I have wanted chocolate & was so hungry for any kind of processed cookies I could get my hands on today. This has been building up for days, so I decided that since my weight was lower, i could indulge a bit. Well, I thought wrong, I'm starting day 1 tomorrow!
Woke up at 7AM and this was a morning to sleep in - didn't go to bed till after midnight but had a bad dream so decided getting up was better than the alternative of trying to fall back asleep. May finish When Harry Met Sally since I didn't get all the way through it last night.
Fruitlady - I TOTALLY understand - I wish I could eat chocolate in normal portions - I LOVE it so much but sometimes wonder if i should just cut out sweets completely - the thought makes me SO SAD
Well today is day 6, a week ago yesterday was my last binge - Some friends were talking about going to a pub to watch a soccer game tonight, which means drinks and potential binging when I get home - May just skip it, but at the same time I've been feeling so bummy recently that I know I could use some mindless fun - Sometimes 2 drinks sets me off and sometimes it doesn't...
Earning day 5 and today broke out of the weight plateau I was stuck on for the two weeks. I love those days when the scale rewards you with a big loss - 2 lbs - yay me!
Fruitlady - in spite of myself I smiled at your comment. I have so been there, done that, it isn't funny. I like to believe it means I'm a permanent optimist because I always think this time will be different. The only way I have ever been able to make it work is to buy a single candy or a mini-bar. If I buy in quantity, I eat in quantity.
Just rocking it - set out an eating plan for the week and sticking to it. Eating the same types of things most day. Never tried planning it out in such detail and keeping it samey. No obsessing with food, its all taken care of. Could this be a break through?
Thanks chicks! Yesterday was so bad, the chocolate, cookies, peanut butter, a whole box of chocolate instant pudding, whipped cream & I'm sure there's more I can't think of right now, I had heartburn all night & I hate trying to sleep with heartburn! 4300 calories for the whole day!
Day 1 went good cause I didn't even want to look at anymore junk food. The sight of it made me lose my appetite. I already gained 3 lbs. & who knows how much more by tomorrow. I think I just have to stay away from it or I'll be sorry, the thought of never eating junk again depresses me. But I'm just as depressed knowing how much weight I gained. You can't win
earning day 98 today!!! sooo close to 100!!! i cannot believe it!!! especially with all the emotional turmoil of this bf stuff... we might be back on... i don't know... sooo confused... but NOT turning to food!!!!
day 1? day 10? day 100? lets rock them all!!!!!
i love that heather small song : Proud... I ask myself often "What have you done today to make yourself proud?" ....
Thank you Kim and Cheryl for your kind words. I made it through Day 1 and Day 2 andI am very proud of myself. I havent gone more than 4 days without a binge since August so I just need to get through until Saturday to feel like I have broken the cycle. I feel strong today though and since starting a small amount of excercise again I feel like I can do this.
Kim you are most definately an inspiration, I hope to be where you are in 95 days.
Happy--thanks! You are worth decent loving man! Good for you to recognize it.
I76--you're doing awesome too! 6 days is nothing to sneeze at (what a weird expression!)
Jessiecat--tips? Hmmm...I think planning is key. I mean, if I get to a point when I'm really hungry and crabby, its harder to resist. Also, most importantly, I think to the last time I binged...and how I physically felt the next day. Sure, during the binge, I did feel soothed, there's no question about that. But then going to bed at night, I can feel my heart racing. The next day, my entire body feels dry, and I have heartburn. My heart is still racing. I'm tired even though I slept a normal amount. Sluggish. Gross. So it's remembering the physical reaction that makes me not want to.
Sarahlynn--good job on day 2--the beginning is the hardest, just keep focused, and I know you can get through!
Loving it!!!!
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