I think this is actually working!
Hey everyone,
So, my TOM started late last week... It came earlier than expected, which I knew is due to having a lower body fat %. I was SOOOO happy! And then a few hours later I was angry, lol. When I start my TOM, I get incredibly bingey and hungry. It's unreal how hungry I get. So I had a few slip-ups, like having chips or a cookie, but I always stayed in my calorie range... Just going into my maintenance calorie range once. AND I didn't beat myself up over it!!
I've also started binges, even giving myself permission to binge... Like this afternoon, I isolated myself a little and went for a monster cookie (it's delicious, gigantic, and 500 cals YIKES). I planned on eating much more, but then I got halfway through the cookie, and was *done*. I thought, "Meh, this is good, but I really don't anymore." I can't remember the last time I've actually thought that AND put the rest away. I was in shock lol. Then tonight, we ordered some pizza and I once again stayed within my weight loss calories...
On top of all this, THE BOYFRIEND NOTICED MY WEIGHTLOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!! He came back to college last night and gave me a hug, and he took a minute to feel my lower back a little and said, "Lizzie, have you lost weight?!" It was like he proposed, I started screaming, "YES YES YES!!!! Yaaaaay!" and laughing like a lune lol. Bless him, he joined in on the celebration lol. To confirm the weight loss, I stepped on the scale and saw that I was down to 160.
I feel like this is all clicking now, I've actually stuck with this and I'm noticing results. It hasn't always been easy, but it's been easier than in the past because I've been consistent and I'm not starting over every morning. Thank you EVERYONE for all your support! Having a great community to come to when I'm on my last bit of motivation to not binge or to just stay away from the kitchen has made this a very positive experience. Or negative, however you want to look at it. =)
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but they were yummy!
