thanks everyone for your thoughts and suggestions...
@ missunshine- you might have the urge to binge because you might be depriving yourself too much. i tend to do that as well. one of the reasons i've been able to minimize my binges is because i've found lower cal substitutes for my fave foods, or if i feel like having a piece of something i shouldn't, i have it and forget about it, and get back on track (this is not easy, but it gets easier). also, i don't keep junk in the house. so if i really want something, i need to physically go out and get it. most people who binge do it alone...i'm worried that you want to throw up after...its better to just deal with the binge and try to refocus.
@ tyla- i've been working hard for about a month and a half, and i've binged twice in that time period. and i've been fighting the urge for a few days now, and i'm not sure where its coming from...i'm pretty self aware of my feelings and such. actually, things are getting better in my life in general- i've lost some weight, FINALLY got a job, i have a great boyfriend. i am bored a lot, but i find ways to keep myself busy. i just plain old want to eat with no restrictions. thats it...i'm a free spirit, and i hate rules and regulations, but i also understand that this is essential for weight loss and overall health. i will have restrict and control myself. quite frankly, i hate it..lol. but i do feel better, now that i've implemented a change in my diet and exercise plan.
like i said before, if i really want something i'm not supposed to have, or i have a bad meal (not a binge) it's been easier for me to move on. in the past, i lost 80lbs (and gained it all back!) and NEVER let myself deviate. so this works for me now...a little more control, but its ok if i slide once in a blue.
the binge thing is totally separate. like i just want to do it.
i hope this all makes sense, i know its a little scattered...
thanks for hearing me out, all of you here give me a lot to think about and give me a fresh perspective
