I did something awful this morning. I actually unwrapped some xmas chocs I had bought for a friend and ate the lot. It was stupid and I clearly wasnt thinking straight and now I feel physically awful, ugh, so I probably wont eat alot today.
I did this last year...it's good to know I am not the only one who would do this. It's hard, food is an addiction....could a drug addict wrap up their drugs and give them away? Hope you're doing better now
I am just checking in to say that I made it through today binge-free! A huge tower of chocolate arrived this afternoon from my husband's company and I considered eating the whole thing and not even telling him about it, but I talked myself out of it. Nope, you are not the only one.
I began to realise the more I did, the more it wasn't about the things I was doing...it's about me being unhappy inside, and its so superficial but its because of the way I look! I know if I was slimmer, I would be soo happy!
You've got a point, Blondie. It's not really about my job. No, I don't get any satisfaction or sense of fulfillment from my line of work, but then who said I'm supposed to?? Most people are in the same boat with me. It's a steady paycheck and that's really all it needs to be. I just need to look for fulfillment outside of my job. Thanks for the reminder!
I have to disagree with the idea that thinner = happier, though. At least for me. I've been thinner. Managed to get down to a BMI of 17 at one point, but I wasn't any happier being skinny. Focusing on my weight was just a way to keep from focusing on the real issues underneath...the self image problems and depression that led me to get fat in the first place. Obviously I didn't fix those because here I am...fat again. Too much emotional eating!!
Have managed to keep from bingeing this week, just barely. The problem is I am doing a TON of work painting, cleaning and organizing. So busy that I forget to eat lunch. Thats the problem. Later I am ravenous.
I am avoiding the binge by eating a small amount. Then I wait 15 or 20 minutes, and eat more. Then I wait a bit again, and if still hungry then have a bit more. It would be better if I would remember to eat properly tho.
I spent most of yesterday eating - but I have to say I enjoyed the food I had. My relationship wiht food is changing. When I chose to eat more than usual I am eating more of "usual" foods, not buying in junk especially for a binge which was my old habit. I hope life continues to change in 2009 and all the people on this thread are helping me to make the change.
Best wishes to all.
the first 3 days of my new lifestyle plan were very difficult. i obsessed about food and junk food the whole 72 hours (minus sleep). since then, though i have not had any cravings and have had total control of my eating habits. a box of truffles and dove chocolates remain in my cupboard, untouched (except two doves). when i ate the one dove i got very sick and had to go to bed early just to be rid of the stomach ache. i never thought i would reach a point of no junk food cravings. very proud and that feels very good.
Katie, be proud of your accomplishment. I don't want to be a wet blanket, but you have just started this, and the cravings will come and go. Its a long term thing.
Managed not to vacuum up all the chocolates at last nights family Christmas dinner tho, even tho I REALLY wanted to.....
Had to fight the binge, after no urges for a while.....
I really felt at the end of this week like I just could not stop myself from overeating in general. Its a horrible cycle, I either overeat - or I binge. Anyway this weekend I visited my father and managed to eat til I was satisfied and not binge. Now that I'm back home I dont know how easily it will be but I have two days of clean eating to start me off.
Katie, be proud of your accomplishment. I don't want to be a wet blanket, but you have just started this, and the cravings will come and go. Its a long term thing.
I apologize to the whole group for saying this flip response, and possibly hurting the feelings of a new member.
Katie, you don't know me yet, and I am not usually like this, put it down to holiday stress and tiredness, as well as fighting my own urges.
I do welcome you to the group, and will try to be more supportive in the future.
