[tyla]

Lizaly, good luck today. Remember, we're all working at this together. Yesterday I had a very stressful day, but somehow I made it through, and I'm so happy that I did today. Here's wishing you super strength for your long work day.

Jeniansmom, congrats on day 10!! Keep up the great work.

It's day 106 for me!

Here's to a strong and successful day!

Tyla

[duqserb]

ugh I'm here. Had to pull a 12 hour shift at work last night and my lovely boss decided to bring in chocolate peanut butter balls. So yeah...you can all imagine how that went :-/

~D~

[paris81]

Starting Day 16 here woohoo!

Tyla--you blow me further away every day! way to go!

Dubserq--good luck starting over!

[Lisa_C]

i had a bad day, two days ago but i'm ready to finish out the month in great fashion.

[Lizaly]

I made it through today more or less ok. I overate a little bit, but no binging.

[rainbow84uk]

Hey how's everyone doing?

I had a reallllly busy week with a huge and really urgent work project which meant I worked 8 hours a day in the office and then came home and sat at my computer working for 8 hours a night. Needless to say, the eating did not go as well as before...

I only managed to go swimming twice all week,, and while I didn't full-out binge at all, I felt pretty lacking in control. By the end of the horrible week and the party weekend which was my reward, I'd eaten and drunk so much and could hardly remember how well I was doing before.

For that reason, this week I chose to begin again at zero, so this is my Round 2, Day 2! I had a good swim today, ate reasonably well and am veryyyyy near to being under 200lb, so staying motivated...

Good luck to everyone! x

[fruitlady]

Day 6 for me. I'm trying not to binge or overeat til Memorial Day. Hope I can make it!

[nmgirl]

i know im 2 days late but i would love to join... i binge eat alot... feels like i never get full.. not very happy with my life at the moment... things have been pretty stressful here with my health.. and the boyfriend drinking EVERYDAY.. we dont have very healthy food but i try to get some when i get the chance... i dont like veggies to much i never really ate them to much but im trying to force them down they just taste like dirt to me ( im a picky eater ) im starting tomorrow though i already... binged today its already 7 pm.. so wish me luck for a new beginning tomorrow!

[happytobeamomof2]

urg... here i am again this week... overate because it tasted good... and am freaking out becuase i am still really sick and the docs still have no idea and i am having my iud removed tomorrow in hopes that my symptoms get better...i am sick and tired of men in general and i just want to be 160lbs now please... not getting closer to 180 again because of this swelling (which is NOT an excuse to over eat and make myself actually 180lbs!!!)

ah... why am i freaking out right now?!?!?!

[duqserb]

I seriously don't even know what the point is anymore. Yeah yeah I know we all want to be healthy and want to have a healthy relationship with food ect But man do I just feel like saying "screw it" right now. Binged yesterday, and basically just finished binging right now. I barely have any food in the apt and yet I binge on my cereal so I don't have a clue what I'm eating for breakfast tomorrow. Ever since I started therapy back in Feb I've still managed to gain 5 or more pounds. It's like having another class to study for. I have these exercises I have to remember to do.....its starting to feel like just ANOTHER thing to add to my list of things to do. And every time I binge all I can think about is what I'm going to report to my therapist the next time I see her. I bought a cute dress for this Saturday and now I'm prob going to feel too nasty to even wear it. I just.....don't know. And the fact that I'll be dealing with this the rest of my life makes it all that much worse. Sorry for the morbid post tonight ladies...just had to get it off my chest. Thanks

~D~

[happytobeamomof2]

duqserb - i am totally right there with you right now!!!! i was 5 months binge free, nearly into the 160s and now i am freaking out... loosing it all... and not caring either... it is not good, not good at all!!!

[nmgirl]

im sick of men already... im sick of the drinking... being un happy and just feeling like nothing.. i hope i can get thru this...

[jeniansmom]

I feel so much sympathy for those of you struggling so much right now. I'm sending love to each of you and hoping for you that today is a better day. I read your words and I know exactly how you feel because I've felt it too. I have no words of wisdom, just offering understanding and love.

I'm on to day 11. Yesterday was ok til the end. I didn't eat enough through the day, it was sooooo hot, we went to the boy's all band concert and sat in that hot gym for 3 hours, the teachers were sooooo long winded. Got home and the boy was wound up, DH was wicked grumpy, it was not a good scene.

I was hungry and needed to eat. I didn't make the best choices but I didn't binge. But I almost felt like I did. I don't know how to describe it. Maybe because it wasn't planned food - but I hadn't eaten some of my planned food during the day and that's why I was so hungry. Maybe it's because of the emotions I had when I was eating, even though they were not why I was eating. I dunno. I went to bed feeling yucky and unhappy with myself.

I can look at it more objectively today. My BS was good this am, my weight was down, my head is clear, I know I didn't binge. It's all so much to figure out. And while I know it's important work, it's tiring. I don't want to be careless because I don't want to backslide, but I also resent having to be so vigilant.

That's something I've been doing a lot of personal work on lately - resentment. I'm discovering I resent a lot of things, and I take it out on myself in the form of food. So I'm trying to identify what I'm resentful for and how it's hurting myself and let it go, but it's not easy.

Sorry this got so long, this is normally the type of thing I'd post in my diet blog but I started typing here first.

Happy, binge-free day to us all. I am glad it's my last day of the work week but I'm nervous about 4 days off and having to make a bunch of sweets tomorrow to take camping this weekend. Wish me luck please.

[paris81]

jeniansmom--You post is so heartfelt! I hope you start to feel better. Resentment is tough--It's so easy to just get stuck in it and feel validated through it but it's only hurting you! Maybe you need to take some "me" time? Go out for coffee or shopping or for a manicure, alone or with a good friend. Good luck!

I'm starting day 17!

[tyla]

Wow, it sounds like this has been a stressful week for all of us! I've had so much work to do this week, am stressed financially and seemed to have let even the little things bother me. But even though I was extra hungry (I know it's all emotions from stress), I've decided I didn't want to go over my calorie range. I allowed myself planned treats this week, so I was able to have my cookie and eat it, too.LOL I was surprised I can actually eat one cookie and stop! This is HUGE for me.!! My motivation was that I wanted to say that I made it to day 107, and now I can say that! And I feel so good physically and mentally because I was true to myself. I owe it all to this thread, and all of you here. Thank you! We are a team. We can do this together!

I'm already going over the list of things I have to do today, and just thinking about them gives me stress.LOL But I know that I feel so much better mentally, emotionally and physically when I eat within my range, so I will stay within it.

I've decided that I will have fun over Memorial Day Weekend, but I will stay within my calorie range over that weekend, too. I don't want to feel sick to my stomach, depressed, hate myself, feel out of control and miserable and then gain weight on top of that. It took too long for me to lose this weight.

You know, I worked really hard this month and I only lost 8 ounces. That would have been a reason for me to say to **** with this, that it's too hard. But at least it's going down.

Paris, thank you for your kind words and congrats to you for being on day 17! Excellent!!

Lizaly, congrats on making through the day!

rainbow, good luck in reaching Onederland! You are almost there!

fruitlady, congrats on day 6!

nmgirl, welcome!

duqserb and ohiofreespirit, good luck today!

Happytobe, glad you are back!! I am truly sorry about all of the stresses you went through. I wish you all kinds of success today. You have been very strong and determined before, so we all know you can do this again!! You have inspired many of us here.

jeniansmom, congrats to you on day 11! Great job on staying strong in spite of your hard day! Keep up the great work!

Let's all stay strong the rest of the week. I know we can do this together.

I wish us all super strength today.

Tyla