Day 15 and feeling pretty good. Didn't each much yesterday because of nerves over the job interview. And, after being nervous all day, the interview only lasted ten minutes before I was offered the job. Starting on Monday.
I think I'm probably happier about the 2 lb weight loss in the last two days than I am about the job.
Day 1 today- Thanksgiving was my down fall, yesterday was horrible too. Two days of binging in a row. Gained 6 lbs so far, my pants are getting too tight. I'm so depressed, but determined to get right back on plan and lose this weight!
Have been at home for Thanksgiving and not able to get one a computer. My parents, I can really see now, are both incredibly anxious people, each in their own unique way. So when I'm at home, I find myself feeling very anxious too! I noticed that earlier today, I just really wanted to eat for no reason. Not binge, but just eat. I guess that's progress?
day 17, feeling ravishingly hungry this afternoon, and fairly dizzy, so decided to eat dinner early rather start munching and end up binging..
so ffar so good.
Yep Thanksgiving turned into a 24 hour binge fest - But I'm back OP - It wasn't the worst binge fest but definitely did not leave me feeling good. Yesterday I ate pretty well, ran 11 miles, and this AM I woke up in a horrible mood. Was tempted to go to the grocery store to buy some comfort food - Instead I went for a 6 miler and my reward was that it started snowing! I think it's the first run I've ever been on when it was snowing (being a Texas girl living in France). My mind kept going back to planning how many cals I could burn today, what I would eat today etc. etc. and then I kept shifting it back to the present - How stunningly beautiful the snow was and John Mayer crooning in my ear
Went to church, then the grocery store - made a delicious salad, bread & cheese and now, I want to eat more haha No hungry, not stuffed but still the desire to eat. Realizing that it's the end of the semester and we have ridiculous amounts of work due before we leave and I think I'm internalizing it - taking it out on myself, stress eating - And so the best thing I can do is eat as healthily as I can and then just buckle down and get to it. Knock out one assignment at a time.
So today is Day 2 for me - Probably spreading myself a little thin on these forums so I'm going to try to stick with this one since emotional eating/binge eating is the biggest struggle for me.
Time to get writing - Hope everyone has a healthy day.
Day 2- made it, but almost didn't. We went to a Japanese buffet, the hot food never tempts me, but the desserts are so hard for me to stay away from. I had my salad and lots of fresh fruit. So many times I almost got up & got lots of desserts, but I didn't.
I'm posting today, because today is incredibly hard. I have a seriously, painful bladder infection, and I'm just hanging on. I can't exercise, can't go outside, there is nothing really good on tv and I'm already up to 1,066 cals. My calorie range only goes to 1550. All I want is a good, warm comfort-food type of dinner and probably some sort of snack after that. What I want will probably add a lot more calories than I need, which will make me feel very sad.
I really have to decide whether I will blow it for a temporary fix and feel very bad after, or choose to stay strong. It's not always easy for me. It takes a lot of inner strength sometimes.
So what am I going to do? I've decided I can hold on. I CAN stay within my range and make it another day. I'm still in pain (even though I'm currently taking my meds), but my determination to make it another day will trump any pain that I'm feeling. Thanks for listening.
Tyla--you can pull through! You've come sooo far, and I know that you can keep that number and add one tomorrow! Just think of all that you've accomplished.
I made it through Thanksgiving!
