It was hard my last binge wasn't really a binge, my husband took us for a drive and we ended up at an all you can eat buffet (that used to be my special treat as it was so far away) so It was,.. do I enjoy that as its only a couple times a year I get there, or do I spend the money on the buffett (which does cost a lot) and pick and eat minimally.
I did eat a couple plates of food (one salad bar, one the main meal) and a bowl of desert.. and it was dissappointing. ! food and binging is no longer a comfort and no longer is blissfull to me (and that is a good thing really)
BUT I do feel ripped off! Driving all that way and paying for something and coming out with nothing but dissappointment and then I start counting my binge days all over, I was so proud I was at 29!! and close to my record.
Krampus, I don't consider that a binge, it was unfortunate, but me personally? I don't consider it a binge. But it's all up to what we feel. I don't know for sure because I don't know what you were feeling, and for me, that's 50% of a binge... emotions/feelings. The other 50% is how much I ate. If I ate more than a day's worth of calories (or close), I definitely consider it a binge.
As for me, Day 1 went ok. Kept myself busy and occupied, and therefore stayed out of the kitchen.
It was pretty emotionally fueled, but I guess better to emotionally eat 420 calories of tofu and veggies and pasta than a 600 calorie box of chocolate covered almonds, which is my ultimate crack binge food.
Glad to hear you made it through Day 1. I am thinking good thoughts for you!
There are a few levels of diet failure for me. I am on a low carb plan so technically I can be off plan but still not binge and be semi eating healthy. However that never happens. When I am off plan it is usually because I had let myself eat a meal or a little something that is not low carb. While this would not be a complete failure if I stopped at this point, it is just not in me to let it go. I can't just eat a little of something junky unfortunately. Its like a vampire with blood--I fiend for junk. lol. When I eat lower carb I definitely feel less fiendish. What I consider a true "binge" is when I eat 1000 or more calories in junk food.
Krampus, I don't think what you did was considered a binge. Yeah it might have been a little hasty and emotionally charged, but to me it just sounds like you had your lunch early. ; 3 Not a big deal. Stay strong girl! You can do it. I know you have had a rough time lately but you totally know you are capable of not binging. You have done this. You have lost the weight and kept it off! Its hard to say no sometimes but remember all that you have accomplished and you have said no before, why can't you do it now?
I'm struggling with the urge to binge. We just found out the newborn son of a friend of ours passed away after some very serious health problems. I feel like a turd for whining about binging, especially after that, because there are far more terrible things out there than binging... Ugh. I don't know. I should probably just try to go to bed early or something.
Today is day 9 if I make it the rest of the day, no worries though. I'm doing great so far. Wednesdays are usually tough because its a day I would normally go to a buffet & binge because I don't have to cook for my family.
I even took my daughter by mcdonalds to get her an icecream cone because she asked if she could have that as her treat for doing well on her tests this week. It wasn't hard at all although I did almost accidentally order a sweet tea, out of habit I suppose. I quickly corrected myself.
This morning (and every morning just about) the first thing I want to do when I get up is eat. Go and get a bowl of cereal and get on the computer. This morning I was berating myself for feeling that way as I went in to do journal writing, and wrote out a script for the thoughts I want to have instead "Yes Sarah, you want to eat, but lets have our quiet time first and THEN you can eat" instead of "MAN I ALWAYS want to eat first thing when I get up and I HATE it."
Baby steps, baby insights. Found myself hungry and munching nuts and dried cranberries with my mama yesterday as I was touring the reception facility and dealing with the dynamics of having both my divorced parents and my fiance's parents there (my parents and his parents are pretty opposite). I know I was hungry but the munching was also emotionally charged. I catch myself sometimes reaching for a bite of food as I have an unpleasant thought. Noticing is the first step?
