I am embarrassed to repeat what happened with me last night, but I know that I must discuss it. I had a great day on plan with my eating. I got home from work ate my dinner and putzed around for a bit before going to bed. As I was lying in bed I started feeling a bit hungry. At that point my mind went crazy. I tried to fight the urge to eat something, but then thought if I maybe just had a little something, I would be able to go to sleep. What happened next is like a blur to me. It was like I stepped out of my own body and was watching someone else.
I ate an orange...went back to bed. Got out of bed, had about 5 carrots and a small amout of veggie dip, went back to bed. Got out of bed, had a small bowl of cereal, (feeling really bad about myself at this point), went back to bed. Got out of bed, had a handful of peanuts and 2 pieces of string cheese.
What's wrong with this picture??? I do know that I am experiencing extreme stress at my job and my husband was out of town last night. I normally have a little something before I go to sleep and I'm trying to stop that habit. But what happened last night was a full fledged out of control binge and I knew that I was doing it, but I swear I had no resistance to fight it. It truly was like I was watching someone else do this, but was feeling the feelings of guilt and remorse.
I know that today is a new day and I started it off with a protein shake and lots of water. I feel ok and I'm trying not to carry over the feelings from last night. I just wanted to share what happened so I could get it out of my system.
Hugs to you! Anyone who has/does struggle with binge eating can relate to your post. I think it's great that you didn't carry over the feelings from last night. This is a great place to post to express your feelings and get that out. I just want to say that even if you ate more than you wanted to, it doesn't sound like an all-out pint-of-ice-cream-plus-an-entire-pizza type binge. In case your wondering, that's what mine would consist of! You can bounce back from this and it sounds like you already are. You mentioned stress about work. Were anxious about work today? Was that disrupting your thoughts and making you think about food? Sometimes, when I dread the next day or am anxious about it, I feel more "hungry" the night before. I know that's just my mind not knowing how to cope well with the feeling. Hugs!
I'm not seeing a binge there. I mean yeah you ate past when you wanted to eat. But, it sounds to me because you were able to somewhat BALANCE it that you didn't eat enough for the day. You reached for veggies and protein. this was a good thing. Sometimes your body says I need a little more food for today, and that is what you gave it.
Wow, I would LOVE to have that kind of binge!! My binges include a lot of pizza, not veggies, cereal, and string cheese - LOL.
Don't feel guilty. If you had ordered an extra large, extra cheese pizza and promptly eaten the entire thing and washed it down with a carton of ice cream and a two liter bottle of pepsi, THEN you could feel guilty. It could be MUCH worse!!
Still, I get your feeling that you ate more than you wanted so late at night. Sometimes anxiety contributes to binging, craving, etc., so hopefully your work stress will calm down. Hang in there, it sounds like you have a good handle on things!!
oh my gosh! Binge eating is sooooo my weakness!
I can't tell you how often I have a "good food day" and even exercise and then at night I chow on whatever I can find. I still sometimes will stop and actually purchase some sort of sinful food. The days I don't I feel good and I think I actually think of it as a "reward" for being good for a couple days.
Totally not conducive to weight loss!
What are other tricks you guys do to stop your binge eating?
I'm all ears!
Last Night!!! BINGE DEMON WON
