15 articles relevant to my research project. No wonder I dove headfirst into a tub of icecream.
Jen, we are all different, but when I found myself out of control the first thing I did was cut carbs for some days. That reduced my cravings and I found it easier to stay on track. Have you ever tried that? A protein breakfast helps...
Calm down, you will make it. You are astonishingly good at managing stressful situations! Have faith!
Sooo I've not posted here in a million years. (Ok like a 2 weeks or so) but it feels like a million years.
I have some amazing news.
I have not binged in a week and a half. (or so)
I've lost my first mini goal of 10bls..
AND I got accepted into the Social Work program at my school. Life is looking up for me right now.. I'm just so happy. I do not have the urge to binge right now AT ALL. It's so weird for me because around this time at night it's always there.
Now If only I could get a job everything in my life would be perfect.
You'll see that the more days you go without bingeing the easier it gets. I very rarely think of overeating now, and I even need to forcefeed myself now and then to get to my 1300 maintenance cals. I have just eaten two servings of chocolate because I had eaten fruit and salad all day and did not even get to 900 by 10 pm!
Once you decide to make a lifelong change, life gets better all the time!
You will find that job, you'll see!
Last edited by inglesita64; 06-21-2012 at 11:00 PM.
hi girlies...i'm just stopping by to make myself accountable ...i haven't binged in a while but i do overeat...like i just did on my moms pumpkin pie. :/
i'm going out with friends now so i don't have time read all your posts but i can't wait to.
next week i'm going to italy for a month and i can't wait. i decided to join a gym there and try to loose about 8 pounds while away. i have to loose at leat 2 pound before i leave. i keep losing and gaining the same 6-8 pounds + i feel so bloated. and it's so hot here that there is no way to exercise at all. and ironically i stated working in a gym bar and i get a 50% discount for fitness and all workouts and haven't gone once because i feel embarrased and i know too many people who go there so i feel a bit awkward.
i hope to be active here again since the school is over
It hasn't always been easy, but my goal is to make it to day 21.
