thank you soooo much for the encouragement... i just fed my kids a halloween treat and then baked a cake ... and decided to have a snack (even though i was not that hungry) because it was either yogurt/berries (still in my calories for the day) or binge... so now i am sitting with my computer on my lap watching biggest loser... knowing that i am a biggest loser myself !!!
thank you soooooooooooo much for talking me off that binge ledge! i am an hour from bedtime and not going near food again until tomorrow!
i am sitting here, crying watching biggest loser... a single mom, like me, needs to change and just gave in to eat dessert...oh my gosh... it is sooo touching...so familiar... and to know that i came out on the other side! i am so much better for myself and for my kids now! i don't remember being 320 lbs...
I had no doubt of your success today, Kim. CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are awesome! And might I add that you are a hero to me. Everytime my DH goes out of town I am scrambling trying to figure out how to do it all. I bow down to all single moms who have mad skills that I DEFINITELY do not. You are such a strong person - you have to be to do all that you have done (and continue to do).
Fruitlady - nicely done at The Lobster . WOO HOO!
Welcome MsRatFink - you don't have to wait until next week to jump on in. No time like the present!
JessieCat - sounds a bit like me last night. I made the choice to eat some things that were less-than-healthy. I wasn't over my calories for the day, but definitely not the healthiest I've ever eaten . I'm not counting it as a binge, though, because it definitely wasn't. That definition is up to you, but whatever you wish to call it, it is in the past & we have a whole new day to start fresh in front of us!! :hugs:
Hi Everyone! I've been totally MIA for a bit here, as usual, I've been swamped with school. I need to make a commitment to check in every day, I always feel better when I do!!!
I'm closing in on day 181--my last day 1 was on May 11, so tomorrow, Nov 11--I'll be at 6 months binge-free! I haven't gone that long since I started binging...ages ago!!
thank you cherylmn! you made me cry in an amazing way... that someone i have never met can understand my struggles and what i have accomplished... thank you!!!
thank all of you!!! i feel accountable to all of you and it makes a huge difference!!! i promise to remain binge free to myself but also for you! and i know you are a soft pillow if i do fall... i tackled the cake monster last night, the icing monster this morning and again in the next couple of days... i even bought "extra" cake mix last night iwth intentions of making a cake 'for the kids' and realised that was just the binge-monster talking....trying to find a way to give myself permission to eat a cake (the whole thing!) so... i put it out of sight... the boys don't need it and i don't either!
Today has been another wash out. Sorry. It's almost like I could sense the binge demon wasn't done. However now I am ready to pick myself up and get back into the game.
I need to start focusing on the success and the reason why I want to be fit healthy and strong.
I can't believe I let myself slide so badly. I ate sooo much crap. If I hit myself over the head with a hammer, it would hurt and I would stop. So what's the deal with binging on sugary crappy foods!!
So to everyone who is rocking it, when you look over your shoulder I am doing to be there, tucked into your slipstream. That's until I feel strong enough to go it alone.
Not a complete disaster today but not good. Ended up not getting home for lunch and skipped eating so I was hungry when I started preparing dinner. After making coleslaw for dinner, I decided to eat a small dish of it to take the edge off. Then another dish. Then the whole bowl. Sigh. Then, because "the day was shot", I ate three cookies that my son baked this afternoon. Not the end of the world but I hate the feeling of knowing I should stop but then I keep eating anyway. But I'm done now. Really.
Fruitlady - Gratz on not giving in to the cheese buns. They are definitely far too tempting.
Vixsin - Way to go on the 20 lb off. Round numbers are so satisfying.
happytobeamom - Very well done on making the cake and stepping away from temptation
i76 - I'm with you today on the wash out. But I'm stopping now and will start again tomorrow. We can do this.
i76 & NoMake: You guys are doing great. You're here and you're trying. That's what matters. Don't be so hard on yourself. You'll slip into your stride. Just keep trying. One foot in front of the other.
Kim: Nice work! Way to "back away from the icing!" Definite victory today!
I've never had one of these "cheese buns" of which you speak.....I think I am glad about that. I think I would eat far too many of them.
. WOO HOO!
. I'm not counting it as a binge, though, because it definitely wasn't. That definition is up to you, but whatever you wish to call it, it is in the past & we have a whole new day to start fresh in front of us!! :hugs:
You're here and you're trying. That's what matters. 
Definite victory today! 
