Woke up this morning feeling good, realise maybe I had a virus or something earlier in week. Now feel shameful at the extent of my binge. But that must be put in the past, now I am going to focus on making it through today.
Thanks vixsin and nomakesense.
Day 1, no binges, no obsessing about food and no overeating.
UGH!!!!!!!!
I broke my binge-free streak or what to call it. I don't know what happened but suddenly I was chowing down first two pretty big pieces of chicken, then on top of that I think 100 grams of chocolate..It SUCKS!! AH! I was planning on that if I was having any sweets it would be tomorrow...safe to say that at least that won't happen now. So I have to start over. 10 days I managed. *sigh* Tomorrow I'm back to day 1....
Friday check-in. How is everyone doing? Geared up for the weekend?
Nile - don't sweat it. 10 days is AWESOME! Be proud of your accomplishment and don't let the past define your future. You have done it before and will do it again!
i76 - glad to read that you are moving forward without guilt and obsession. Just get back on plan & know that yesterday's choices do not need to overshadow all of your hard work thus far.
Vixsin - love your attitude!! Awesome! You are doing so well!!
Paris81 - IMPRESSIVE!! You are inspiration.
NoMake - great job. We don't need to be perfect in this journey. Just doing our best each & every day.
fruitlady & YoYono - cravings & snacking...me, too!! PMS has got me eating every 30 minutes, I swear. And I'm HUNGRY. Like all the time, stomach growling hungry. It stinks.
Keep up the great work everyone! I'm headed into another weekend with just me & the kids. I actually feel oddly calm about it, though. We'll see...
i-76- your day one goals sound like they should be my goals everyday. Great idea!
cherylmn- Cravings suck! I'll be fine for days, then all of a sudden I'm craving chocolate.
Day 7- I went to the market last night & almost bought all this food that I used to binge on. Ice cream, peanut butter, marshmallow creme and I've been really hungry for some fattening cookies( didn't have any processed cookies for 2 yrs.). I had it all in the cart, then as I continued shopping, I realized it would be a real disaster if I had that stuff in the house. I put each item back, one by one til everything was out of my cart. Now I am so glad I did, cause today I would have been eating it all. Good luck to us all!
fruitlady!!!! Nicely done on making the wise choice. I've been known to kid myself by buying stuff "for the kids", which I know darn well is so I can eat it all before they ever even know it is in the house. My hat is off to you!
tyla - way to keep strong!!
We're getting ready for our first snowstorm of the season here in MN. I'm hoping that per usual, the weather guys are just looking for something interesting and making it sound worse than it will actually be. Of course the kiddos would be giddy, but I don't want to be home-bound . I'm low on healthy stuff...
TGIF!! Staying strong over here & actually, not even feeling like bingeing tonight. What a change from last Friday. WOO HOO!!
Congrats on making it through day 1 & on to day 2, NoMakeSense!!!
I made some poor choices last night - tired & snacking on pretzels. Too many, but definitely overeating vs. a binge. I just wanted to snack. I hate PMS.
Fast forward to this morning - I'm exhausted because I didn't go to bed until 1:30am (again) & the kids woke up before 7am. And I'm low on healthy choices as I mentioned last night. So, in all of my wisdom, I ate 1/2 loaf of my mother's incredible pumpkin chocolate chip bread. It was a 'mini loaf', thankfully, but still - I estimate 800+ calories for breakfast.
I immediately start thinking about NOT eating for the rest of the day. But have since regained reason & have decided just to be extra diligent about carbs & calories. I can easily keep the rest of my day to 1100 calories, and not be completely deprived. It will just take some effort. Add in a little exercise and VOILA, a day not ruined by morning weakness.
Again, not a binge, but a series of bad choices. Drag...moving on.
Winter is here. Kids are excited - mommy, not so much!
Thanks Cheryl and Tyla! Very excited to be here. But I'm struggling a lot, yesterday was really hard. I kept thinking "what's the harm, one little binge" then "really, what's the harm in one little week-long binge?" Bad bad! But I stayed strong and didn't do it, kept thinking of the 6 months.
But seriously, what's the harm? I'm asking. I mean, ugh, I don't know. I'm just thinking out loud. I'm not going to, it just really, really wish I could take a week off from life, lock myself away in my apartment and only let the food delivery guy in.
Congrats and good luck to everyone on starting day 1--it gets easier, I don't always feel like what I wrote above!!
Well done fruitlady, you recognised you were setting yourself up for failure and took action.
Here I am on day 2, thinking about food a lot but not going to binge. Off out for dinner but gave checked out menu and I WILL be making healthy choices. To be honest just want to stay in and have an early night, these dark nights are killing me.
But seriously, what's the harm? I'm asking. I mean, ugh, I don't know. I'm just thinking out loud. I'm not going to, it just really, really wish I could take a week off from life, lock myself away in my apartment and only let the food delivery guy in.
There IS harm, paris81. Physically, it is extremely hard on your body to process all of that food at one time - especially when you haven't subjected it to those mass quanities in so long. The ramifications would be felt, I am certain of it. Plus, emotionally, it will take its toll on you. You will feel the shame, the weight of this decision, and loads of guilt - all of which can potentially contribute to even more bingeing. So 1 day becomes 1 week becomes 1 month becomes 1 year - I'm sure you know the cycle.
So, stay strong & don't give into that line of thinking. It is faulty - don't trust it.
i76 - I'm struggling with you. Food seems to be all I can think about now. Plus, I'm pretty much homebound with napping kids & no spouse. I would like to indulge in a nap, but everytime I try that, the kids don't sleep...and then I'm super crabby for the rest of the day. Period finally came, so I am in that completely worn-out state physically. I really need to exercise, but it just isn't going to happen today (again).
Hey cherylmn, deep dig, it's tough when you are tired! Try to rest as best you can, even just having a seat and relaxing. I feel like I can't get my batteries recharged at the mo, it's been a week since I have been at the gym. Very unusual for me.
What I have realised lately is that sometimes I think about food all the time but then when I start eating I try to disengage and watch tv or flick through newspaper when eating. What is that about! So now when I eat I am trying to eat slowly and stay focused on what I am eating so I can really enjoy it. Then hopefully my mind is satisfied too.
Today was another success. Dinner our was ok but I had a rocky moment but worked through it.
i am still earning days...today and yesterday were over calories for sure and my belly is unpleasantly full but it was NOT out of control... and the rest of the crap food just went into the garbage with soap on it to be 100% sure i cannot binge... i am lonely... i have decided to break up with my boyfriend (but still be friends) but he doesnt know it yet... it hurts that another intimate relationship has ended... want to know what made me decide for sure that we shouldnt be mroe than friends? listening to Madonna Express Yourself today...
on the plus side, a friend of mine was available last minute and we are going to a local casino to spend $20 and people watch...
i HATE being alone... i just want to cry... i just want to hide... maybe i can pick someone up at the casino ? ha ha ha... tooo friggin funny! like i would ever do that! never!
Day 8, no problem today. I cleaned out the pantry, threw away some organic snacks I've had in there for a while. Their fattening even though they are organic & I'm the only one that was eating them. I bought a variety of dry roasted, no salt added, nuts to snack on. Nuts are healthier snacks & are very filling. I decided that if the family wants sweet stuff to eat, I'll bake something. Now, there is nothing here to tempt me to over eat, just fruit, veggies, yogurt & nuts. The best for me is to not have it in the house.
You are doing so well!!
fruitlady!!!! Nicely done on making the wise choice. I've been known to kid myself by buying stuff "for the kids", which I know darn well is so I can eat it all before they ever even know it is in the house. My hat is off to you!
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